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This Time Last Year
By Me :)

Time flies when we're having fun.
Now that's bullshit I say.
I don't even have a life after you're gone.
I'm dying inside day by day.

This time last year, we were everything.
We were everything we wanted to be.
This time last year, we were a fairytale.
A magic show everyone wants to see.

We could do what we want, and talked as we please.
There's nothing holding us back at all.
Don't you know, I had plans for you and me.
Into love together we can fall.

We were friends but we could be more.
I tried to make it just a matter of time.
You were leading me on, and I thought
that soon your heart could be mine.

It shames me just to write this crap.
It turns my face away from the screen.
I'm just trying to kid myself, please pardon me.
I'm fairytale-ing what we had been.

But now that I have no choice.
My life now is just a pile of shit.
I need to kid myself in order to live.
And paint a rosy picture of what I did.

Look at us now, what are we?
Two strangers meeting on a road.
Silent acknowledgements in unfeeling eyes.
Coldest story ever told.

I cannot talk without a million thoughts.
Or even, wait, can we even talk at all?
We don't say hellos, only goodbyes.
And I've become the only one who falls.

I'm lonely, my life is fucked up.
That's because I ain't got you.
There's little I can do to save anything.
Because you don't want it too.

What happened to those happy faces.
Conversations filled with smiles.
Close proximity, speaking from our hearts.
Unwritten love letters by the pile.

When my inbox only had one name in it.
And everybody knows its yours.
Nobody could ever come between us.
We were a song on play and without pause.

But now I'm sitting here in this empty house.
Listening to the sound of my broken heart.
I'm lonely, but I hope that you will come back again.
Wait, am I a fucking retard?

There's no fucking way that we could ever again be real.
Because we are now a screwed up fail.
And we were only once a fairytale.