Thursday, January 24, 2008

I did not wish to know...

Good evening once again and welcome back, tonight, i am blessed with an unusual amount of luck, they are out to a chain dinners with a couple of property buyers from china and you know chinese tradition, they like to treat others to meals and treat the treater back and again and so on and so forth...



SO...excellent...


There's many things for me to deliver in this post...hmm...congrats on shiu wen getting into choir...happy b'day elaine...told'yer not to buy a drink...- -"...and grats on ant's CAP kena...




The Rebellion


Chapter III - I Did Not Wish To Know


Come to think of it now, sometimes, i'd rather not know how much you people can enjoy in your life...through much weary thinking, i was rather happy in the past than i am now...the past is from the age i can think for myself...about 4 to 10...after a decade into this damn world, i am forced to conclude life sucks...and mine sucks quite a lot...if yours sucks, well...i am pretty sure mine sucks more than yours...but nevertheless, both our lives all suck...


Let's list some examples...


When i was in p2...i asked for a ps2...and my dad promised to have it ready for me in p4...and of course... i did not get it...that time i thought that ... "I did not get it." but now i shouldn't even think of it to get my hopes up...i did not mind during those happy blissful years but now i surely do mind...it had been more than 3 years after the appointed year for me to get it...ah...*smiles in dissapointment*


How often do you do not get the things they promise you? well...most probably do not get it...or rather...some...(do not take this as an offence as i do not really know how you are treated at home and i'd rather not know...to prevent further frustration and violence..)


In p3...due to my lack of english knowledge in daily life, i did not understand what was commiting suicide, or rather i was too blissful ignoring to know then...but now i am forced to conclude sometimes people simply had to resort to the last resort...to end all of the damn thing...ending it all quickly...hmm...sounds tempting...but it requires immense bravery...courage which i would never have...for i am a coward...

The irony of it...

This is only the first part of the chapter...this chapter will be long and some suggestions told me to decrease the length of my posts so...there you are...

Good Night...

*The 9.30 forced sleeper among the midnight happy stay-ups..."

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