Happy new year...about 5 and a half hours in advance...as i had just received distressing news that i won't be participating in the countdown this year...as i am forced to sleep at 10 pm tonight...as a routine to regulate my sleeping pattern...from 11 during the holidays to 10 during the school term...not that i think that an hour's regulation is neccesary....but of course...why should my opinions be shared with my parents...hah...this world's cruelty...
a mere 36 hours later...we are probably waiting for the school buses to bring us back to that place...hah! ... probably looking forward to a good position in the class admin selection? or dreading the return of...you-know-what...hah...or simply awaiting the Xplore thingy or the sandcastle building on da beach...(hope it rains...hah!)
hmm...topic for today...at young times...do parents always ask you to be readily helping others?...aha...i tried to today...but what i received was not a thanks...but a hell lotta scolding...
I went to parkway to have lunch today....simply as it was close to my dad's company...and after that my dad was busy (as usual) so we hadta take taxi home...(not that we are used to high class transport), so there was this long queue, so i was commanded to wait there in the sun while my mom and grandmother and sis take refuge in the air conditioned comfort...then this woman in front of me asked if she could borrow my phone as her's is outta battery, so i agreed...then my mom came rushing out and commanded me to take back the phone...and the woman was kinda shocked and stuff...lols...then she pushed her trolley laden with stuff away...lawls...then i was scolded for lending my phone to a stranger who had just bought alota things and not ready to grab my sexy N81 and run! lawls...
I am used to being scolded in public and losing my face...but none like this with a long queue of taxi takers peering over their partner's shoulder to see the commotion...dammit...i was trying to help someone and was scolded for that...what for?
Dammit...we are still young...we live in the blissful world of not of that world...if you could refer to poem 8 of my CAP, This World...
Ah how ironic...scolded for doing something they had wanted us to do...
Come have a taste of my life...scolded for helping another, forced to sleep at 10 on new year's eve, forced to listen to parents and grandmothers arguing as i lie on my bed at 1 in the morning with 8 o clock training next...forced to listen to those meetings on phones and translate documents...forced to solve their problems when they created it themselves...
Dammit...
Dammit...
Dammit...
Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
ezlink rebellion
Hmm...perhaps you have't heard...but there will be a variety of seemingly "fun" events going to take place in our orientation next year, for a full list of details, proceed to asknlearn website, where you will be able to download the condemned form and letter, with your own printer and ink i suppose, if you are not jiawen and goes to grace with a chauffeur* and print it out, of course, she dosen't mind, she rides in a mercedes**! hah.
The first event include reporting to school in the first day on 2nd jan for our class admin and briefing. i do hope i get to retain my treasurer position as pretending to be the tax collector has never been so fun with a bag of coins jingling merrily in my pocket. of course, it would not be possible if A.A. takes over the form teacher post, so keep your fingers crossed! (and of course, if we have to vote again, ((definitely)) , do remember to vote for me, hah, not that i am trying to take attention or whatever as i'm not that kinda person, its just i really like my post and do hope you can help me keep it, its alright if you do not wish to vote for me, but i understand if you are in two minds as if you do, you may have betrayed who you really wanted to be treasurer, but if you don't, you are plunging yourself into grave danger.hah)
The next event include the Xplore sh!t, which will take place around singapore like amazing race, (i guess) as they asked us to top up our ezlink cards...hmm...why can't the damn thing provide us with a lil transport out of their overflowing wallets? a swipe of a card or a ruffle of fresh banknotes?
This is rebellion, we are forced to pay our own money for something we are forced to do? aha...i've caught you there in your futile bleatings of excuses...
this is a government aided school, so where does all the money from the damn ERP and road taxes go? not to mention a 2% increase in GST? it should go to the less priveledged and to aid education in schools like us, not like independent schools...(300$ a month for rich asses) so we should be priveledged...i'm not writing this as we can't take the trouble and pain of travelling to many places in public transport and be squashed in the crowd (of course excluding some who are too rich and pampered to survive, so a flick of a button on their N95 8GB and their private helicopter comes to call...)
hmm...if you noticed, there are more ERP gantries and of course, longer operation times...not to mention rising amounts of tax and other things which affect daily lives of the average...ah the government...heh...we must live with this...
aha...i'm writing this so we can be more priveledged...our lives are good already...for you that is...but why not make it better when we can?
So i suggest we take action...
Next, on sandcastle madness...i do not have sandcastle building experience as it is classified as "a carefree and fun activity, for ones with freedom and plenty of family time"...which i do not have hah! and its gonna last for 8 hours...hmm...a good 8 hours of my life wasted ...i could have been working for 8 hours for my money!
Dammit...how narrow-minded the school is...not considering manpower of a class like 1L...or rather 2L...or the disexperience of ppl like me who do not enjoy such activities and fun on the beach (which i had not went for more than 2 years)...
Dammit...why can't it be better?
On a slightly happier note, i downloaded photoshop trial...which lasts for 30 days...and i'm making some random but nice pics...which i will show below...
finally i would like to wish u ppl a happy new year early as i don't think i will have time to post on the actual midnight stroke...so happy new year...hah...
Photoshop Edited Pictures
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Christmas...
Let's hope for a better christmas next year...
Merry Christmas a day late...cuz i gotta do homework whole day yesterday...of course ain't got no Christmas dinner...so spent whole day chionging and completing CAP...i thought that 2007's Christmas would be just like any other day...until the night. In order to encourage some China merchants my dad knew to buy more property in Singapore, so he could draw commision, my dad and his property advisor brought the two merchants on a property shopping spree to the Night Safari, and it just happened some of the companions of the two merchants had something on and did not turn up, so there are three spare tickets, so my sis, my grandma and me decided to go...excellent...first time i ever went to night safari, but at the expense of a dinner, as the property buying gang had dinner already, so i starved for the night, but got to go to the night safari for the first time, hmm...do you think its a good deal?
It was ok la...and the animals are really close...and some other tourist's camera nearly got confiscated as he turn on flash...lawls...should be i go confiscate mah...then got free cam...then we were supposed to keep quiet and not scare the animals away...but then my grandma...who don't understand a word of english, and seriously not even more than 1 word..she only knows how to say "hello"...lawls...and she kept blabbering about in the tram...until the tour guide had to remind her several times to keep quiet...lawls...but after that my dad and the other property advisor decided to treat em" rich dudes to supper...hokkien mee, satay, otah and durian for dessert...hmm excellent...all that for free...not bad...but at the expense of christmas presents...so i'm not sure which deal was better...no christmas presents but a trip to a night safari and a delicious and cheap supper? or christmas presents but no first time to night safari and singapore local food delights? hmm not sure which christmas presents i would get...so i am unsure...but there is only one route for me to take...the supper route...so even if i chose not to go...there won't be any christmas presents...so i expect the trip to the night safari and the supper would do...
Merry christmas 1 day late...congrats to whoever got a good haul for this year's christmas presents...well...for those who have nothing under the christmas tree...well...you are welcome aboard ss. sadness...my boat...haha...excellent no-screw lifeboat with less than half a tonne which can make about 1 knot...of course you have to row...as i am not rich enough to own a double screw triple decker private schooner...lawls...
Homework report: CAP done, Maths done, Chinese book nearly done, chen yu dun care, lawls...thats about all of it...har...
Oh yeah regarding the outing...it was sad many couldn't make it on the appointed date...so we hafta wait summore...hmm...maybe thats a good chance lost...maybe it won't change even if it is postponed...so i'm not sure...
I'm seizing this opportunity to post as much as possible as it may not be possible for me to post in any time soon...as school is startin and i would be banned from com in weekdays(most probably, unless some miracle happens...which i doubt)...hmm...my parents think sec 2 is exceptionally important as they dun wanna me to end up in 3A...hmm...so that means much less chance of going out wif all yer merry folks next year...and my grandmother listened to some fortune teller which said that if i don't work hard for the start of the year next year...i would suffer in the examinations...and she is telling me that at least 5 times a day...as for me...i don't really believe in fortune telling...i believe in solid materialism and hard work...wah sian...but that is the reality...so we can't do anything...
Another thing about homework...for CAP..."love poem" reflections are very hard to write...as that kinda thing is personal(i don't mean anything) and...lol...its difficult to write reflections for such poems...so if anybody got any tips for that...feel free to talk in the tagboard...
Merry Christmas once again...and see you next year...oh yeah i nearly 4got...happy birthday jj...or rather...merry birthday...
Merry Christmas ...
CAP Contents
I - Welcome
Welcome poem for the mystical contents of the CAP.
II - Silhouette
Edited and better version of previous Black and White series poem.
III - Black and White
Main poem for the series Black and White, depicting best Black and White works combined.
IV - Watch Your Back
Edited and deeper version of previous poem, Watch Your Back, depicting revenge for all the suffering.
V - I am Here, You are There
New work. Depicting sadness of seperation. "Love Poem".
VI - Smile
I haven't smiled in my photos for 3 years, but i am trying to change that. Depicting real life experience emo poem.
VII - Jazz
Inspired from jazz music, my favourite genre of music.
VIII - This World
Rebellion poem. I feel that i could change the world with this poem.
IX - Night in the City
My-style poem. Night in the City similar to poem analysis poem in the LA EOY exam.
X - Time Tellers
Inspired from Broken Hourglass and Sundial in the Storm.
XI - Secret
Emo - subject poem. Revolves around something simple yet special, secret.
XII - Midnight
Been wanting to write this for a long time. Specially chose poem 12 for midnight.
XIII - Guns
Also been wanting to write something like this for a long time. Inspired from Watch your Back.
XIV - Ace of Spades
Slightly edited version of the all-time favourite Ace of Spades. Features special word and letter formation.
XV - Airport Boulevard
Inspiration poem while driving along Airport Boulevard, the main route to the airport.
XVI - No One Else
Longest poem in the CAP, and probably also the emo-est and "lovesickest". This reflection gave me the most trouble.
XVII - The Unfinished
The ending note on the CAP, depicting emo-ness of the end and starting, like the stuff you see in movies, drama and book series.
Merry Christmas a day late...cuz i gotta do homework whole day yesterday...of course ain't got no Christmas dinner...so spent whole day chionging and completing CAP...i thought that 2007's Christmas would be just like any other day...until the night. In order to encourage some China merchants my dad knew to buy more property in Singapore, so he could draw commision, my dad and his property advisor brought the two merchants on a property shopping spree to the Night Safari, and it just happened some of the companions of the two merchants had something on and did not turn up, so there are three spare tickets, so my sis, my grandma and me decided to go...excellent...first time i ever went to night safari, but at the expense of a dinner, as the property buying gang had dinner already, so i starved for the night, but got to go to the night safari for the first time, hmm...do you think its a good deal?
It was ok la...and the animals are really close...and some other tourist's camera nearly got confiscated as he turn on flash...lawls...should be i go confiscate mah...then got free cam...then we were supposed to keep quiet and not scare the animals away...but then my grandma...who don't understand a word of english, and seriously not even more than 1 word..she only knows how to say "hello"...lawls...and she kept blabbering about in the tram...until the tour guide had to remind her several times to keep quiet...lawls...but after that my dad and the other property advisor decided to treat em" rich dudes to supper...hokkien mee, satay, otah and durian for dessert...hmm excellent...all that for free...not bad...but at the expense of christmas presents...so i'm not sure which deal was better...no christmas presents but a trip to a night safari and a delicious and cheap supper? or christmas presents but no first time to night safari and singapore local food delights? hmm not sure which christmas presents i would get...so i am unsure...but there is only one route for me to take...the supper route...so even if i chose not to go...there won't be any christmas presents...so i expect the trip to the night safari and the supper would do...
Merry christmas 1 day late...congrats to whoever got a good haul for this year's christmas presents...well...for those who have nothing under the christmas tree...well...you are welcome aboard ss. sadness...my boat...haha...excellent no-screw lifeboat with less than half a tonne which can make about 1 knot...of course you have to row...as i am not rich enough to own a double screw triple decker private schooner...lawls...
Homework report: CAP done, Maths done, Chinese book nearly done, chen yu dun care, lawls...thats about all of it...har...
Oh yeah regarding the outing...it was sad many couldn't make it on the appointed date...so we hafta wait summore...hmm...maybe thats a good chance lost...maybe it won't change even if it is postponed...so i'm not sure...
I'm seizing this opportunity to post as much as possible as it may not be possible for me to post in any time soon...as school is startin and i would be banned from com in weekdays(most probably, unless some miracle happens...which i doubt)...hmm...my parents think sec 2 is exceptionally important as they dun wanna me to end up in 3A...hmm...so that means much less chance of going out wif all yer merry folks next year...and my grandmother listened to some fortune teller which said that if i don't work hard for the start of the year next year...i would suffer in the examinations...and she is telling me that at least 5 times a day...as for me...i don't really believe in fortune telling...i believe in solid materialism and hard work...wah sian...but that is the reality...so we can't do anything...
Another thing about homework...for CAP..."love poem" reflections are very hard to write...as that kinda thing is personal(i don't mean anything) and...lol...its difficult to write reflections for such poems...so if anybody got any tips for that...feel free to talk in the tagboard...
Merry Christmas once again...and see you next year...oh yeah i nearly 4got...happy birthday jj...or rather...merry birthday...
Merry Christmas ...
CAP Contents
I - Welcome
Welcome poem for the mystical contents of the CAP.
II - Silhouette
Edited and better version of previous Black and White series poem.
III - Black and White
Main poem for the series Black and White, depicting best Black and White works combined.
IV - Watch Your Back
Edited and deeper version of previous poem, Watch Your Back, depicting revenge for all the suffering.
V - I am Here, You are There
New work. Depicting sadness of seperation. "Love Poem".
VI - Smile
I haven't smiled in my photos for 3 years, but i am trying to change that. Depicting real life experience emo poem.
VII - Jazz
Inspired from jazz music, my favourite genre of music.
VIII - This World
Rebellion poem. I feel that i could change the world with this poem.
IX - Night in the City
My-style poem. Night in the City similar to poem analysis poem in the LA EOY exam.
X - Time Tellers
Inspired from Broken Hourglass and Sundial in the Storm.
XI - Secret
Emo - subject poem. Revolves around something simple yet special, secret.
XII - Midnight
Been wanting to write this for a long time. Specially chose poem 12 for midnight.
XIII - Guns
Also been wanting to write something like this for a long time. Inspired from Watch your Back.
XIV - Ace of Spades
Slightly edited version of the all-time favourite Ace of Spades. Features special word and letter formation.
XV - Airport Boulevard
Inspiration poem while driving along Airport Boulevard, the main route to the airport.
XVI - No One Else
Longest poem in the CAP, and probably also the emo-est and "lovesickest". This reflection gave me the most trouble.
XVII - The Unfinished
The ending note on the CAP, depicting emo-ness of the end and starting, like the stuff you see in movies, drama and book series.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
finally...
Good Evening, finally can post le...excellent...com still havent fixed but mighta guess i would take a risk...so nvms...hmm...mother's been overseas for 1 week...and promised to be back yesterday...but then delayed by 5 more days by some more matters to take care of...hmm...i had always knew adults could have never kept promises...and my outing is in grave danger...hmm...i had expected this quite some time ago...homework halfway through...maths done and CAP almost...left chinese...wa sianz...CAP is ok la...but ran out of ideas after poem 12...i planned my titles first...then worked from there...now left 3 poems...i hope i can make it to da outing...but it depends on luck...so until then...i've gotta wait...thanks for the birthday well-wishes...i doubt there will be more posts until my com is fixed...i do not wish to take any more risks...so...Merry Christmas...
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Forced to hide that contempt with a smile...
Hmm...what if your grandmother decided to visit from overseas during your holiday...for...2 weeks? that may be good for you oh i don't know...gifts? fun? freedom? oh i don't know...but in my case...well...you don't wanna know...but i'm tellin ya...
Buisness partner came along...inventor of the highway signboards and stuff which light up in the dark...and those glow in the dark stuff which you paste on the walls...innovative..creative and ambitious...but utterly bitter for me...
Yep rich ppl who count money in millions and stocks and property...and everything must go along with ...so i am forced to give up my favourite seat in the world so far...the left front seat of my dad's car...and be squeezed in the back row in the middle between my grandmother on my right and my mother and sister on my left..yep...i have long legs and wide shoulders and a generally tall build...so i'm stuck there...but lucky me i am pretty thin...so its one good thing...but it is drowned by more problems...
Yep...good dinner...but hardly anything to satisfy my gi-normous appetite which is contrary to the inventor's amazingly tiny vegetarian stomach...so its a problem...went home with stomach aching with hunger...yep...but another good thing is that i got a new pair of converse shoes...black and gold...very nice...but it does not fit me well...they misread the male 10 US size as the female 11.5 US size...which means they think i am female or they are not english literate...so i gotta wear them as many times as possible before my foot outgrows the shoe...which is going to be pretty soon...considering my usual size of 11...
Erm...me and my grandmother don't get along very well...i mean...not as well as a obedient grandson to a fussy but caring grandmother...i'm rebellious...which is contrary to what she likes...and what she likes is obedience and going by her ways...which is contrary to her character...if you can get through all that mind-tounge tying o get what it means...
Well...there are lots more to say...whatever they talk about is not what i like exactly...if you think i am the treasurer and therefore likes exploring the world of finance and money...in short...the world of adults...then you are wrong...the world of adults is a dangerous yet boring territory which shouldnt be accesible to us younger people...enjoying the full fun of life in our teenage years but unfortunately their world has invaded much into ours and changed it greatly...thus greatly influencing us and my life can be a simple example...but i am not so easily perturbed...fron those long and ardous talks i understand about their world and how to stop it...but unfortunately i wont be able to do it in time before we too reach the years which is time for us to be consumed into their world too...
I believe i can change the world to the way in which it will be more fun and carefree without the woes of the slight 1 mm decline on the stock market chart and the jolt of excitement resulting in heart attack when hearing the news of rapidly growing property markets...i believe i can change the world...but i need help and support...so are you in?
unfortunately i can't elaborate more as now i am forced to hide my contempt with a smile which reveals my ugly teeth...and i still wonder why they complain i don't smile enough in photographs when they know very well they are the problem...and my fate and destiny adds to it...for a long long time...my face remains blank and expressionless in my photo album...but i hope that will change..
"I'm trying to stop what is happening to others now...but not in time to stop it from happening to us..."
Buisness partner came along...inventor of the highway signboards and stuff which light up in the dark...and those glow in the dark stuff which you paste on the walls...innovative..creative and ambitious...but utterly bitter for me...
Yep rich ppl who count money in millions and stocks and property...and everything must go along with ...so i am forced to give up my favourite seat in the world so far...the left front seat of my dad's car...and be squeezed in the back row in the middle between my grandmother on my right and my mother and sister on my left..yep...i have long legs and wide shoulders and a generally tall build...so i'm stuck there...but lucky me i am pretty thin...so its one good thing...but it is drowned by more problems...
Yep...good dinner...but hardly anything to satisfy my gi-normous appetite which is contrary to the inventor's amazingly tiny vegetarian stomach...so its a problem...went home with stomach aching with hunger...yep...but another good thing is that i got a new pair of converse shoes...black and gold...very nice...but it does not fit me well...they misread the male 10 US size as the female 11.5 US size...which means they think i am female or they are not english literate...so i gotta wear them as many times as possible before my foot outgrows the shoe...which is going to be pretty soon...considering my usual size of 11...
Erm...me and my grandmother don't get along very well...i mean...not as well as a obedient grandson to a fussy but caring grandmother...i'm rebellious...which is contrary to what she likes...and what she likes is obedience and going by her ways...which is contrary to her character...if you can get through all that mind-tounge tying o get what it means...
Well...there are lots more to say...whatever they talk about is not what i like exactly...if you think i am the treasurer and therefore likes exploring the world of finance and money...in short...the world of adults...then you are wrong...the world of adults is a dangerous yet boring territory which shouldnt be accesible to us younger people...enjoying the full fun of life in our teenage years but unfortunately their world has invaded much into ours and changed it greatly...thus greatly influencing us and my life can be a simple example...but i am not so easily perturbed...fron those long and ardous talks i understand about their world and how to stop it...but unfortunately i wont be able to do it in time before we too reach the years which is time for us to be consumed into their world too...
I believe i can change the world to the way in which it will be more fun and carefree without the woes of the slight 1 mm decline on the stock market chart and the jolt of excitement resulting in heart attack when hearing the news of rapidly growing property markets...i believe i can change the world...but i need help and support...so are you in?
unfortunately i can't elaborate more as now i am forced to hide my contempt with a smile which reveals my ugly teeth...and i still wonder why they complain i don't smile enough in photographs when they know very well they are the problem...and my fate and destiny adds to it...for a long long time...my face remains blank and expressionless in my photo album...but i hope that will change..
"I'm trying to stop what is happening to others now...but not in time to stop it from happening to us..."
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