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DISCLAIMER (YOU HAVE TO WATCH UNTIL THE ENDING OF THE VIDEO. THE ENDING IS REALLY HEARTBREAKING AH)

Won't Go Home Without You

Maroon 5

I asked her to stay, but she wouldn't listen.

She left before I had a chance to say.

The words that would mend the things that were broken.

Now its far too late she's gone away.

Every night you cry yourself to sleep.

Thinking why does this happen to me.

Why does every moment have to be so hard.

Hard to believe it.

It's not over tonight.

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

I may not make it through the night.

I won't go home without you.

The taste of her breath.

I'll never get over.

The noises that she make keep me awake.

The weight of the things that remain unspoken.

Built up so much it crushed us everyday.

Every night you cry yourself to sleep.

Thinking why does this happen to me.

Why does every moment have to be so hard.

Hard to believe it.

It's not over tonight.

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

I may not make it through the night.

I won't go home without you.

It's not over tonight.

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

I may not make it through the night.

I won't go home without you.

Of all the things I felt I've never really showed.

Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go.

I should not ever let you go~

It's not over tonight.

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

I may not make it through the night.

I won't go home without you.

It's not over tonight.

Just give me one more chance to make it right.

I may not make it through the night.

I won't go home without you.

And I won't go home without you.

And I won't go home without you.

And I won't go home without you.

This song. Reminds me of everything we once had. I won't go home without you. Because you're already home with me. In my heart.

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Please do not misunderstand me. I no longer want what I wanted. I've got it kept locked down. All I need now is what used to make you happy. What I should be happy for as well.

422

One Piece Of Memory, One Piece Of Heart I


We could have sat there forever.
Eternally frozen together.
Wind in your hair, tickling my nose.
Sitting side by side, our hearts close.

Nothing else in the world matters, we're alone.
We playing games on another dude's phone.
Smiles on our faces, we are so close.
Sitting beside you, never gonna be apart.
The wind in your hair, tickling my nose.
Gripping my heart.


~ We can go back to the time, when we were all we could be. I will not ask for more. I won't make the mistake like last time. Only if you want.

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Just a point to note, all I want to see is you be happy. Really. That's all I need.

420

What have I become?

I've been living this so-called life for about a year. I've got nothing out of it. Ever since that happened, nothing have been going my way.

I'm writing here today not for myself, but for someone far more important than myself. Someone I had neglected. Someone who I never really treated as important. Yes, that might sound absurd.

Well, all I had been trying to do, was all for myself. I wanted to feel full. I wanted to feel whole. I wanted to feel something that I was never meant to feel, happiness. To get what I want, I neglected what you needed.

Yes I did. You needed care and I tried to give "love". You needed friendship and companionship and I failed to recognise that. I thought you wanted something more. And by more, I don't mean it in a good way. Sometimes, the warm feeling of someone who will listen to you and be with you can overwhelm everything else. It was very simple for me, I failed to see it.

All I needed was for you to be happy. And if you're happy, I'd be happy too. I had a wrong sense of direction and what you needed to be happy. Happiness isn't that complicated. I did not realise that I did not require elaborate planning and countless thoughts to make you smile. It was simple. Way too simple, that I did not see it.

And by simple I don't mean it being simple to make you happy. It is very simple because there's only one thing that I needed to do. But that one thing is very difficult.

I regret the day that I destroyed it all. Yes, I have plenty of regrets, but this is the one decision that I regretted the most. I tried to be honest with you, maybe it was the right thing to do. But not the thing that I should have done. The promise I made then, I broke it. Terribly.

I promised that if we fail to work, we could go back to what we were. Easier said than done.

But that does not mean it cannot be done.

I cannot blame you for anything, as it is entirely my fault. I made things so complicated, I made things so disastrous, I made things so screwed up. If only I had decided to hold my words back, keep my love locked down, everything could've gone on just like before.

Just like a fairytale, except that it is real.

By replacing something that is indestructible, I made it one of the most fragile things ever. I was too greedy. I asked for more when I already had all I needed.

Well, come to think of it, I think that you were happy then. Or I'm probably horribly mistaken. Again.

Well, even if you weren't, things could have been better. We could have been everything we wanted to be. Only if I had kept quiet.

Yes. It was my fault. I tried to take us further than we should go.

I tried to save something that is beyond rescue.

I failed in trying to move on after that.

If only I had kept my mouth shut, and lived the days just like any other, I don't even have to move on. Nothing would have fallen apart. Everything could have gone on perfectly as before.

I'm sorry, I'm being selfish again, I wanted you to be happy so I could be happy.

Yeah, I'm not someone you should be with.

But why did I even think of that? We could have been friends, and continued to be. Why did the demon in me ask for more than that? Being friends with you, is already such a blessing to me. I was an idiot for trying for more.

Yes, its perfectly alright to put all of the blame on me. I accept responsibility for all the mistakes I have made and the promises I had broken. I don't deserve your love even if you wanted to give it back.

No, I don't need that anymore. And I believe you don't need mine either.

I don't know about you, though I really wish I do. But all I need now, is for us to go back, back to before I made the fatal mistake. The good times.

Maybe you wish for the same too.

If we are unable to work it out, we could go back to what we were. Friends, good friends. I promised.

Easier said than done.

But that does not mean it cannot be done.

I promised.

I promise.

It's not too late.

From now on, its never going to be about me again. It's just gonna be about you.

I promise.

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All this time, for more than a year, I've been working on the wrong principle, the wrong mindset, the wrong concept. I was just so used to getting what I need, that I did not recognise what you wanted. No, its not too late to turn things back. All I need to do now is to tear down the walls that are constructed by my very own mistakes and faults. Tear all of them down, and I'll see us again, real and happy, and this time, I will never again make any mistakes or do anything wrong. It's not too late to start over, and by starting over, I don't mean the way I did it, but the way you wanted it. I was just too selfish. I'm sorry. Too late to go back to square one? Maybe. Maybe not.

Or am I again making the mistake that I made that time? By hoping way too much.

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You don't know how much it hurts.

Either that or you don't care how much it hurts.

I force my eyes to look away but what's left of my heart still turns in your direction.

I guess I just hoped too much.

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Happy Birthday Chantalle!

Haha, I hope you have a great day and a great 16th year ahead :D And thanks for coming to this blog also :) . It's great to know you still visit this place often haha

Btw I miss the mornings in year 1 and year 2 when we and the rest of the dudes can take subsidised bus together LOL, quite fun haha

Anyways this might be a little bit late, but I still hope you enjoy today, and all the best for the coming tests and exams :D

See ya around in school!

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Lovestuffs : Meaningful And Meaningless

Well, I'm back again, after a long time.

I wanna talk about something which have been bugging me a lot these days. In contrast with my previous days where there are many many problems, this time, there's only one problem.

Well if you look at it this way, life is pretty straightforward. Even if there are many problems in your life, all you need to do if solve them. However, if there's NOTHING in your life, it is a much more complicated matter.

Every night, we will go through a thought process of what we are looking forward or not looking forward to the next day. And every morning, we will wake up to something new in the day. It could be something that we look forward to or something we dread. But nevertheless, its still something. If you have lots of things to look forward to, good for you. If not, I suppose the bad bout of dread will pass soon enough, to be replaced by things you will look forward to.

Well, there's a problem with me here. When I wake up in the morning, all I want to do is to fall back onto bed and sleep, and the best thing that could happen after that is that I WILL NEVER WAKE UP. Life would be so much better for me that way, or death, rather. Honestly, there's nothing in the day to look forward to nor anything to dread, because there simple isn't anything in my life now at all.

When I was younger, I looked forward to discovering new things and fun stuff to do.

In the primary school days, I looked forward to having fun with my friends in school.

In the early secondary school days, I looked forward to trying to get as much fun as I can under my parents' iron grip with my friends. That was something of a challenge and every little accomplishment made things very meaningful.

Well, in Year 3, I can say it was the most meaningful year of my life so far. I lie down every night thinking about the pleasant surprises that could happen the next day. I wake up every morning with a smile, eager to get to school so I can see your beautiful face. You gave meaning to my life. You gave meaning to me. You made me feel that life is worth living. I want to give up everything in my life just to be with you. That's my mistake, I made you my everything.

By making you my everything, once you're gone, I will have nothing.

Yes, you are gone now. Even though you're still there. I'm sorry this sounds like Mr Seow but its true.

You are right there, but gone from me. Now that everything in my life is gone, I have nothing left.

Do you know how much pain I feel when I look at you? Do you know how much joy I feel when I look at you?

You were the one who made my life so worth living and so happy, that I could not imagine my current state then. I would never had thought it would come to this. Well, maybe its because I'm too selfish about myself.

But still, caring for you, doing all I can for you, that's what made my life worth living.

Now, I can no longer do anything, because you don't want it.

Ok I'm going off topic, I will talk more about the best days of my life with you in another LoveStuffs entry.

For now, back to the main topic.

Well, its pretty simple actually. We all have something which we think is meaningful to do. Take that away, and we'll have nothing meaningful to do.

When you walked out of my life, I tried searching for other things to take your place. Well, you can guess, it failed pretty badly, because you are IRREPLACABLE.

I tried to put my life in gaming, like I did when I was younger. But since I have severe restrictions on gaming, which is to say, I am not allowed to play games at all, I can't do that. And gaming won't be beneficial to both my schoolwork and my eyesight.

I tried to put basketball at the forefront. However, uncooperative parents and other circumstances limit my time with the sport I love. Added to the standing down of CCAs and increased workload, I have the bare minumim of time to pursue this.

I tried to reignite my interest in the piano. But as I said, schoolwork invades and I don't really have the passion left for it.

Now, I tried to place friends in every corner of my life. I tried to socialize, go out more, and get to know more people and people better. Well, apparently, I am supposed to give up these 60 plus days of my life for nothing but mugging. According to my parents.

Well, I guess its kind of a reasonable excuse, just for a huge exam, we should give up just 60 plus days of our lives. Ok not entirely reasonable.

Studying, to me, is entirely not meaningful. That's why I need something else which is meaningful in the meantime. An unfortunate incident on Saturday made me realise that friends, is no longer an option for me to consider.

So what's left now? I've got nothing to live for, nothing meaningful to do, except studying. Well, I'm not gonna give up any part of my life for something so mundane and meaningless. Never.

So, what's keeping me alive now? I can say there's only 3 things.

1. The hope, the tiny shred of hope, that we could go back, rediscover, and find what made us magical then. There's still hope to find it again.

2. This blog. I think the one of the only meaningful things I'm doing now is writing here and keeping this place updated. So I do hope all of you who're reading this look deeper into the videos I post, the stuff I write and things such as this, you can call it a rant. There's a lot of things I want all of you to know.

3. My friends and family. Dear friends, all of yall are very understanding towards me. I appreciate that a lot. My family, I respect their motive behind what they are doing, but not exactly their actions.


Well, what more can I say now? The next 60 plus days will be the darkest days of my life. I will have nothing to look forward to and nothing to live for, really. Again and again I will wish that I can go to sleep and never wake up. Well, I guess you can say that its just because of one reason, one person. Maybe. I'm not calling on you to give up any part of your happy life to help mine, because a person like me is not worth helping. Eventually, slowly, I will get out of this. All I need is some time to discover something worth living for other than you. Well, I would most probably fail again. But I will approach this with the mindset which I had when I approached you,

"Well, I would most probably fail. But it would not hurt to try :)"


PS : This ain't really much of a Lovestuff. Its more of a Lifestuff. Anyway, Lovestuffs don't make sense in the first place. None of us know what is love, only what we think is love.

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The Story Of The Man And The Angel With The Broken Wing
Written By Me, For Everyone


For every angel that falls from the sky.
There will be a man who catches her.
For every heartbreak that that man has.
There's an angel who's responsible.

Once upon a time, the most beautiful angel in the world, fell in love with her guardian angel. She gave her heart and soul to him, so surely and safely he would keep.

Together they jumped and took to the skies, to see new places way up high. Yes, angels could never cry. About their love, nobody could deny.

They loved each other, like no other. They were the talk of the universe. Nothing seemed to be able knock them down. Love seems more powerful than anything now.

But one day, her guardian angel made a mistake, when she's sleeping in his arms. To see another, he turned his head and let the most beautiful angel fall down.

And thus from the sky, an angel falls. The most beautiful thing the world has ever seen. But never had there been someone so hurt. For her guardian angel broke her heart and her wings.

Now here walks the man, he's unaware that the best thing in his life is going to happen to him. He's just an ordinary man like any other, except that he tries to help whoever he sees.

Here, the angel falls into his arms. He's caught by a huge surprise. He had always been lonely, and he wished for love. And now his wish happens in real life.

The angel was hurt with her broken wing. She pleaded with the man to help her heal it. The angel was shattered with her broken heart. She wanted the man to help her mend it.

The man was stuck in a dilemma. He really wanted her to stay with him. He could choose not to help her, so she could stay here on Earth with him.

But the angel's happiness mattered more and the man could not bear to see her cry. He decided to love her unconditionally because he was nice and his heart was kind.

Back at his home, he tried his best to heal the angel's wounds. He gave her all of his love and care, in the hope that she would recover soon.

He cared for her, he looked after her, and he helped her in any way he could. He was doing all that so she can be happy, just like he thinks he should.

For her broken wing, he gave all of his time and effort, and fixed it up quickly. To encourage the angel to smile again, he motivated her daily.

For her broken heart, he had no other choice. He took out his own and gave it to her. So now she's full and whole again, almost ready to fly higher.

He listened to her and her stories, determined to cheer her up. Her previous guardian angel had let her go, the man is her guardian angel now.

Finally, the angel recovered fully, she does not need the man anymore. She is determined to find her guardian angel again and forgive him for his biggest flaw.

When the man found out she was leaving him, pain shot through his soul. He could no longer be heartbroken because his heart is given to the angel.

One day, the angel decided to take her leave, because she had enough of walking. She wants to fly in the sky again, with her previous guardian angel waiting.

Without thanks, she bade the man goodbye and smiled a smile that could make any man's heart stop. He pretended to be happy for her, because she was finally gonna fly back to the top.

With a smile too, he said goodbye, even though he was dying inside. All the love and care he had given her, is all for her moment of flight.

And she was flying, flying away from him, the best happiness he ever had. She was going to rejoin her guardian angel, who might again do something just as bad.

With a sigh, he turned from the sky. Walking back home under moonlight, his heart in pain. Oh wait, he gave his heart to the angel, so he doesn't have one now.

He could have made it so that the angel would stay with him.

But he cared for her happiness more than his own.

He gave her everything he could, so she could look for what she wants.

So she will be happy, even though he will suffer alone.

So, with a sigh, he forced himself to turn. Never before had he felt such pain. She was the best thing that happened to him, and never again, will something as beautiful,

as magical,

as amazing,

happen to him again.

But for the angel, at least, she lived happily ever after.

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Welcome To Heartbreak

My friend showed me pictures of his kids

And all I could show him was pictures of my cribs

He said his daughter got a brand new report card

And all I got was a brand new sports car, oh

And my head keeps spinning

Can't stop having these visions,

I gotta get with it

And my head keeps spinning

I can't stop having these visions, I gotta get with it

Dad cracked a joke, all the kids laughed

But I couldn't hear him all the way in first class

Chased the good life my whole life long

Look back on my life and my life gone

Where did I go wrong?

And my head keeps spinning

Can't stop having these visions,

I gotta get with it

And my head keeps spinning

I can't stop having these visions, I gotta get with it

I've seen it, I've seen it before

I've seen it, I've seen it before

I've seen it, I've seen it before

I've seen it, I've seen it before

Oh my God, sister getting married by the lake

But I couldn't figure out who I'd wanna take

Bad enough that I showed up lateI

had to leave before they even cut the cake

Welcome to heartbreak

And my head keeps spinning

Can't stop having these visions,

I gotta get with it

And my head keeps spinning

I can't stop having these visions, I gotta get with it

And I and I can't stop

No, no, I can't stop

No, no, no, no, I can't stop

No, no, no, no, I can't stop

Can't stop, I can't stop, I can't stop

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

No, no, no, noNo, no, I can't stop

I can't stop having these visions

I gotta get with it

The art in the video is freaking nice and the song is really emo. Starting from yesterday, i've been re-listening to Kanye's album 808's & Heartbreak, and i'm rediscovering its magic haha. The standout songs are Love Lockdown, which I can kinda relate to, and Heartless, which don't need anymore emphasis as I consider it a song which represents me and this entire blog is sorta based around the song. I think I started listening to lots of Kanye again after a long time because i watched this 2-hour long show on mtv which showed kanye's top 20 songs' music videos, and it was really enjoyable. And my sis likes listening to hip hop too, i think i influenced her de >.< . anyways do check out some of the songs if you wanna, and jiayous with whatever work you're doing haha.

Oh and btw, if you find any nice distractions which can draw my mind away from thinking, do tell me. I need distractions. Seriously

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You don't kill me. You torture me but you keep me alive.

412

The way I used to be able to look into your eyes made my heart stop.

Now, the way you look at me just shatters it.

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Not The One
By Me, For You

I'm sorry baby, I'm just ugly.
The one who can't provide for you.
I've been trippin' on you lately.
And I don't know what to do.

I guess I'm just too clumsy.
I can't handle a diamond as bright as you.
I think I'm just too lousy.
I can't do what I should for you.

Maybe I fear what you'll think.
When I try to make things good.
Because you know you don't want it.
And I can say I know it too.

I know it's best for a person like me,
to die and fade off from this world.
So a person like you can see,
a way more better life than before.

Oh wait, I'm sorry, there's no other like you.
You're the only star in my universe.
Oh wait, I got that wrong too.
You are the one who is my universe.

But I know what I am to you.
I'm simply nothing, something which don't exist at all.
Or something that you hope do not exist.
Well, maybe I should grant your wish after all.

But I don't do magic like them other dudes do.
I'm just the show's backstage crew.
Someone who's just an annoyance in your life.
Something which is less than nothing to you.

I lack the strength to make you smile.
I don't have the power to make your life better.
I can't make you have me on your speed dial.
Without me your life would be better.

I don't deserve a mention when you talk.
I don't deserve to see the beautiful way you walk.
I can't motivate you, or make you see,
the things to look forward to to make you happy.

To me, you are everything that I live for.
To you, I'm something you would rather live without.
Oh I'm sorry, I got that wrong again.
I'm just nothing, nothing to mention about.

My name don't float in your head like them others do.
My face you would rather not see too.
My so-called love is something you can do without.
Because I can't act, I'm the backstage crew.

I don't know what to say to make you smile.
I don't know what to do to make you happy.
Maybe the things I'm doing now is actually right.
But to you, it depends on who's the one saying things.

We can say the same things just as nice.
We can do the same things just as sweet.
Everything we do can be exactly identical.
But, it only matters who's the one doing it.

I'm just too talentless, who's got nothing to give.
The pathetic beggar, the careless thief.
Sometimes I really hate myself.
Oh wait, I got that wrong, I hate myself all the time.

For not being able to be the one for you.
To be the one that you look forward to
seeing everyday, look forward to the things you could do,
with the one, whom you would say "I love you" to.
Then he would say "I love you" back.
So he can keep your smile intact.
All this is true, its not an act.
Even if it's on stage, I'm the backstage crew.

The one who you would never know.
The one thinks the world of you.
The one who you wish was better off dead.
The one who should stop doing the things he do.

The one who can't put a smile on your face.
The one who is acting, wait I got that wrong, being a fool.

The one who's nearing the end of his days.

The one who can't live without you.

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No. No, no, no, no, no. Never. I'm not like that. It's not like that.

409

"Well, the word "her" is a universal word. Why? Because my universe, is her."

- Casual conversation between me and Jiajian

408

In a moment of delusion, I threatened the existence of everything that mattered to me. Things I cannot do without.

407

Always around.

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Misery

Oh yeah

Oh yeah

So scared of breaking it

But you won't let it bend

And I wrote two hundred letters

I won't ever send

Somehow it is cut so much

Deeper then they seem

You'd rather cover up

I'd rather let them be

So let me be

And I'll set you free

I am in misery

There ain't no other

Who can comfort me

Why won't you answer me?

Your silence is slowly killing me

Girl you really got me bad

You really got me bad

I'm gonna get you back

Gonna get you back

Your salty skin and how

It mixes in with mine

The way it feels to be

Completely intertwined

It's not that I didn't care

It's that I didn't know

It's not what I didn't feel

It's what I didn't show

So let me be

And I'll set you free

I am in misery

There ain't no other

Who can comfort me

Why won't you answer me?

Your silence is slowly killing me

Girl you really got me bad

You really got me bad

I'm gonna get you back

Gonna get you back

Say your faith is shaken

You may be mistaken

You keep me wide awake and

Waiting for the sun

I'm desperate and confusedS

o far away from you

I'm getting here

Don't care where I have to go

Why do you do what you do to me, yeah

Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah

Why do you do what you do to me yeah

Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah

I am in misery

There ain't no other

Who can comfort me

Why won't you answer me?

Your silence is slowly killing me

Girl you really got me bad

You really got me bad

I'm gonna get you back

Gonna get you back

Ouch for Adam Levine haha.

I can relate to the lyrics yay

405

This make me think of the history that I should be doing now. Screw this weekend really. T.T

404

For Someone So Destroyed By Emotion
By Me :)

Warning, please do not approach.
That's the sign he hang above his head.
He's a time bomb about to explode.
Don't go near him or you'll be dead.

For when things don't go his way,
And another doesn't do as he wants,
It will be the end of the world for him today.
Everything will mean nothing at once.

He lets his emotions take him over.
And turn him into a heartless beast.
One moment he's in rage and the next he's sober.
He won't give a damn if your heart beats.

Then the rants come rambling out.
His words resemble that of a drunkard.
There's everything he can do without.
But there's nothing that can make him better.

He stares at the ground with suicidal thoughts,
And smiles sarcastically at your helpless words.
Don't bother, you won't help a lot.
Not because you can't, because he won't let it work.

He won't give a damn about how you feel.
Because how he feels is more important.
To save his so-called life, he won't hesitate to kill.
So there's no point being so persistent.

Leave him alone, let him sort it out.
He's out of his mind for this period of time.
He let himself destroy himself inside out.
And refused to be helped by anyone else.

For someone so destroyed by emotion,
here I say this.
I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do for you.
So just help yourself, please.

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Late Afternoon Melancholy

4.00 pm to 6.00 pm

On the MRT train or bus, staring outside. Sometimes at home staring at the slightly dark cloudy sky. Mid-tempo Jay Chou's emo. Songs about heartbreak and loss. Guitar strums and moody lyrics.

My heart aches for you to be with me.




Mid Evening Melancholy

8.00 pm to 9.00 pm

At home alone by the desk beside the window. Sky is inky black. Piano notes trickle through the speakers. Slow tempo emphasising loneliness and solitude.

I've never felt more alone before. Ever since you left.

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Meaning: "Beloved"

Alternate meaning: "Be loved"


You can be loved, but that does not mean you will love in return.

401

What's the difference between

"Do you love me?"

and

"Do you still love me?"


Well I never had any love to begin with.

400

400th post! thanks for coming to this blog yall, ima try to get more pics and stuff up here so to keep things interesting and colourful. also, please tag more in the tagbox on the right side, because its kinda dead. so do help me out haha. shouts go out to wenning and hweepin for trying to keep it alive. anyways, you can also tell me some stuff you wanna see on this blog, like what stuff you wanna see more of and what stuff you wanna see less. can make this blog more interesting yaknow? so, keep coming here, go tell your friends, and get me more blog views :D thank you all

399

If the world wants to keep me from you, I guess I gotta take on the world. If fate and destiny conspire to stand between us, I guess I have to shoot them dead. If you want to keep me from you, there's nothing I can do.

398

昏下的琴键太寂寞

来来去去只剩很拙的双手陪着固执的我

不停弹奏不停的犯错想起他为你唱歌时的温柔我会笑着难过

他能给你保护　

代替我的照顾这是我最后的祝福

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

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谢谢你曾让我　幸福

不停唱着越来越清楚

想起你看他眼神中的满足我学会了服输

他能给你保护　

代替我的照顾我只能偷偷的　

为你祝福

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

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谢谢你曾经让我　幸福

想着手心的感触想着脸颊的温度

谢谢你那些年　

为我付出

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

记忆留在最初

谢谢你曾让我们　幸福

This song kinda describes things now. And I apologise for being a bastard and not thanking you for anything. I think its far too late but I still want to thank you. Because you gave me the memories that kept me alive until now.

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Looks like a tumblr item. hahaha. but honestly, this mami~*$^*#$ is something we experience quite often everyday. oh wait, not both desire, just one.

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This is ... ah.

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Smiles Planted By Another Man
By Me :)


"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

Yeah I think I'm happy.
I think.

So what if he's the one making you smile?
You're happy, and that's what matters most.
So what if he's the one making you laugh?
You're happy, and that's what I care about most.

As much as you like to be near him.
To look into his eyes with that stare that goes into the heart.
He is the one who can make you happier.
While I'm the one who can't do any part.

Your smiles are the product of another man's work.
Your sacred happiness is something I can't help to make.
You look so happy talking with him.
So I should shrug and smile instead

of being such a fucked up loser.
Trying so hard but only to fail.
I should be happy because you're happy too.
And that's what matters the most.

So I sit here alone behind the table.
Looking at your moments of euphoria.
With a hand on the side of my face, I guess
I can't really do a smile right?

So I just stare and take all of it in.
Accepting the consequences of my defeat.
Some other man can be responsible your your happiness.
While I can do nothing but be a piece of shit.

But still, I smile and I'll be happy.
Because you smile and you're happy.
There's nothing more I can wish myself to do.
But to feel happy for you too.

But you know the way it tears at my heart.
To see you putting emotions in him.
It's not like I want to cuff you up.
But nice guys finish last you see?

But its your choice to be smiling with him.
I guess I'm incompetent I can't do a thing.
So I'll sit quietly here and watch
you make a million more flings.

I'll smile, but doing that, I'm lying to myself.
Because I can't do what others can.
I want to be the reason for your smile.
But your smiles are just planted by another man.

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There are 3 kinds of guys in the world.

The guys that have a picture of HER as their wallpaper.

The guys that have a picture of HER with THEM as their wallpaper.

And the guys that don't have the picture of HER as their wallpaper. (contributed by Yanqi, the original one only had the first 2 kinds of guys haha)

Pardon my boredom during History lesson

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Girls need to realise this .
We guys don’t care if you talk to other guys .
We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys .
But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off .
It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there .
We don’t care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you .
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned .
Nothing is that important at 2am .

Also, when we tell you you’re pretty / beautiful/ gorgeous / cute / stunning, we freaking mean it .
Don’t tell us we’re wrong .
We’ll stop trying to convince you .
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence .
Yeah, you can quote me .
Don’t be mad when we hold the door open .
Take Advantage of the mood im in .
Let us pay for you!
don’t ‘feel bad’
We enjoy doing it .
It’s expected .
Smile and say ‘thank you’ .
Kiss us when no one’s watching .
If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed .
You don’t have to get dressed up for us .
If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need towear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own .
We like you for who you are and not what you are .
Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s .
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up .
Don’t take everything we say seriously .
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it .
Don’t get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don’t talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us .
It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that .
Whatever happened to the word ‘handsome’/’beautiful’
i’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with ‘Hey handsome!’ instead of ‘Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy’ or whatever else you can think of .
On the other hand im not sayin’ i woulndnt like it either ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren’t being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population & find someone who will treat you with utter respect .
Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest .
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes .
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel .
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes ….and say ‘i love you’ ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it’s cute.
Every Guy who isn’t a jerk will agree with this,so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
<3


this is the stuff you can get on tumblrs haha

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"Yaknow, just now i tried drinking my blood cause apparently it seems very appetizing and ya know what?!?! it taste like water ._. Disappointing lah!"

- Wenning, sunnysideuppp.xanga


"HAHAHA, it doesnt. For mine I drank it too cause there's a cut on my knee and it looks nice to drink. Somemore im thirsty."
- Wenning, quoted from Jiajian's convo


I AM DISTURBED D:

I WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES TONIGHT

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"Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing, but my time would be wasted, they got nothin' on you, baby. Nothin' on you, baby. They might say hi, and I might say hey, but you shouldn't worry about what they say, 'cause they got nothin' on you, baby. Nothin' on you."


They can't compare.

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New inspiration from today (not related to the game we play haha)

"Inside Outside"


On a side note, today quite fun. finally got to bowl after so long. other stuff also quite ok. so, happy day :) .

"Teachers call it disruptions, we call it a day when we can actually live."

Holidays ftw

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When the best thing to do is just to accept that you're a failure, smile and say that life is screwed, just the way its supposed to be, and just walk like a gentleman towards ending it all. If you gotta fail, fail spectacularly. If you have to get owned by somebody else, accept defeat in style by shaking his hand. If you have to be the most lowest and trodden-on being on this planet, do it with a smile. Because you know how to end it all.