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"Trust me, just pretend that everything is ok.
And the world will not end for you today.
Just imagine that we can talk tonight.
And I'll smile and pretend everything is alright :)"

- Pretence Makes The World Go Round :)

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EVERYTHING WILL BE WORTH IT :)

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Good things come to those who wait. I need to get a more rational and less crazy mind. You make everything worth it. I'm sorry, forgive me.

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I'm worried. Or I'm just overreacting. Or my worst fears are simply true. Please show me that they are not. Please tell me that everything is alright. I want to know, I need to know that you are ok. I hate this feeling. I'm feeling numb here. My face feels like stone. I can't feel my legs. Tell me that everything is ok. I don't want you to feel the same. I think I'm talking crap, what right do I have to do all that? I'm sorry, you are just too important to me. You are my everything. Without you, I'll have, and I'll be nothing. Not that I matter though. You are the most important, the one who matters the most, and the only one I had ever, or will ever love. Heck, I don't even know what love is, but I'm just guessing its you and me. I'm sorry to be the one who love you, I think you deserve much better. I'm sorry but my fingers are freezing up and I can't type anymore. I don't know what can make me feel like this. I have no idea. I'm sorry. I'm just overreacting, I will be fine in a few moments. Yeah I will be fine. Nothing have or had ever happened. Please don't regard all the above seriously, I'm just being mental. Or am I insane all the time? Oh wait, my fingers are unfreezing, just from the thought of you. Thank you, for being there in my head, running through my mind all day, so I can continue hoping and living. You must be tired, so please, sit down here, next to me. We can go back to when it was just you and me. Ok I'm hoping too much again. I'm going off topic. Let me end this with I love you, and I'm sorry.

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:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

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That Friday Afternoon Thing
By Me :)

Don't tell me little things don't matter.
Because they add up to things bigger than you think.
Things which can change lives for the better.
Things which have the ability to make you sink
to the bottom of the ocean of pain.
Caught up between the currents and waves.
Not knowing what to feel can make you insane.
And it only gets worse day by day.
All it takes is just a little time,
a little bit of this, a tiny bit of that.
Who knows it could be that simple to make you mine.
Yes, its simple, but not easy in fact.
Those days when everybody get together.
Those possibilities are endless, too much to list.
People get caught up in the moment, feeling too better.
And all that I can do is this.
I think, I sit, I think, I die.
My body's here but my heart's somewhere else.
Too bad that I'm just living a lie.
Trying to convince myself those things don't help.
But in fact, they do, they matter the most.
It's those little things we do that make us smile.
But sadly, I can't get access to those.
I'm locked up, shut down, away by a thousand miles.
It's not like I didn't give all my life to be with you.
It's just that I tried to give more than that just to be with you.
So I sit here behind my bars and think.
Inhale fake atmosphere and imagine the scenes.
Those scenes which remain forever burned in my eyes.
Covered up by my smile as a great disguise.
Yes, I do smile, but only when I think of you.
And when I'm with you, I do that too.
But no, everything conspires to keep me from you.
So I guess there's just one thing I gotta do.
Lying, lying is the way to get through.
It's the only way to get a life and be cool.
I'm sorry, I was too honest before.
I need to change to have you as the reason to live for.
So I sit here in fabricated luxury, behind my bars.
Peering through that fucking steel, mesmerized by stars.
Yes, baby, a star's what you are.
The only star I can see, yes I love you la :)
But first, I need to be there, to be with you and see.
To smile and be happy together and enjoy how magical it can be.
Hold your hand and step through that friday afternoon thing.
To just be together, happy love songs we'll sing.
Just for you, I will do anything to be free.
So I can show that I love you, to be continued,
in The Good Life Three.

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Once Again, Twice Again
By Me :)

It's been while, I must admit.
Since we could be together again.
Now this is not an understatement.
It means so much to me after so much pain.

Once again I could feel the warmth.
That radiates from your golden heart.
Once again my fire is rekindled.
I have more reason to play my part.

I need you, I can't deny it.
I love you, I can't suppress it.
You, my reason behind it.
I've gotta do this well or that's it.

Thank you, for keeping me alive.
Once again I have a reason to live.
I look forward to seeing your smile tomorrow.
Your very smile I could believe.

I hope that you can be happy together with me.
Don't put lies into that smile.
To be with you is such a beautiful gift.
Every second is worthwhile.

Once again we have a chance.
A chance to make things work.
But I don't want you to get me wrong.
It's your call, I'll definitely hear you out.

If it's not good for you.
You have to let me know.
So I can try to make things right.
Make things hot, not cold.

Once again we're back where we started.
But with more in our minds than we imagined.
Hopefully, this can help us out.
And bring us forward to where we've been.

It's been quite a while since I've smiled genuinely.
But what's more important is whether you can do the same.
So I'm hoping that you can smile with me too, baby.
And walk back to where we began again.

Only if you want, only if you want.
If it hurts you, damn I can't.
Then all I need to see is your true smile.
Your true smile, your true smile.

Once again, twice again.
Your smile a day,
My smile a day,
To be together with you a day,

keeps the pain away :)

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It's been quite a while since I've smiled genuinely.
But what's more important is whether you can do the same.
So I'm hoping that you can smile with me too, baby.
And walk back to where we began again.

- Once Again, Twice Again

ahh dammit i'm just trying to get some inspirations down for now. i promise i will post more poems soon :D in the meantime i noticed my blog visitor numbers have started falling :(

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I walk this lonely road.

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When I'm with you, it does not feel like love, no.

It feels better than love :)

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After sleeping, I am always thankful for the marginally more rational mind :)

Though it may not be fair, balance can be maintained most of the time. So I don't blame you, I have no reason to. It's entirely my fault. I'm sorry for my overreaction. As long as it makes you happy and it makes you smile, anything can work for me. It's not like I don't do it at all either. So I guess you have every reason to. It's not you, its me. But deep inside me, maybe, just maybe, I feel something else, something I would not have dared to imagine before. But for now, I smile, because you do. I hope :)

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Don't worry leh. Depression only lah. At most I commit suicide only mah. Nvm de :)

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Work of art, really. And that dude gonna get caned ._. all mrts should be like that hahaha

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Post EOY Things To Do

130) Take all the MRT lines in one day. Take a picture of you/you and your friends at every station showing where you are. And I mean EVERY DAMN STATION. (Y)

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I like this :)

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The Fairytale Boy

By Me :)



I'm sorry, but I believe in love.

And that means the two of us.

Maybe, I hope that you do too.

So that we can be happy together and thus

create an empire of our own,

filled with the most beautiful things in the world.

The kingdom that only exists in fairytales.

We play our hands because we don't have to fold.

Since our magic makes sure we are the king and queen

who will hold up the ace of hearts together.

Hands on the love, hearts with each other.

I believe nothing will ever tear us apart.

I believe that our love will conquer anything.

I know that we can be the moon and the stars.

With our love blazing like a million suns.

In our world we would be the king and queen.

We'll leave joy at all the places we've been.

Being together brings us all smiles.

High-flyers together with the same style.

We were meant to be, yes I mean it.

Fate and destiny brought us together, yes I mean it.

We were made for each other, yes I mean it.

We were once a fairytale, and still are now.

Let's turn this moment into forever.

But even so, forever isn't enough to spend with you.

So I just gotta do what I have to do

for you. Because I love you.

And that's all I wanna do.

Once upon a time, two hearts came together.

And they lived happily ever after.

Snap open my eyes, I should wake up now. I'm sorry.
I'm just that little fairytale boy.

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Found this while researching on Gorbachev for history haha. I think its very nice and the quote is woots

LV is hot. The graffiti on the Berlin Wall is (Y)

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Rainbows are possible. They may be small, but at least they happen :)

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:) It's a great day.

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Random picture of the day : Just an average train station in Moscow, Russia

AVERAGE TRAIN STATION WTF

Damn man i'm gonna go if there's a history trip there next year haha. ZEIN, YOU BETTER DO IT

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One Piece Of Memory, One Piece Of Heart III

Please just let that moment last forever.

When we could be anything that we wanna

be. To see all the wonders of love that we could've seen.

To just stay there forever like we had been.

That golden moment felt like forever.

Though it just lasted for about an hour.

We could have went to the moon and back.

With the drinks in our hands we shared.

Talking about anything over here and that.

For a shining moment, life was not so bad.

Pardon me, that was the best moment of my life.

I've got so much of your love that I've been deprived.

With that smile on your face, I thought you were happy too.

All the happiness I could have, I wanted to share with you.

We were perfect, not just picture perfect.

We could outshine the stars, yes we can do that.

It warms my heart to have you right beside me.

It quickens my heart to imagine what we could be.

So a story we were, one hour fairytale.

Happy ending and all, we could never fail.

But all happy things must come to an end.

They had to come and make our love stand down.

But later you proved that you can make our love stand strong.

Together, we could do no wrong.

Thanks for being with me that day.

I still remember you brought me the sweetest candy and say

"Maybe I love you." Yay :)

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She has never been the one for you, she has never chosen you, but you continue to destroy your life for her.

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YOG opening ceremony quite nice :) i like the music that goes along with the performances such as the piano solo, the oldies which were played and the orchestra and especially the background music when the flags come out. As yall probably have noticed, the flag bearers walking in wrong direction is EPIC hahaha. Btw luckily i can catch a bit of the fireworks out of my window, though its mostly blocked by another flag. Oh well, gonna go watch it personally some time. And gonna bring someone special along :) if i can. haha

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The Good Life II
By Me :)

Really, what more can we ask for
than a chance at the thing which matters most
to you. The opportunity to be close and be able
to do what you can do. The ones with the good life
got plenty of that. The ones out of the picture just
end up real sad.

Yes, they've got all the time in the world
to do what they like and like what they do.
Chances flow like money out of wallets so
they can get nearer to what they want to do.

No worries, I'll be back by tomorrow morning.
Just don't bother me and let me have my life.
Within that time, I can accomplish more than you think.
Way more better than the sad deprived.

Tell me if you know how it feels to be kept in a prison.
Because I need a cellmate here.
Oh wait I'm sorry, that's just plain selfish.
Everyone else can do it, I have to be the gentleman.

It's pretty much ok if I've got to be tortured here.
Maybe I'll get used to it.
But the feeling of not knowing anything induces fear
and I'm afraid that I will lose to it.

Because they've got all the chances, they've got all the time.
They can do whatever they want, wherever, anytime.
They can step into your world while I'm stuck here in mine.
And I can do nothing about it, and that's not fine.

But who gives a damn if I'm fine or not?
Nobody will hear me through these soundproof walls.
Even if they could, they wouldn't want to care.
Even if they can help, they wouldn't want to share.

Because they've got better things to do
with the time that never ends from night to noon.
Whatever they do, they've got a chance for you
to take all that ever mattered away from me.
Can't you see? You are my life energy.
You make me all that I can ever be.
But how can one without a good life offer you a good life?
I'm sorry, its not you, its me.

Ok now let's take it that you never read all the above
and that you're gonna enjoy your life like always before.
Go, go, go on, seize your chances.
Make you life better forevermore.

Trust me, I'm just being practical.
Do not deny that such trivial things matter a lot
because they do, they mean everything.
So be thankful for what you've got.

Let's just pretend all the above never happened.
And you have never heard my cries.
Go on, live all the life I will never have.
I'll sit here and smile and die.

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This is a great song, do check it out. Chanced upon this while listening to one of the many jazz cd's i bought. Really emo but cool song. Enjoy :D

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Beautifully cold, frustratingly mixed feelings.

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"It's not a video .. It's a moving painting!" - Kanye West

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One Piece Of Memory, One Piece Of Heart II

Every morning, every morning.
Everyday, the same thing.
I'll never get tired of it.
I took for granted that you'll sit
right beside me every morning.
I didn't even carry the chair for you.
Over memories now I'm mourning.
I didn't do what I should do.
I never know what I have until its gone.
You beside me every morning is one
example, which I can't forget now.
Looking at things now, thinking back,
I'll go like, wow.
But its not lost, there's still a way.
I'll do it differently this time I say.
No, what you think is not what I mean.
I just want us back on the same routine.

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Just because we've got a tumblr now does not mean that this blog is gonna be dead. Hahaha.

The tumblr is a joint project between me and JJ and we're gonna be mostly making original material such as pictures or quotes or quotes on pictures and stuff. We're so gonna be famous in the tumblr society. But sadly, now cannot do too much. Mostly will be after EOYs stuff haha. But still, we will try to make as much as possible now haha.

Thanks to sunshinestories and colourfulskies for being the first 2 followers :)

Me and JJ gonna make it as good as it can be hahaha. So stay tuned.

ALSO, KEEP COMING HERE, THIS IS STILL MY OWN SPACE AND I WILL UPDATE IT VERY OFTEN HAHA.

http://ithinkiluvmywife.tumblr.com/

everyone is welcome :)

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Do not be sad that it ended. Be happy that it happened.

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LoveStuffs: Hope

Hope. We've all heard it before. And its way too overrated.

Hope only serves one purpose. It keeps you alive during the darkest times of your life. It's very important for that, but it's the only useful purpose it serves.

For me, the hope is the only thing that keeps me alive now. The hope that things get better. The hope that everything could be as perfect as before.

For everything else, hope fails horribly.

Well, for one, no point hoping if you can't and won't do.

For two, no point hoping if it won't happen.

For three, hope hurts you.


Well, if you hope things will happen, that's good, because there's something meaningful in your life to hope for. But if you don't do a shit about trying to get closer or reaching that hope, no point hoping. It will be empty.

So what if you hope? If it won't happen, or what's worse, you know it won't happen, no point hoping. If something won't happen no matter how hard you try, there is no meaning in hoping that it will.

Hoping too much can be fatal. If you hope too much on something, and it does not happen, you will feel the pain. It hurts more than you can describe. Therefore, just don't hope for it. If it does happen, you'll feel very happy and satisfied. If it does not, well, you are already prepared for it.

I know the stuff above are kinda crappy because I ain't really in the mood to write properly now, but I just have to write something.

But still, I'd smile and shrug it off. And pretend that it does not matter.

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Result of loneliness.

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Recently I'm getting more afraid of the cold somehow. I turn off the front air con in the car, shift away air con on the bus, absolutely dislikes the air con in the PAC, and shivers easily from cold winds. Why is this happening? Weird.

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2000 plus views liaos. Thanks for the continuous support people :D i appreciate it

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Woots, A Reason To Live
By Me :)


You don't know how much you mean to me.
If there's only a way I can make you see.
Yes, make you see, yes, make you see.
How much you are a part of me.
So how could you just let me be?
Letting my heart be the one which freeze.
So you can fly on and be free.
Not that I mind though, but I just want you to see

that you are the reason that I live for.
And without you life is a neverending fall.
I'm sorry that I could not bring myself to call.
To try to return to how things were before.

But now I've learnt to pick up the pieces one by one.
I know how to see between my needs and my wants.
Now I'm clear that you are what I need
because you are the reason that I live.

I've finally found a reason to live again.
And learnt how to put behind all that pain.
Because when there's no pain, there's no gain.
And that does not change, it stays the same.

Everyday, I'm happy just to see your face.
I smile because I can be close to you.
I laugh because I'm reaching the end of the maze
that you and I set together. It's time to undo.

You know I can't live without you.
And again I'm wishing you feel that way too.
You are the reason why I still wake up everyday.
The reason for my heart to beat again.

Woots, I've found a reason to live.
In you again, I will believe.

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The right love, at the wrong time.