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I'll see you in... about 2 weeks time. Early arrival on the 13th is still on waitlist and the probably arrival date is 15th. Well, let's hope for the best shall we? I will be on msn so don't cry. We can still talk through that. Well, let's hope I will be alive to re-read this post again haha. It's been nice knowing you all. See you soon.

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It was Valentine's day on West Boulevard. On the wide stretch of pavement seperating the sparse traffic from the Pacific Ocean, the silhouettes of lovers ...

...

He lumbered along the street, dropping a bottle accidentally as he went. It shattered into hundreds of tiny little pieces, sparkling crystals on the grey stone, imitating what his heart did not long ago. People turned to look, but he ...

...

A cool sea breeze wafted past his spot by the streetlamp. The strained melody of "Lonely" by Akon floated all around him. His shirt was damp with sweat, oh wait, its his tears. His dishevelled hair danced in the breeze as he took off his hat and set...

...

It was a bittersweet moment. Should he be happy because she kept it all this time? Or should be sad because she's not accepting it and instead took another's? He stared blankly after her vanishing figure, torn between emotions in what remained of his heart.



Little Heartbreaks : West Boulevard Drunkard

Please stay tuned to this blog for this. Hahaha

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"Facade Of Intimacy"

"How To Talk To Somebody In A Million Easy Steps (Never What We Really Mean)"

"Smiles Planted By Another Man"

"For Someone So Destroyed By Emotion"

"Woots, A Reason To Live"

"The Man And The Angel With The Broken Wing"

"Mr Flirt, Ms Flirt"



I will be working on these during my 2-week prison time in addition to "Shanghai Street Journal" , so do come back here after 2 weeks to check on the new updates. I promise they will be good. And I will be leaving on tuesday.

On a side note, today is kinda, fucked up.

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This Time Last Year
By Me :)

Time flies when we're having fun.
Now that's bullshit I say.
I don't even have a life after you're gone.
I'm dying inside day by day.

This time last year, we were everything.
We were everything we wanted to be.
This time last year, we were a fairytale.
A magic show everyone wants to see.

We could do what we want, and talked as we please.
There's nothing holding us back at all.
Don't you know, I had plans for you and me.
Into love together we can fall.

We were friends but we could be more.
I tried to make it just a matter of time.
You were leading me on, and I thought
that soon your heart could be mine.

It shames me just to write this crap.
It turns my face away from the screen.
I'm just trying to kid myself, please pardon me.
I'm fairytale-ing what we had been.

But now that I have no choice.
My life now is just a pile of shit.
I need to kid myself in order to live.
And paint a rosy picture of what I did.

Look at us now, what are we?
Two strangers meeting on a road.
Silent acknowledgements in unfeeling eyes.
Coldest story ever told.

I cannot talk without a million thoughts.
Or even, wait, can we even talk at all?
We don't say hellos, only goodbyes.
And I've become the only one who falls.

I'm lonely, my life is fucked up.
That's because I ain't got you.
There's little I can do to save anything.
Because you don't want it too.

What happened to those happy faces.
Conversations filled with smiles.
Close proximity, speaking from our hearts.
Unwritten love letters by the pile.

When my inbox only had one name in it.
And everybody knows its yours.
Nobody could ever come between us.
We were a song on play and without pause.

But now I'm sitting here in this empty house.
Listening to the sound of my broken heart.
I'm lonely, but I hope that you will come back again.
Wait, am I a fucking retard?

There's no fucking way that we could ever again be real.
Because we are now a screwed up fail.
And we were only once a fairytale.

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Deliberate State Of Non-Contact
By Me :)

It's ok if you don't wanna talk,
and it's ok if your heart's out for a walk.

And its not there for me, that's fine.
I should learn to know what's mine.

And what's not, I need to be taught,
that I don't get things no matter how I fought.

It's ok if you ignore me,
as long as your eyes can see,

That at least I tried, I fucking tried.
And now I'm breaking down on the inside.

Just inside, and not out.
Because I must pretend I don't care at all.

Otherwise you won't be happy about it.
And will say that I'm talking shit.

Even though I ain't, I feel real pain.
When you just won't say,

anything, anything at all.
But its just a little heartbreak, thats all.

Its ok if I wait for the message that will never come.
Because at least you opened mine, and read some.

You may not wish to reply me today.
But one day, one day, you may just talk to me again.

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I would like to get a penthouse like that.

And btw, its a great song with meaningful lyrics and amazing instrumental. I wanna learn. Haha

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Fucking hell. I will probably be leaving for a 2-week stay in Shanghai, starting next Monday. That means 2 weeks without internet. Well, you may call that internet, but what is internet without

youtube - the world's largest video sharing site

facebook - the world's biggest social networking site

blogger - the world's most extensive blog host


yeah, what the fuck.

anyways i hope i can figure out a way to get a VPN or proxy server or something, but if its free its gonna be hard and otherwise i probably have to pay for it or something.

anyways, there's only one thing to cheer me on while going for a 2-week prison sentence, i can write. at the very least.

so i will write, a lot, during the 2 weeks, i will title the project "Shanghai Street Journal"

i will try to get the automated post thing figured out and try to keep you guys entertained here.

but fuck this. 2 weeks

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"considering i think that dead bodies piling up are really cool,

The way kamikaze kill themselves are really nice too,

So exciting!"

- Wenning, http://sunnysideuppp.xanga.com



Now, i must say that this is highly disturbing LOL

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Next Up : Deliberate State Of Non-Contact

New Inspiration : This Time Last Year

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My Only Customer
By Me :)

Hey, how can I leave you alone?
When you're the only one I see.
I'm lonely walking on the streets.
So I need you on my phone.

Please come into this place of mine.
Where I'll serve up some good love for you.
Please leave the rest for me to do.
Don't worry, I won't waste your time.

Because, you're my only customer, you see.
You're the only one who bothered to care.
You spared a bit of your love to share
with me, for that I am happy.

There's no other person who would look at me.
No other soul who would talk with mine.
You're the only one who made my life shine,
so bright, until you're all I can see.

Do upsize me, I'll give you an offer.
Satisfaction guranteed, I'll serve up love forever.
Do you want me for good? Are you a member?
No worries, I won't let you down. Never.

Please don't do that takeaway.
Because I don't wanna be alone today.
I'm lonely sitting in this place for years.
Cleaning it everyday with my tears.

I need you to sit here with me for good.
Because no other person would.
You're the only one who bothered to walk in.
And still, you're the best I've seen.
Or will ever see.

But no, my love don't appeal to you.
You're leaving, there's nothing I can do.
You locked the doors behind you, never looking back.
With my heart in your little takeaway bag.

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"I mean really, you can't expect me to just stop loving the best girl in the universe right?" - Me :)

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7 Facts About Today

1) The internet is very laggy tonight.

2) Me, toon and zhangxin found a place selling cool and cute shirts and cheap prices.

3) Jay chou's new album is freaking nice. I have some very good new emo music to add to my emo playlist to play when i'm emo. haha

4) I realised that the one person who can perfect my life actually destroyed it instead.

5) Apples are nice.

6) Tomorrow we will go back to school. yay. not.

7) Apples are really really nice.

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Stop lying to yourself. You know you want to hold her in your arms. You know you want to be the only one in her eyes. You know you do not want her to be with anyone else. You know only YOU, YOURSELF can have her love. Well, thats what you want to know.

Lovestuffs : Possession

You can't get her out of your head. You see her everywhere you go. You need her every moment of your life. You just need her so badly that you can die if you don't get her love. Wait, is it a need? Or is it just a want?

Lovestuffs : Obsession








P.S. I know its been a long time since i posted lovestuffs, so do stay tuned for the full versions of these 2 topics. its for yall hahaha.

P.P.S. issit pps or pss i not sure, but i just want to say that OBS gave me lots of inspirations to write a lot of stuff so really do keep coming, they're gonna be good haha

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Back from OBS. I guess its ok. Gonna start posting normally starting from tomorrow, do remind your friends to come back to this blog because its active again. Also, I have found much inspiration during the camp to write and I can assure you they are good. So stay tuned :)

It's good to be back.

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as yall know, i will be outta here for the next week, until friday. because i will instead be on pulau ubin (fraser's 2nd home) for level camp, which is OBS. i can't say i'm looking forward to it because I'd prefer a full few days of sleep after a tiring term. but neither can I say i don't wanna go because i want to go there and see some jokes tio own haha. so, let's hope i will come back alive on friday and post on this place again. in the meantime, please do not abandon this blog haha. i still need yall dedicated readers to continue supporting me, so please stay tuned, the 5 days should pass quickly. :)

P.S. i dont know how to do the auto post thing, and even if i did, i don't know what to post haha

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Why should I be the one to accept a compromise?

Why must I always be the one who takes all the blame and accepts that its my fault?

When it probably should be shared, or fully taken by you.

I don't see why I should keep sharing my good times with someone I hold in high regard, if that person does not appreciate it at all.

Neither do I understand why must tentative steps with good intent be met with vicious slashes of hostility and mispredicament.

Man, I'm just trying to talk, there's no need to take it so hard.

If there's issues, feel free to talk about them, I'd gladly accept steps to improve.

But no, you keep blasting the hostility.

So what if I can't speak very well? It's not like you're the master. And even if you are, to gain my respect, you need to respect me as well.

I've certainly done my part and done what I can. And its your turn.

But you're probably choosing to skip your turn.

You can go on about your biased ways, or choose to improve yourself and gain even higher status in my already high regard of you.

There's many things I have done for you and many secrets I have kept for you. You just fail to recognise that.

I'm not blaming you, you may have issues of your own, but it will do to let me know, so I won't accidentally harm your fragile facade.

I will, and already am, doing what I can do become better. Because you taught me so.

What about you?

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"For the good things in life, dreaming can get you some of those. But you lose them once you stop dreaming." - Me :)

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http://lookbook.nu/

pretty good, wenning introduced to me first out of interest for fashion and jiajian used it mainly to look at girls. but still, its a good source of inspiration and a good way to spend your leisure time. just beware of the many "gays" in extremely skinny jeans/tights and really weird hair. haha not that i'm against gays or anything but skinny jeans are way too overrated.

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Let the music push me to the edge of suicidal thoughts.

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Beautifully imperfect.

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They did not take all that mattered away from me.
















They took me away from all that mattered.

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Standin' alone.

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Next Up : "Deliberate State Of Non-Contact"

New Inspiration : "My Only Customer"

I'm walkin' outta here.

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Heartbreak Hotel
By Me :)

I'm looking for a place to heal my heart.
To drown my sorrows and rest my soul.

I'm looking for company to talk their part.
To listen to the coldest story ever told.

I'm finding a sanctuary of blissful memory loss.
So I can forget about that heartaching face of yours.

I'm finding the route out of this sadness which you are the source.
So I can live like a person again, because,

Ever since you left, I can't breathe.
Even though when you were here,
You still took my breath away.

Ever since you're gone, I can't see.
Even though when you were here,
You blinded me with your beautiful ways.

So now my heart is broken, I need to find the pieces.
So I can put them together, and continue living in peace.
I've had enough mirrors showing destroyed faces,
of me, and I've had enough emo places,
to see, so I've made my mind up that I have,
to go, because you don't give a damn if I did,
or don't, so I'm off to a better place now.
Don't try to play now.
Please get away now.
You don't know what to say now.

I check into the heartbreak hotel,
Only to find that it was almost full.
Luckily I got a room.
So I can spend my time here, cool.

I will fix my heart and dry my tears.
To drown my sorrow and douse my fears.
I will get out of here a better man.
And put my heart in better hands.

I checked into the heartbreak hotel.
Found that it was almost full.
But it never occured to me that,
You could be in here too.

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Ahh. Fail. Suck. Owned. Pwned. Time to stop that and do what we do best: destroy.

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Next Up : "Heartbreak Hotel"

New Inspiration : "Deliberate State of Non-Contact"

No one to keep me warm.

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Raindrops Wonderworld

By Me :)

Ask me why I like the rain.

The little drops of tears of pain.

Because I know the sky is crying with me.

At least someone's falling with me.

The drops of ice that fall down the sky.

Pieces of a broken heart that fly.

And now they fall, they break, they die.

Pieces that I can never find.

I feel the cold, the icy wind.

The shivers that stroll across my face.

The trembles that no one have seen.

No one will know until the end of days.

These kaleidoscopic crystals cloud my sight.

My vision is in pixelated light.

I just want to stare forever through the glass.

And never wake up from this fantasy class.

So now I see things in a different light.

Because I'm making good friends with the night.

I found betterment in these artificial teardrops.

Buying happiness in these makeshift streetshops.

The tears of another ease my own.

The fears of the trouble lies at home.

Right now, I just want my mind to be free.

And maybe wish a little that you were here with me.

Hide my tears.

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"My heart is like your tissue paper, you use it up so fast." - Me :)

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Light my heart with hope again.

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" There's no 'I love you' if there's no 'you' with 'I'. " - Me :)