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I'm just finding a place to write my inspirations down...and partly to revive this blog a bit...

pretty much though...quick..before i forget..

What Can I Say? - Excuses to explain problems

I Won't Live, I Won't Die - Irony...living IS dying

Working for Coffee - Working for more work

Quarantine - title suggests

Worse than the Worst - even the worst is better than me

Guardian of the Windows and the Doors - thats me

Unintelligible - i don't understand what you say

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Glance - Why won't you look at me?

Memories of the Future

thats about it...suggestions welcome...its for my money though...heh...i shall try to post some pics of the states soon enough...and jiajian...take care to use your words properly..

i will offer services...tips only...

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wassup y'all...i screwed my life up as usual...but there's one good thing...i have got it...how to unscrew my life...but its gonna be painful...



like jiajian suggested...working hard for all the stuff...its the simplest solution and it had always been right in front of my eyes...but i refused to use the plan and act as it is very tedious and painful...but now there's no more choice as all the other plans failed to work at all...so...expect to see a new me next semester...ima get my freedom this year...I'M GOING TO GET IT!

The price will be paid...there shall be no more outings before the EOY (unless permitted) and i shall restrict my com playing to minimal and study to maximal...

that would mean something like quarantine...

ok let's blog abt today...

- Mr Yeo is a funny man...who plays patapon (whatever that is) on his PSP...and that reminds me that i will be getting my beloved psp and xbox back 2 days later...

May they be covered in dust since the lonely isolation from March...but their edges shall melt once more and buttons and thumbsticks pounded with the return of the June Holidays.

- Meng Han teaches fairly well...and i somehow manage to pay more attention to him...and he bears an uncanny resemblance to jiajian ..somehow...

alrite enuff abt mr yeo...now for replies to tags...

To JJ : Yeah i got your point...thanks for the tip

To XW : Your singing is fine la...just don't too much can le...and i AM going to study hard...

To Dionne : Yo hi camp most fun wif u guys ~ thanks for coming =D..and i will link ~

To SW : lols...i young ma...thanks anyways...and lagging is nothing wrong...i do that all the time =D

To Trisha : hihi ~ long time no see le..thanks for dropping by =D

To Nicholette : hi...camp most fun...yeah i will study hard...sure de...and anyways the play is over la...at least we tried ~ thanks for coming here =D

To Ben : Screw your balls ~ they won't come this blog de...and added msn le..


2 days to hols and i am going to announce my big news...for ONCE i am proud to say that i am comparable to you guys ~~....NOW I SHALL ANNOUNCE!

I AM GOING TO US TO WATCH NBA FINALS!

that's definitely something to cheer me up...dad's got free tickets...and free tickets for evrything!..and VIP passes and stuff...

I've waited so long for the day to be better than the rest, and I am proud to say that the day has come at last.

Apologies for the possible offense and sorry if i had hao lian-ed or suanned you in any way...sorries ~

I'm going off on the 29th...i think...and back on the 8th or 9th...ima gonna have some fun there...something which i had not experienced for ages...and this is the FIRST time i'm going to USA....i know its nothing to some of you but i am just happy ~

maybe i can go find jiawen there...surprises expected...

naturally something as happy as this wont happen but since there are free tics why waste them? haha...

rest assured i will bring back souveniers for all... ~

Homework report ~ LA reflections done, left 1 artefact chionging tmr morning...
Wishlist for this week ~ psp game download sites, and where to modify my psp and music to last me for the hols...

ok now for the EMO side...

i'm seriously gonna work hard like shit during 2nd semester...and not get distracted...sorry...

too bad the budding writers thing is not counted...otherwise maybe i still have a little bit more chance...but at least i'm getting paid for that...(if i'm pro enough that is...) :)

i'm going to put some seriously emo poetry here so if you dislike emo please do not continue...if you want to explore the realms of sophisticated emo you are welcome here...

Love is the Currency

My life's going down,
Way down,
Till the extent I can live a day without a frown.
I have lost the coloured happiness crown,
And my life's going down,
All the way down.

I'd sit by the roadside, drenched in sweat,
Running through thoughts within my worn-out brain,
Down by the dump I had sat,
Crying out for help in vain.

So this is all life ever asked from me,
Good grades to put a smile on their face,
Bad grades to twitch their fingers holding knives,
And trigger that tranquility to craze.

So is this what we are living for?
If you're smart, you'll fly,
If you're not, you'll be dripping blood on the floor,
Get tortured, tormented and die...

There ain't no way to change this world,
There ain't no way a bastard like me,
can shine like a box full of gold,
No, not in mine nor yours wildest dreams,
No, that's stupid not bold.

To live, we must all pay the price,
Of a dollar just to get back a cent,
Drinking and smoking are no longer a vice,
If it straightens your happiness's bent.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm moving on,
No, not in that way.
I'm moving on to save myself,
So take care of yourself, okay?

All I'd pack in my tattered mind,
Are memories of the faded past,
But look into me, then you'll find,
Those memories are not meant to last.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm saving myself,
I'll have to give you up and leave you,
Remember this, if I'm not back in twelve,
Go on without me, do what you do.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm forced to do this,
I've gotta live,
Its just one last hug and one last kiss,
And it's time for me to leave.

I'll toss you to the back of my mind,
To pursue the paths that they have laid,
Unless I lose the path and die,
I will come back for you, I've said.

I will pay the price to live,
But I promise you faithfully,
I had never wanted it this way,
But I have no choice or say,
So just take care of yourself okay?

Go find some better life with him,
For in his life, love is not the currency,
Don't turn back to me, no don't turn,
For in my life, it is.


"For many people, sacrifices have to be made to achieve your goal."
"For some people, barely any sacrifices have to be made and they can achieve any goal."

"For me, love is the sacrifice which I made to achieve THEIR goal."

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Hey all...back frm level camp...quite fun la...actually very fun...compared to what i thought before...considering i even considered ponning the camp...now let's talk abt what happened on that island with that bloody steep hill which we had to climb everyday...

Day 1

Went to sch with my gigantic bag...and waited for hell long until we got onto the bus which the bloody old driver drove so damn slowly...and slept on the bus...was in grp 3 with instructor joel...he has nice hair and nice dance moves and nice looks...wo0ts...got ben balls and yun en i know de...so not bad and got toon in my mirror group 4...so very fun...go there and use insect repellant spray like shit after climbing that fucking slope...lol...and lugging my damn heavy bag...

amazing race afterwards...chiong arnd like siao...lucky nvr tio the caterpillar...wo0ts...yeah and i in major A...

dinner was nice...so was lunch...didnt had to beg for alota food for day 1...

and i think that showering is futile in that place...as we had night activities after we shower...and chionging outta those curtainless cubicles after rinsing ourselves barely have any uses at all...lol...oh yes and rason has a nice mango smellin' soap...
got the cubicle right in front of da door today...

kidnap!...our hostage was yu peng and he slept through the thing...lol...so we slacked a bit and "best" chief veron tricked us into thinking we got the key and ended up second last...

lights out at 11...but actually slept at 12 i think...as i couldnt sleep and kept waking up at night as it was so fucking HOT!

Day 2

woke at 6...played a bit of poker with sim, toon and j-ster...then chiong to breakfast...
the basketball court is damn sandy...just place your hand on the court and it will come back with a handful of sand...
BUDHHA CLAPS! they are the best sia...i think 500 is barely enough that day to satisfy our needs...as its the best activity ever!

was nearly ready was gladiator when it started raining and through the whole day...so ended up locked in the cage and getting fucked up to boredom with those activities...

practised our screwed up skit for a while...and ended up screweing it up even more...so we are screwed...

got the one at the far right at 15 today...still visible from the door but not as much as shi ning's favourite...

dinner was nice...had some donations and was duty group...played with ben and the trolley up the slope and the ice we were pushing up was leaking through a hole in the bag - -"...

had candle fight afterwards...defending only 1 pair of ppl...lol...like no one dared to come liddat...and brandon owns...

FLY INFESTATION! the toilets were pawned...

light's out at 10.30...so could not sleep...and yong ming crapped like shit until about 11 plus...pissing a couple off and entertaining nearly the whole dormitory...

Day 3

finally had water rafting...which was extremely fun...during which jalan boy emo-ed for more than an hour...aihs he a bit weird weird de la...siao de...so nvms~...

gladiator...probably the most nice activity...and JUSTINN TOON IS A FUCKING ACCURATE BASTARD...who took down 4 or 5 kings through all the rounds...i got 2 kings...and got hit once~

I'd never thought i would ask a girl for protection...but all are doing it now...LOLS.

captain's ball was very fun...especially the last round...with the poor lil' chicken being torn apart by 80 hands...and flung around in the air and landing to be covered in bits of grass...

got the head and the neck...but the neck broke into several pieces when i was trying to throw it...lol...and the best part was brandon...with the flying and spining chicken leg...on a graceful flight from one end of the field to the other...
had some last minute dry runs for the skit...and prepared ourselves for the screwing...

screwing time!...we screwed...and my balls hurt after the pants pullin'...

wen xin's dance most imba...and jj's beatbox is nice ~others very nice also...

then chief veron made me sleep with all that emo talk arnd midnite..light's out at 12.45...and nearly overslept that mornin'

Day 4

woke at 6.30...and cleaned out dorm 14...and there's still a piece of underwear in dorm 15 HAHA!

finally go liaos...cya st. john's island...

oh yes and the boat ride was like a roller coaster ride when it arrived at sg...

went to buy heaven at 7 eleven...never had ice lemon tea and sprite tasted so good...after 3 days of plain water and soya bean...
went home with veron and sim...

that's about it...post more when i have time...

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Hey all...just realized got 2.4 for GPA this semester...wo0ts...i'm screwed like mother...i didnt realize my entire life can be compromized in just a couple of hours of that fucking parent teacher conference...

You may agree that my life is already so screwed in the first place...but now its screwer...aihs...there's no more chance...maybe that damn fortune teller was right...according to my grandmother..if i don't work like fucking **** hard this year...i will be screwed...and i admit i didnt work hard at all this semester...so its time to pay the price...

So is this the only thing everyone cares about now? grades? when does living life and being yourself mean anything all all as long as grades and certificates and scholarships exist? i know its unrealistic...or even spastic...to think about changing this fucked up world now...so let's just hope that it can end early so we won't suffer...

You see all those inspirational posters and quotes and shit...its about living life to the fullest and enjoying it...all those shit...does that matter in this world now? all which matters in this world now is working hard like fuck and getting all those grades and certificates and scholarships...and while those streamers erupt around you...its only a matter of time before you leave this world and not enjoy fame, fortune and power anymore...

There's this one shit which my father said which is seriously fucked up...he says "This world is very fair." its either he's a moron or he's spastic or he's too easily satisfied...or he's really very admirable to look on the bright side of this black world...

Also...it appears my parents like saying shit..."You are working hard for good grades for yourself!"...yeah right...if i want to help myself i won't be torturing myself like that...
i welcome the end with open arms...and i wish i can see the end of this fucking world in my lifetime...so i can run to the frontline, open my arms and embrace the journey to a happier world...

I regret coming to dunman high now...my parents fought hard for my appeal to get inside here...but what do i come here for? for my parents to haolian in front of their colleagues? i could have stayed in chung cheng and be happy with above average grades...but not a lousy struggler in dunman high surrounded by geniuses...

i hope that i will just drown and die during the level camp...or just trip on a rock and fall into the sea off st. john's island...because i have a solution for this...a very simple one...

shall i become an outcast? a bastard who had failed in everything...his grades...his life...his friends?...

I believe there's no possibility for me to continue playing basketball anymore...and my com allowance time may be decreased to even an hour per week...or worse...i get the quarantine...maybe even tv wont be available for long...and don't even mention outings...

Wo0ts...i just ruined my life...(ok maybe its this year and not my whole life)...

Shall i chain my arms and legs up to save myself? or should i chain my neck to save myself?

either way...i'm screwed...

...

Let's look on the not so dark side of things...something i've learnt from happy happy sw...

hmm...

let's see what "happy" stuff i have to talk about...

ok there's only one thing...

There's this budding writers thing which is something like CAP...about writing LA stuff and submitting them...but you don't get any $$ from CAP...but from this...you will actually get to have your works published and you will get 15% of profits! so i'm definitely in...and mind you don't tell my parents anything about that cuz i wanna keep the money if by luck and chance my works get selected...jia jian will be with me for the illustrations and some ideas for poems...i know it will be a long way until the submission but i am excited about the chance to earn and keep my own money...haha..and not be possessed by my parents...yeah and who want come join me also can...we'll split evenly the $$...IF we get it la...this is the real world...the big game...

yes ...and congratulations ant for having the permission to learn guitar...and congratulations on your happy outing =D...my time will come soon...and soon enough i can join you'all...wo0ts...but it's gonna take a lot of fucking hard work to get there...so you'll hafta wait...

camp's coming in the next 2 days..and i got ben balls, yun en, and pajama boy...but i don't know the rest of the ppl...aihs...let's see what's gonna happen...

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Evening. I have a request to ask you all to go to the school forum and find my thread in general suggestions/opinions and comment about the problems in GPA...thanks and goodnight

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hi wassup...ystd go EDS Night very nice...considering its my 1st outing of the year...biggest credits goes to xw for selling me the ticket...thanks a lot...and to the school...for making my parents believe i have to go for at least one outing...thanks chern wei! (or issit some1 else i dunno)...

i know that wenxin is violent...and exceptionally so in the act about the fire thing...and the dancers are pro and that EDS teacher who is very tall is very nice at making ppl laugh with his funny parody about singaporeans and women.

justinn has a vid of 2 of the performances...and i must say again that the dancers are pro...after watching them again...

and for some reason i feel sorry for their lead actor...as he kept getting hit painfully in the encore act.

and it was a full house that night...hell lotta ppl and some ppl , like ant, wear until very nice...come here suan ppl like me...

there's this pact i made with jj...after the show..."Let's do this again some other time."...so rest assured i will ensure i try to attend as many of your happy outings as possible in the future..even if it means defying "them"...

of course...as usual...i tio scolding after the concert for "walking out slowly"...and "not answering calls and messages"...and other damned stuff which you wil never have to worry about if you go on an outing...so thats one price to pay aside from the $10 for the ticket...

yes and another thing..."low" by flo-rida ft. t-pain is very popular amongst the students...i have noticed...as enthusiastic response was seen when the starting beats of the dance song played...

i hope that outings and concerts like this can happen again and hopefully i can attend them just like any one of you out there...

Cass,Jialing,Rachel,Wee Qin,Wenxin and all the other EDS peeps and that tall man :) = imba

Poetry

Happy Bugis-ing
Inspired by Justinn Toon Fu Jin

A word,
A sentence,
All you need to say,
A concert,
An outing,
You are going out today.

I'd pretend to know nothing,
As you made your slow decisions,
Not even letting them know a word,
You escape out of your prisons.

I'd look and smile, knowing that it is just usual.
I won't turn and sulk, but accept that it is real.
I'l follow suit, thinking that I'm like you,
Or you're like me.
But even though we walk the same road,
We are as different as anything can be.

Its just 15 and a nine,
And to me its just fine,
I thought that you would continue,
But alone I will walk this avenue.

Without warning, crowds of you will head out.
While I turn from the darkness outside the window.
I'd look, and laugh, and say goodbye,
Add a word of happy bugis-ing,
And turn to my death with a sigh.

thanks justinn toon for the inspiration...

sometimes i get the feeling that you do not bother reading any of my poetry..and i feel no point of posting more if no one would read them...but still i trust that even the meanest of ppl will have the little patience to read a few lines as they have money and time.

Here's one final piece of poetry today...inspired by EDS Night...or rather my way of attending it...

Last To Arrive, First To Leave

An anxious glance at my $2 watch,
My heart skipped beats, as the MRT rattles.
Through the crowds of people I dodge,
I am trying to win time's battles.

Don't worry, start without me,
I would say,
Don't say sorry, just go on,
Make your day.

A sprint to the escalator I would make,
Hoping I won't make the same mistake,
Of arriving late,
Simply following my fate,
Or crashing my own first date.

Its not my fault,
Till the bars of my cage become unlocked.
Guards gone, now my enemy is the clock,
I'd race against you, tick-tock, tick-tock.

I'd skid to a halt in front of your annoyed eyes,
And my blazing heat turns to ice.
A cold word of let's go,
I'd pant as i walk to and fro.

I'd enjoy it as much as you,
Because they won't make me a fool,
I will seize this chance to make the best,
And be happy for once like the rest.

But the nightmare reccurs after its over,
As missed calls and messages wreck my phone,
Once you hear me talking in that usual tone,
You'd know my time's up, game over.

I'd hastily say goodbye, and have fun,
As i turn away from the laughter and mirth.
Back to my prison i would run,
And hope quickly for the next rebirth.

new skin =D ace of spades

hey all as you can see i got a new skin...please leave comments on it in the tag and thanks for coming once again...
ok stupid post but i aint got no more time...so have fun and good night.

P.S. - The words at the left side of the blog is "I don't care if my life is a jack of diamonds or an ace of spades, because i play them equally well." the first part is missing as the navbar thing cut into it...so sry abt that...and i find the phrase very meaningful...haha so i chose this skin.

check out the time

check out the time...its soo cool ~

the guy by the side

Hey its been long since i posted...but as usual with me...my life ain't so interesting and fun filled with happy things to talk about like yours...but i sure got things to say...all those stupid emo and sad shit...
we are learning about blogging in those computing lessons...lol...kinda weird to teach us things like that...when i understand not all have the time and freedom to make a interesting and alive blog...so i appreciate my opportunity...
we slacked off chinese skit like siao
Reason #1 - No props
Reason #2 - No justinn ( i told him to shoo when he peeked through the back door in chinese lesson with kian boon)
Reason #3 - Jiajian sore throat

lol...

and shing chun was exceptionally pissed with ww for slacking off...so pissed that he came to gay with zhi en during free time

yeah its kinda very emo in my lil' corner at the back of the class...which unfortunately cikgu noorizan like to pick on...and an old tradition of anne ang's (as featured in Maxim and Playboy)...
but one good thing is listening to music without the teacher knowing...

maths lessons = slacking and sianness

pe = aching muscles by bernard

chinese = bedtime stories

geog = plain copying and working with the same people over and over again

la = fun slacking literary circle ( i ain't got the book yet)

music = super fun and trying to avoid those contaminated seats...

history = waste of foolscape

malay = getting picked on again and again

aihs i won't elaborate...

here's another thing...

i realised i had not even gone to one outing this year so far...i hope that is a yet and not for sure...aihs...this may be due to the big mistake i made during that incident or because of some other unknown scheme which is steadily drawing me further and further away from my friends i guess...

oh yes and i just realised i am not a weirdo in writing all those poems and stories and stuff since the computing instructor also had a friend who wrote similar stuff...so yay! i am not a weirdo ~ wo0ts...even though you may still think i am...the one who never hangs out with the "gang"...


The Guy By The Side

"Hey, what's he doing emo-ing down there, not having fun with us?"
"Well, he's a weirdo, everyone knows that, the weenie who complains about his mother all the time."
"Yes! He's such a bastard compared to the class."
"Yeah. I think being this kind of bastard should be a crime."

I operate the spotlights,
Twiddle the equaliser,
The striped referee of your fights,
The solo, emo-ing loner.

I look,
Not shout like you.
Surveying silently, you may think I'm a fool,
Not standing in the centre stage,
But being locked up in a cage,
Like a pawn being crushed by a rook.

I don't seem to be told the things,
Which makes up the foundations of your talks.
I don't seem to know the things,
Which you discuss as you walk.

I lay my boots on the table,
In some distant corner of the club,
With just a bottle of ale and a can of beer,
I watch the action and listen to the hubbub.

I light a cigarette with an invisible flame,
Blowing smoke rings which melt into the air,
Staying in darkness instead of fame,
Choosing silence instead of flair.

I lounge in my chair,
Waiting for you to stop,
And come out of your celebrity lair,
Which I was so intent to rob.

I drum my fingers on the table,
Shake a leg, mumble a minor tune,
Waiting, just waiting for you to stop your petty squabble,
And just notice the solitary audience soon.

I stare darkly at your light,
Dimming over the inferior, not giving a fight,
Nor in sight,
Not right.
I clad in sombre black while you dressed in dazzling white.

I smile at you taking all the glory,
Attention,
Fun.
And I laugh silently,
In your shadow of your reputation,
And those "amazing" things you've done.

So what draws all that fame?
Fortune,
Power?
Is it being the opposite of lame?
Being cool?
SPENDING power?

All that was just a show,
A poorly acted yet well disguised show,
Dressed in expensive wrappings of silver and gold,
Worth more than all i had ever sold.

So I still smile and laugh,
At those fools thinking you are great,
I see through the interval, that curtain call,
That you are nothing to what is said,
Of you,
But merely a broken rule?

I'm by the side, not noticed, no,
Not mentioned, no,
Always shooed away from the centre stage,
But no, I don't feel no rage,
But savage pleasure that I know,
You are just nothing within, but many out,
And all that stuff is just an act,
Water in a wine bottle.

I'm the bastard by the side,
Operating your spotlights,
Backstage crew, clad in black,
Standing way behind your back.

A flick of a switch and spotlights' off,
And all that you pretended to be is gone.

"Hey what the hell is this weirdo bastard writing?"
"I don't know, but it sure is scary."
"Ah who cares about him anyway? He's nothing more than a dust mite."
"Yeah, he's just a loner by the side."


...

...

K back to reality...think what you will of the poem, and say what you want, but only if you truly understand me and my fucked up life then you will ge the through meaning of it...

I suddenly got many inspirations, and i'm gonna put another one right here...


I Don't Fulfill Requirements

"I'm sorry but you don't fulfill our requirements."
"Oh fine, its due to my imprisonment."

I hate this thing,
I've got one step in but the other step out,
And i don't know what's it about.
Am i in? Or am i out?
Just tell me damn it,
Before i shout.

I go out 4 to 5 times a year,
Does that fulfill requirements?
I get $25 a week, nothing else,
Does that fulfill requirements?
I have to ask my guards everytime i leave my cell,
Does that fulfill requirements?
No i'm sorry, but you do not fufill requirements.

Oh money is only part of it,
Don't get me started on the talking,
The more i talk, the better i get,
At just tearing down your building.

I ain't got no experience,
I ain't got no sence of direction,
Cause' my cell has 7 locks,
But the keys are swallowed with intention.

I can't talk about your movies,
Does that fulfill requirements?
I can't discuss the latest trends in the streets,
Does that fulfill requirements?
I can't buy the latest coolest stuff in meets,
Does that fulfill requirements?
No, i'm sorry, but you do not fulfill requirements.

I can't fill out my application form,
As questions asked are barely answerable,
With shit like "Do you watch movies with your friends at least 20 times a year?"
"Do you just go out without the parents killing you fear?"

With all that shit,
And all that crazy things.
All i can only do is express my concern, that,
I don't fulfill requirements.


Same thing as before...

Sometimes i feel if only i could have someone with a good voice and good music talent...we can turn just lines of rhymy words into music...lol...its a stupid kind of dream and idea but many of you ppl are dreaming out there like this...so for once i am comparable to your prowess...

I can judge everything from the way everyone is treating me now...i'm not saying anything or anyone is wrong or whatever...i am ready and prepared to solve such problems...unlike some of you weaklings out there...

Oh yes and me and xw share the same thoughts of that we will witness a big catsaprophe in our lifetime...maybe soon...or later...but i just know we are gonna see something big happen in our lifetime...something big...

And also...i just found some new songs which are quite enjoyable to listen to...

New Favourites

Four Minutes by Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake
When I'm Gone by 3 Doors Down
When I'm Gone by Enimem
When I'm Gone by Simple Plan
Be With You by Enrique Iglesias
Cherry Cola by Savage Garden
Crash and Burn by Savage Garden
Love Gravy by Chef
1973 by James Blunt
NBA by Allen Iverson, Method Man, DMX


i am also collecting some reccomendations...so send me all your nice songs...i got about 180 mb to spare...343 songs and still counting ~

grand money massacre

due to lack of time today...i shall not post any extracts from my writings..but about and interesting event which happened today...

Grand $$$ Massacre
2Hydrus
Dunman High School, Mount Sinai
27/03/2008
$300+ lost
0815 - 0915

Today, about half of all the girls' money in our class got stolen, and the pain of it is magnified sevenfold due to many factors...

1 - Bastard who took more than $300 from the packed wallets of the gals of hydrus

2 - Packed wallets which strongly tempted a possibly stranger while the entire class is out to music class...

3 - Free wallets filled with loads of money lying on tables and under them and in bags which of all places are easiest to steal...enough to tempt anyone...

4 - Talk by Mr Ng (my shining stars) which probably infuriated many but i shall not express my views on that matter as things may turn out badly for me if i speak my mind...

5 - Inability to get the culprit...(too bad it was not me...) and he has now succedded in his crime...as its schools over and the moneys with him...and off he goes to his house and its over...no one could ever find out...


I admire that culprit a lot...as he/she has a lot of nerve to try that in dunman high school (dungman high according to xiaowen)...and its amazing how he could easily get away with more than $300 in less than an hour...maybe even in minutes...also...he/she was excellent and left no clues for us to find out anything...which stumps even me (descendant of sherlock holmes and my assistant, anthony wattson)...

But what i don't admire so much is him...a bastard who makes off with most of the money of our class's gals...(even though it may not mean much to some...)...so justinn and me have decided if we find that bastard...we will knock the stuffing outta him...like we did to jiawen and weng wa today...but even so...i still felt a little tinge of regret that i did not have his courage and could easily make off with more than $300...lying and concealing had never been easier...so it appears the culprit have won...an easy stuff down his/her undergarments and its settled...

Damn...why couldn't it have been me...

on the other hand...it appears that our ppl have a lot of money and a lot of tolerance too...which gave that culprit such an easy job...and much harvest...so...like i said...if i were to express my views...things will turn out badly for me...and ppl will hate me for thinking that...but its due to my father's education...forced education which enforced that value into me and also my life and background...appreciating every grain of rice...but maybe its not for you...so i shall shut up...

What else i admired today was the coolness of the DM Teo Chor Howe, Richard Hia Joo Tiah, and a couple of other dudes...who turned over our bags, willing to check the dangerous contents of our shoes...and bang open our locks...with amazing awe, coolness and a detective CSI aura...and one of em' even had a walkie talkie!! damn thats cool...

Let's conclude this...its mainly the culprit's problem but you ppl hold some responsibility too...and its weird how some feel so little at so much losses...and i understand the pain of some who cried their hearts out at such a heavy loss...i understand...and i'm sorry for your catastrophe...

All the best to the gang of teacher who i finally found so cool and intimidating (even though mr teo was so much shorter than me and was unable to open the electric box thing and had to ask me for help)...to finding the culprit...

And all the best to those trying to take some backup compensation from your parents...

But one more thing...all the best to the bloody culprit...in surviving if justinn and i ever found you...

post 1

Evening...they are out! its excellent...some china merchants had come over for investments so they are engrossed in making some commision outta it...so they are out !! yeah !

like i mentioned...i will be putting the contents of my so called book, on this blog every few days or so...and i will release it bit by bit...a word/phrase a day, a theory a day, and a solution to a problem a day...and probably a quote a day too...

so first on...

The Chainball's Dictionary, extract

"Its been a long while since I went to an outing."
Classification : Dialouge
Comparison : Happy - Sadist

Happy Meaning : Since happy people go out so very often, their "long while" may mean just a week.

Sadist Meaning : Since sadist people hardly ever got to go out, and are simply not allowed so, they tend to oftenly say it, but the "long while" within it may most probably mean at least half a year or so.


Theories of the Caged , extract
Theory : Even though a sad person did not win the lottery, his parents did, but he celebrated just like them.
Why? : Traditionally, a sad person's characteristics do not show parents ever sharing their profits with their children, but it happens, but extremely rarely. But winning the lottery is supposed to make people happy, and if the parents' moods are to his favour, his life will take a definite upturn and its always a good thing to have a chance to enjoy yourself, even for sad people as they do not have much chances at all.

Example : "Today, I'm eating teriyaki chicken don because my parents won the lottery!"


Guide to Surviving the Extremes, introduction

When solving your sadist problems, or possibly other types of problems, it is reccomended you use this 7 step method to solve it efficiently and effectively, but the success of the solution ultimately depends on the user him/herself.

Step I - Background Research

Background research is the fundamental part of any solution. It is advised that you keep a record of possible times when problems could happen, and when times are the bst for you to take action for a bit of freedom. Records of successful and failed solutions are also advisable to be kept as it gives the user a rough guide to what kind of solution he/she should use.

Step II - Identify

Identifying the problem is the basic part of any problem solving. You can't solve a problem if you don't know what it is.

Step III - Find Links

Finding links to the problem makes solving it much easier. You can find out what led to the problem, or what the problem could lead to if it goes unsolved. It gives a sense of urgency to the user and also provides much more information on how the problem could be solved.

Step IV - Check

Checking is very important. You check your available resources and tools to solve the problem, and check that your movements are not being monitored except by your most trusted. If any information leak through, you are done for. You need to check on everything you have which can help in solving the problem so as to make it easier.

Step V - Plan

This is the critical part of the problem solving. Plan out your details to solve the problem, if its long term or short term or blast. Put in all your knowledge and background research and available tools and select the best way and methods to solve the problem. This is a part which experience is very important, so don't sulk if you fail in the earlier tries, experience will be gained. (more details on planning to be released soon...)

Step VI - Execute

Follow according to plan and do what it says. If things do not go as expected, try to change it slightly and make it up as you go. Also, this requires experience, so do not feel discouraged if you fail in the first few tries. (more details on executing to be released soon...)

Step VII - Analyse and Record

If the plan goes correctly, record it down, to remember what you did right and what can be improved to make future similar problems so much easier to solve. If it failed, ask yourself questions about how and why it failed and find out problems to it and solve it again, so as to ensure you do not make similar mistakes again. And the analysis and records goes into your background research and the chain starts all over again.


Thats about it for today, and more to come in the next posts...so stay tuned...comments and suggestions are welcomed in the tagboard...

I'll let you see through your life...

yo its been seriously long since i posted any poetry...but its just for the fun of writing its not to get damn A.A.'s shit attention like the black shit and wayne...

but first let's post about the day...just like any1 else...today quite sianz...pe slacking was fun though...walked...jogged...talked and play played...and chinese was storytelling as usual...and really BEDTIME STORIES...slacked through maths also...

went home with veron...since no other would resort to their prisons so quickly...or if it can be prison in your way but it is in mine...so i don't blame you guys...why go to prison so early if you can stay out of it longer? but alas...some unfortunates...not only me...as many other are much worse...have to abide by the orders and sadly take leave from their fellow free friends and head on to a long and lonely road to their imprisonment...

i recently got myself a new toy...and its been quite a while* since i got one (see The Prisoner's Book of Language, By Chen Wei Heng, for more details) and its a high tech gun like penknife, which can slice through thick plastic with ease, but i have not tried metal, but if it can marr plastic, it sure can to flesh and blood...hehehe...


So eh...don't get too freaked out when you see me playing with it...cuz Wen Xin and Xiaowen saw me twirling the exquisite weapoin in my hands and they resorted immediately to a futile attempt to stop my soon would be suicide...hahaha...

ok after so much of my talks and boring testimonies which you weaklings are too blessed to experience to fully understand my situation and jiajian's and many other people out there...i will make some writings, simple ones mind you, to let you understand our situation and therefore reduce misunderstanding amongst us and make peace between all...and others who suffer can also convey their thoughts and opinions here through my tagboard...so everyone gets a fair fighting chance...and recently i got this idea to put something similar on the school forum...which would rapidly spread the understanding..but thats not soon...and it will take lots of preparation...

and i'm aware if any teacher got wind of that, and if any teacher conveys the message to them through the parent teacher conference...hoho...let's not think about that..

ok back to the painful reality...and not imaginations and wonders of maybe impossible scheming and fighting for our right to live free...

today sat at the back of the class and discussed with xw how the class might be after 10 years...and its pretty funny...but i shall not go on to the finer details yet but we do know some will have their sweet rides and some may look conpletely different due to removal of rules and stiff...but let's not talk about that now...we males have 2 years of NS to go through and its at least 7 years till just maybe i will get my freedom...just MAYBE...

It is said that learning will accompany you through life...just like huo2 dao4 lao3, xue2 dao4 lao3...and even though we are not old and withered, we are in the midst of learning, and learning much more than we normally should and do, and i've just finished learning a simple concept, which is xian1 ku3 hou4 tian2, which i saw wonders in it after doing a large bulk of my hw during the weekends and saw the wonders of not worrying about homework while gunbound and trickster music rings in my ears...haha...

Since i'm afraid to lose your attention after such a long post (for you but not for me, as you may not actually have the patience to browse through the opinions of an inferior lack of freedom man...) i'm going on the the poetry..hah...

Respect Your Enemy

Ok let's take it this way,

You two decide to finish each other off,

Ok, let me do the say,

Everybody not a sound, not a cough.

You two, face each other here,

No getting too violent, cause' its not time yet,

Say hello without any fear,

Cause' maybe its the last that he may get.

Shake his hand, don't mind,

Even though you may curse behind,

So just make it quick, one last time,

Before either steps on the mine.

Walk to the end of the arena, face set,

As you are about to fight an honourable man,

Honorouble, yes, you can bet,

As enemies are the ones which makes you a man.

Smile and draw your guns, split second,

Decision,

So let's do your stuff and show him what'you got.

So now, resist the cheat and dirty play temptation,

Otherwise things will look ugly if you are caught.

Call him by his proper name, no name-callin',

And acknowledge him to be your rival,

Honour him to get on the likes of your hate,

But give him no chance of survival.

Ah, hear the sweet music, of gunshots renting the air,

For there is none as such this fair,

But for such honour there's one rule,

Respect your enemy, its so true.

I know its nothing much compared to my previous works...but it just popped into my mind somehow and i just got those words..so...let's end this post...

Casual Writings by me and JJ, to be published on our blogs...

I - Dictionary of the Chainball

Comparison of words and phrases used by different people with different backgrounds and lives. Excellent guide to understanding what JJ and me is talking about.

II - Theories of the Caged

Many phsycological theories about how and why people behave in the way they do which so intrigued me and JJ. Also includes reasons why such theories are true.

III - Guide To Surviving the Extremes

An excellent guide to how to survive lives like mine, jj's and many other unfortunate people out there. Recommended for all as you'd never know when disaster strikes when your parents got to know mine.

Thats about it...thanks and stay tuned to broken-hourglass.blogspot.com...

Apologize for a new start

hey all...i'm here to apologize about that contradicting post which probably made all of you unhappy or angry also...so i deleted it...

hey all...i'm sorry for that post and the rash words and meaning inside it but it was a moment of impulse when i posted all that stupid stuff...i didn't mean any of it and now when i look at it, it indeed is very insensitive...

i posted all that stupid stuff out of impluse ... but that blaze had now passed and its over... i'm sorry to all once again and i hope you don't take those foolish words against me...

thanks for all the tags though...i appreciate it but i believe it needn't happen if i was better at controlling my rage and not letting my mood affect my attitude towards my friends...(even though my parents always let the stock market or company status affect their attitude to me...)

I'm sorry once again and i promise it won't happen again...

I'm sorry to justin sim too...it was not intentional and it was only a moment of outburst when i said those foolish things...

I'm sorry to all who had been offended by all my actions in this period of damn time, when things don't go well and smoothly, but i admit i'm a lousy bastard at controlling how i feel and i emo too much and most of the time offend others or make other uncomfortable or unhappy or angry and stuff...so i'm sorry again and i would not let it ever happen again...

I'm sorry to all who i had unwittingly insulted or offended for being what they do best, and being themselves, seriously its my own little error in mispredicting what could happen...so i need to learn more...

So let's put this behind us and get on to a new start, with a new mindset, a new attidude...

Previous Mindset - I must find methods to defy them and make others believe that they are very happy and must let non believers suffer the pain too.

New Improved Mindset - I must learn from the other happy people and therefore thank them and appreciate their time and patience for teaching me excellent methods in improving my freedom.

So now...i know that after misunderstanding all you ppl's good intentions, i shouldnt ask for more but i require your secrets to your happiness and freedom...so teach me, i am willing to learn...so all will be much better...

Tell me your secrets and i will tell you mine to how to survive in extreme conditions...

I'm willing to learn from my masters and soon enough i will be as good as them (you) so please if you do not mind spend a little bit of time telling me about your methods to your success in freedom and i will appreciate it a lot...

Thanks to all and sorry once again for that post...

Seriously its my fault but i will try my best to make it not so, and not let any problems happen which eventually lead any someone's fault...

nightmare of march 14th

Nightmare of March 14th



End of the World



Chapter I - Red



Its was chaos. Everything was bathed in crimson light, as the many supposedly extinct volcanoes erupted at the same time, spewing ash into the atmosphere and lava into densely populated towns, burning houses, destroying buildings, and everything. He stumbled and ran, and ran. But the cloud of ash and carbon was closing in, and he fell to the ground, awaiting burning hot lava to melt him any second, or preparing himself to inhale breaths of lung destroying carbom monoxide. He shuddered in sweat and closed his eyes, just pleading for a miracle to save him, and whispered something inaudible as all around him, mountains of exploding magma and clouds of ash and dust with crimson illumination changed the familiar landscape of the peaceful town, terribly. But just as suddenly as it began, it stopped.
The tons of magma ejected into the air froze suddenly, and turned into solid rock, and broke into millions of pieces as they fell to the ground, all in one fluid motion. As tiny pieces of hot rock cascaded upon the stricken land, the rage of the disaster seem to stop, like a fire which is melting slowly and dying out. Soon enough the small stinging burning on his back stopped, and he stopped shuddering in fear.

Chapter II - Blue

Soon enough, that blazing heat and stinging pain on his scarred back disappeared. And the thunderous noise of the eruptions and cracking of the rocks stopped., to be replaced by something completely new, rain. As the flaming red of the sky get replaced by a cool crystal blue, and cool waves of rain began cascading upon the ruined town. He got up shakily to his feet and shook his wet hair out of his eyes, slowly taking in so much which had just happened. He spluttered, tripped on a piece of a blown up house, and stumbled into the burning wreck of the town, looking for his family and friends. Quickly he found them, and together with the rest of the little town a small caravan of tattered trucks headed out to the city miles and miles away. To their relief the city was unaffected by the disaster. Quickly he and his family brought some provisions and together with a gang of his friends, had a meal at the local cafe, celebrating the end of the disaster. But all the time, even though the rain of relief fell, a strange blue hue seemed to engulf everything, the sky, the roads, and even his vision was turned to a shade of light and dark blue, and everything seemd to shine softly like crystal, as if he was wearing a pair of blue sunglasses, even though he was not. But fun and laughter was not made to last.

Chapter III - Black
As he left the cafe, something more menacing than the volcano struck his eyes. A swirling pit of dark mass was right above the city, a black hole. And everything is sucked into it, and he could only stare on in horror at the end of the world as everything is devoured into nothingness. And he lost everything he ever had and ever wanted...

Chapter IV - Green
He woke sweating, heart beating fast, and could almost still see the black hole as it swirled above the earth. A shadow passed his eyes, and for the first time he realised how bright the sun shone and how green the trees and grass were...

The choice to make for fun for you...not for me

I havent posted for a month...i know that...

This is going to be short...

First thing...happy birthday jieyu...i owe u a drink...

Next...today's CIP sucks...

Finally...THIS ENTIRE DAY SUCKS...CUZ ALL OF YOU HAPPY PEOPLE OUT THERE ARE GIVEN A CHOICE! WHILE I AM NOT...

IT DOES NOT MATTER IF YOU GO OR NOT...AS A SMALL AMOUNT OF PPL CHOSE NOT TO GO...CHOSE MIND YOU ! THEY CAN CHOOSE! DAMMIT!

YOU ALL ARE PROBABLY HAVING FUN THERE AT THE PARK NOW AND I AM STUCK AT PRISON WITH NOTHING TO DO (ACTUALLY 2 HOURS OF GAMING PER DAY IS EXCELLENT FOR ME BUT PROBABLY NOTHING TO YOU DAMMIT FUCK!)

WHAT'S THE POINT EH? THIS POST MAY NOT BE READ ANYTIME SOON CUZ MAYBE YOU HAPPY PPL WOULD HAVE MUCH MORE TO DO AFTER THAT DAMN PARTY WHICH I SO MUCH WANTED TO GO BUT FORCED NOT TO!?!?!?

TO JON - YOU MADE THE CHOICE NOT TO GO..AND THATS YOUR CHOICE...AT LEAST YOU HAD THE CHOICE AND MADE ONE WHICH YOU WANTED AND LIKED! I AM NOT GIVEN THE CHOICE!?!?

WHY AM I ALWAYS SHOUTING AND ARGURING OVER THE PHONE WHILE U PPL DON'T HAVE TO LET EM' KNOW AT ALL!?!?

WHY!?!?

FUCK DAMMIT BASTARD JIBAI LA!

OH KEEP HAVING FUN!?!? YEAH I DON'T MIND

i'M ONLY POSTING THIS TO RELEASE ALL MY ANGER AND NOT TO DISCREDIT YOU OR ANYTHING,..ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL I KNOW THAT...ITS MY GODDAMN LIFE!

FUCK THIS ALL!!!

AND I SHALL END THIS FUCKING UNHAPPY POST WITH A QUOTE -

DESCRIBING SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCOMPLISH OR A FLAT REJECTION TO A REQUEST -

"IF WEI HENG IS GOING, THEN I'M GOING."

OR THE OPPOSITE, WHICH MEANS SOMETHING EASILY DONE AND ALSO A FLAT REJECTION -

"IF WEI HENG IS NOT GOING, THEN I'M NOT GOING."

FUCK THIS DAY...I JUST WANNA FORGET IT AND LET THE POWER SWITCH I'M GOING TO PRESS SOON ELECTROCUTE ME TO DEATH...

Tennis

Yo...its finally the weekend so i am able to post...

Something interesting happened this friday, i first touched a tennis racket and first walked onto a tennis court...and of course...first played tennis...

Rather fun...and much more difficult than it looks like on tv...the court is a whole lot bigger than you think and it takes much more strength and control to play it...

JJ and me borrowed the rackets and balls from the pe dept. (so convinient), and had some fun for about half an hour...

Ok tennis is cool..and i'm picking up some basics...not that i'm going full into that but it is just an alternative sport and form of exercise other than the conventionals, sometimes too much bball is too much...lols...and soccer can be quite wearing sometimes...so why not try something not conventional at all? something which quite some ppl had never thought of trying?

Of course...we all know tennis is ..erm... more suitably played by the more suitably wealthy..eh...but its free to borrow rackets and balls from the pe room...so whats the big deal? heh...all we need is some time and hopefully a court to ourselves...and of course...time is important and jj and me are rather tight in the schedules...so with everything ...there is a price to pay eh?

Learning the basics is quite simple, there's a good range of tutorial videos on the basic yet important fundamentals on youtube...look for MrKronte in the search area and he has a whole range of instructive and comprehensive training vids on the basic serve, forehand, backhand, shot selection, court positioning, tactics and strategy and various types of shots like topspin and slice very clearly explained in detail but yet simple enough to practice with any similar racket at home in the small space of even my room!... so its useful and highly informative for basics...(like i said, having a bit of skill makes every game much more fun, especially if you do not spend more than half the time going to pick the balls which are rather badly played by your opponent and hopefully but not surely you..lols...) more challenge makes every game more fun...remember that now..

So play it or not its your choice, i'm just opening up another choice of sport for leisure and if you live in a condo or such its simple to book a court, but for me i have to rely on the school...(sometimes i really feel school is more leisurely and more fun than home((prison)))...

Of course, there are many other sports available for choice at the school and for free, basketball, soccer, badminton, volleyball, netball, tennis are just as much as those sports we play and can be offered to us...(with the exception of running) lols!

Tennis is fun, go try it, and from my sources it is likely we would be learning some basic tennis in the upper secondary levels...so it would not hurt to have some basics now and opening up another world of possibilities of an alternative leisure sport...haha...jj and me would be trying to find time to stay back and play if possible...so if you want a simple alternative other than your conventional sport, try tennis, whole new and fun! (look for MrKronte on youtube to find those good vids)

Service Ace

He looked at his opponent with murder in his eyes,
He checked his legs positioned just right,
With a smirk he tossed the ball high up against the sun,
He drove himself at the ball with all his might.

With a snap of his wrist from 7 to 1,
The explosion was just precise,
The ball was doing what it should have done,
Spinning towards the opponent with speed and concise.

The other had expected a flat one, but he was wrong,
The sudden drop of the topspin but him in a daze,
He tried to get it but it was too late,
He had given him a service ace.

"Let's not stick to conventions and you may just find another world."

"Only with basics and fundamentals, then you can proceed with complications."

"With challenge comes fun."

"Pros don't just become pros, they have to start from a noob."

"Don't challenge those who are weaker than you, but those who are stronger."

"If you know you are weak, you will improve, but if you know you are strong, you will improve more."

"The world of sports is open to anyone, any age, any race, any wealth, just as well as anything."

New Skin II

Evening, first things first! I know it's kinda late, but happy birthday ant! xiao di bigger than me? lols =.=...even though my "present" was just a drink, i still owe you a real decent treat, that jolly shandy 0.5% alcohol "beer"...haha...i rmb justin nearly got drunk after drinking that on monday ~ nearly went to sleep..lols...

Of course, not many of us are used to stuff like that, not if you had downed half a bottle of 12% alcohol red wine, (like me) and lived to tell the tale! ah excellent brew, i rmb last year...excellent..first time i drank so much and didnt feel a thing!

of course, by now you should have noticed i changed the skin..lols...please tag and comment thanks!

Today i won't be posting long as time restricts, so i am going on to the final points of the post.

Today continued The Island, from 2 weeks ago, excellent movie with a little gore, much violence, and some coarse language...excellent, with f**k, son of a b***h, sh*t and some others...violence include futuristic vehicles being crushed, amazing dumbbell power and crazy luck off a 70 storey building, of course, can't forget some nuditiy scenes(sadly some, not a lot) lols..and jiajian kept getting excited about that and kept saying "make out! make out!!" lols...

There's this angel mortal lame stupid thing...which gets many unhappy, worked up, impatient, violent and apparently, suspense...of getting those they do not want, or awaiting coincidence of getting those they want, of course, to that person you shall present a present(lols)...ah...can't get you one of the teeny items on your wishlist now mortal...i am sorry but i shall try...to get those HOUSE KEYS! and get outta my cell..

Previous mortals - sw, justin sim

Previous angels - kim siang, yan wen

Not bads...but kept re drawing..haiz...time wasters...and sorry yan wen for taking the candy..haha...thanks a lot anyways...=D

Alright...time's up, i'm off...

"Sometimes you have to leave something behind, maybe something important and dear to you, something you may not live without, just to live a few more minutes, as you are forced to."

"Not always that you are given a choice to decide what you want."

Reunion? 2008

Good evening , and happy CNY...in about 3 hours time..and i just had the reunion dinner...it was a good steamboat...and they invited some pals along too...and an improvement this year...it's really a reunion dinner...my dad's here, my mom's here...yeah...last year and the year before my dad was not present for the "reunion" dinner...but amazingly he made it this year.. ~ even though its not a "full" reunion dinner ... if it is, all of the people in my family would have to come here, from across the world, USA, HK, Taiwan, China, Canada and much more...yeah they are scattered across the world like the people in our class are scattered across singapore.. ~

I do look forward to a good money haul this year...but of course, nobody should get their hopes too high in case it does not fulfill what they desire...that includes you...who is used to plenty of loads of tons of money...but not me ~ the best moment is only when i feel the money between my fingers and the red material...then it is prompty ripped from the hands and stuffed into the bag...ah...such a quick yet beautiful moment.. ~ the feel of sweet cash beneath my fingers.. ~

Its an average of about $150 to $200 per haul i guess?...nothing compared to you of course...and i try not to relieve my memory last year...the unpleasant memory...but i have to share it to show how different CNY is to me than to you..

Exact Date Unknown, Chinese New Year, Day 1, 2007

He woke up in the usual morning, and went through all the usual routines like an automated robot, breakfast, morning clean up, as if following silent orders already planted deep inside his mind. It was Chinese New Year, and it was time to get all those red packets. But unlike other kids, this one was different.

His mother called him into the room after breakfast, and presented to him a red packet. Of course, he was delighted as this could only happen once a year, but he didn't know a nasty surprise lay waiting for him under the red paper, a surprise unlike other kids would ever receive.

He eagerly ripped the cover open, to reveal a single, green, five-dollar note. He froze, he had expected about 10 times that amount, due to a miserable $10 the year before, it could not have gotten worse, but now there was only half that amount.

He looked up at his smiling mother, and forced one himself, and turned to walk away, but before he could exit the room, the question burst out of him before he could control it. But this question is not what you expect.

"Where is Dad's?" he asked.
"Oh, it's already included in that $5." his mother hastily made up.

He nodded in grim disappointment and left the room.

After that, his dad returned home from work, quite unlike others, his dad still had to work regardless of holiday. He mustered all his courage and shot his dad a question.

"Erm, where is my red packet?" he feigned curiosity and innocence.

"Oh, erm..." he stuttered.

At this moment, his mother swiftly stepped into the scene and said, " It's included in the $5 i gave you, didn't you listen?"

"Oh, alright." he nodded.

As he added his pathetic $5 to his miserable collection of a few red packets under his pillow, by tradition, he felt, that he was more different from the others than he had ever thought, but still very same.


Relieved memory on 6th February 2008

Dreaming about this...
I have said it, and there is no more need to explain.
...
On to other topics then...

Generally my lack of goodies and red packets is due to the lack of visitors and visiting, there's barely any people here for us to visit and receive except for some colleagues of them...but still, every cent is treasured like a hundred, but probably not in your case...

...

Alright...enough of all this "damn long and boring posts" WHICH INCLUDE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO SAY BUT NOT APPRECIATED OR EVEN CONSIDERED AT LEAST OR EVEN READ !

...

Shall i seize this chance to present another recent work of mine?

Wander, Wonder
Version I

I wander within the bounderies of my mind,
And yet I wonder if I am in your's.
I wander in and out of your sight,
And wonder when would you ever pick up my call.

I'm here, wandering in your street,
Wondering which of the hundreds of homes you are in.
I wander aimlessly with none to meet,
Wondering if not I was seen.

I wander across the void deck below your block,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering around around the clock,
Wondering when you would come out, day or night.

I wander along your corridor,
Wondering if that's your door,
I wander across the moonlit floor,
Wondering if I should shout and call.

I wander through the shops alone,
Wondering which of the candy you would like,
Wandering amidst expenses that shone,
Wondering which that i could ever buy.

Wandering through the desserted school,
Wondering where to catch a glimpse of you,
Wandering past the silent pool,
Wondering what else i should do.

I wander along your hidden footsteps,
Wondering where you had gone,
Wandering in rounds of many laps,
Wondering when just you would come.

I wander amidst the shadows of night,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering in and out of your sight,
Wondering if you had taken flight.

I wander about in my aimless mind,
Wondering if i am in your's,
I wander forever, day and night,
Wondering,
Wandering,
Wondering,
What more could happen if you just picked up my call.

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Also, today i celebrate 2 years into the maple world, level 65, and still going =D
Many may ask or criticise that i am slow, well, two years is not really 2 years...2 years minus 2006 june holidays 1 month, PSLE isolation quarantine period 3 months, dec holidays 1 month, 2007 june holidays 3 weeks, exam isolation period 1 and half month, and the most painful of them all, weekday quarantine and weekends only, so divide the remaining value after subtracting all the months from 2 years, divide it by 7, and multiply it by 3, and thats the amount of days i play, and divide it further by 24, and multiply it by 3, so thats about it...about it la...

Thank you all who have supported me through my maple life.

Finally i would like to wish all a happy chinese new year, with the hope of the removal of ERP gantries to stop excessive rage and anger while driving, the removal of gst and slow down of economic progress to reduce price uprisings to ease everyone as its gong xi fa cai in the new year, and wan shi ru yi...

Wish you all the best in the new year of the rat, with much happiness and wealth and love...

Haha...

Goodnight.. ~

"Let's face the new year with a smile, if possible."

There's something to post about tonight...I

There's Something to Blog About Tonight

Finally, a night when i can finally post something not involving expelling of inner disgust and frustration, hyperventilation, rebellion propoganda, emo poems and quotes, and much of things which you are too happy to understand and feel.

Tonight, its gonna be different...

Yesterday, a rainy day, we played plenty of sports, soccer and bball and got pe also, like i said, day 5 is the best day on the timetable, and of course, they don't know i end at 1.45, so i have about 2 and a half hours free time to pursue leisure activity of choice, in my case, basketball, and a new find of fun, soccer.

We played soccer during recess and after school for a change, but the familiar sounds of basketballs echoing in the dark gym is still enticing, so i could not resist, played a couple of games with the team.

Soccer was more fun than i thought, even though i am not good at it, missed 6 goal chances..lol..but shing chun complains i am not good at all, but is he ? ah nvms...this is payback for what too much i did to him, so i accept it, i accept it...haha..vengeance is a must in this wretched world...

But the real fun didn't come until after our sports, and when rain became too much to endure, so we took refudge at the corridor where the others are decorating the wall for CNY...we hung out there for quite a while, whiling the time away challenging each other to high jumps to reach the ceiling decos and playing music, after while, at about 3, we returned to class, and i had the excellent excuse of torrential rain and being unable to fight through the gale, so i could stay...and i did, until 4.30...excellent eh?

This excellent idea occured to me, as i slid into the classroom though the double doors, and justinn was playing music through the speakers, with dim lighting and tables and chairs, this idea presented to me a classic bar, with music, entertainment and things included...only thing missing was air-con, which many of you are used to and crave it even if you have it so commonly at home...makes and excellent buisness...

Finally, a post with photos...and with full colour too..not black and white..

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Nice eh?lol buisness opportunities are always out there, all you need to do is grab them..

"Chances don't walk to you, you have to walk to them."

"Many people is willing to have a glass of top-shelf vodka with you, but that's not what you want. What you want is someone who sill have a glass of plain water with you when you run out of vodka."

*Edited from last year's handbook.

"Buisness is cruel, merchants are evil, salesman are deadly, but thats the world."

"Buisness is the intricate art of turning a dollar into a hundred."

"Buisness is the process of taking one's money to make more."

"Buisness was never risk-free and fail-safe."

"Money is the very thing which gets in the way of everything."

Alright enough of the quotes...now let's snap back to life.

Continue...

Yesterday, after we left school in a light drizzle, we struggled on, that is me and jj as the other happy people are too slow and would not be scolded and tortured for being so, but me and jj will be, so we hurried, but that was a wrong move...hastiness caused ant's soccer ball to roll down the slope to the canal entrance at the MRT station leh...WA SEH...A SHEER DROP AND STEEP SLOPE...AND ITS JJ'S FAULT...HE DIDNT STOP THE BALL FROM ROLLING DOWN EVEN THOUGH HE WAS JUST A STEP AWAY FROM IT!?!?!? LOL...

justinn the brave man and jj the accused staggered down the slope to retrieve it, drawing much attention of passer-bys and unfortunately a damn teacher...who reprimanded us...lol...dammit...

The full video of the rescue mission if with anthony , and to be viewed when liked, ask him for it.

IF, the ball had not miraculously stopped at a small ledge and had bounced down into the rapid current canal as it was raining, the $60 ball could be gone and jj's gotta pay for it, but who cares? he got a damn billiard table in his 3 story semi-d ! but still i won't mind it there as long as i can have a few rounds on it haha...8-ball ~

Yesterday was also my sis's b'day, and she's 6 le...excellent...got cake ~ wo0ts ~ and a meal at a RESTAURANT leh ! shuang rite?

On to today...today went out for lunch and i managed to get a book!.. HALO:Contact Harvest...it's been more than a year since i brought my last book, not counting harry potter VII ...but finally the time has come ! the book is nice lor..devised from the game itself...excellent...$25 leh...painful...painful... ~but it is a long and excellent read...so its kinda worth it..but of course...its still money... T.T

Of course, for everything there is a price to pay...and today its about books...

I prefer science fiction books and nice violent stories...but i am not lucky enough to get out and lay my hands on your books like those whatever fantasy stories and teen stories...i like those stories about violence, war, fighting and stuff...but i am not yet exposed to the wide range of genres unlike you fortunate ppl...so my range is very limited...

My parents want to force me to read non-fiction books...and CHINESE books...i can still except chinese fantasies and some nice historical stories like the romance of the three kingdoms and the shui hu zhuan or something like that...and comics in chinese are also preffered...but they want me to read chinese novels...and non fiction ones about how the successful people of our time got so successful...and in their sense is that they make a whole load of cash...and that is the only thing my parents and grandparents are concerned about...and don't care about what i think and how i feel...so dammit...dammit...its the direct opposite of what i like to read...

"People do not like being forced to do what they don't like."

"But people means all of us, so why must I be the exception?"

I told my parents the above sentences but they said nothing in reply or acknowldgement...just told me to proceed as planned...life stories of successful people...secrets to success...inspire in life success...all dammit de lah...sian...must read that kind...walao eh...

so...all you happy people out there...appreciate that Artemis Fowl book and other above $10 dollar book you have ..and even added those below that amount...as you still paid for it...ah...you don't even blink an eye when you just let go of 20 dollars for that book...haiz...happiness..but that $25 for the halo book was once half a year...so its acceptable...but not for you...its far too little...

haiz...why must the original happy exciting picture post become emo at the end????? WHY???

Sometimes I wish I'd rather not know you, my friends, as your happiness bring me down for some reason.

I'm sorry.

Daunted?...you wish...

Hey yo...just finish kena scolding by mom...for forgetting my pe shirt left in the class to dry...dammit...how can she find out even the smallest fines details of my faults?...fuck...

There won't be no censored words now...cuz i wish to express the true anger behind those simple words...words alone can't say much now..

Oh yeah...keep suppressing me...keeping me away from the others all right...and don't give me a chance to speak up for myself...no fighting chance...daunted you think i am?...you wish you damn bastards...

Watch it...the clock is ticking...my nerve is failing...slowly but surely...something will be done about this damn thing...

"You may walk that leisurely pace and not feel a thing as you walk into your cell, but I can't stroll like that, I would die."

"There's one damn thing about you assholes, you do not care about us, the assholes to you."

"One wrong move, one life lost."

"A few minutes could make all the difference between a happy day and what may possibly be the day of your suicide."

"If you exaggerate, expect the same in return."

"Sometimes it's not your fault if you don't get what you want."

"Being neglected, misunderstood, misintepreted, wrongly accused and many other setbacks are just a part of life, though nevertheless the darker part."

"Having just one friend, may it be anyone, to listen to you and share your troubles, it's better than having many "friends", who go about their own happiness and leave you in the dark."

"Many occasions, occasions are not really occasions, be it your fault or others."

"Materialism do not represent love, gratitude, or any other feeling."

"The sweetest things are not when others share your happiness, but when others share your bitterness."

"Physical pain is nothing compared to mental pain, as brandishing a cane is nothing compared to a shouting match of powerful words."

"They say love is free, but not for all."

"Love is like a pet bird, if you let it out, it will return its gratitude, but if you don't, it would die within the bars of restriction."

"Too much of a good thing is never a good thing."

"There are too many generalizations in this damn world, for example, if you say sleeping at 11 pm is very common and nobody would not be assailed for it, thats for you, and/or many other happier and luckier ones, but not for me, no."

"Many fail to see how much different their closest friends are to them, but they merely assume they are of the same "kind".

"Sometimes what you see of a person is not really him, but merely external influences upon his true person."

"Life changes a person, but a person is not his life, nor vice versa."

"What one thinks can never be changed, but what one does is easily modified by his life experiences."

"The definition of "friend" cannot be truly explained, and varies from person to person, but nobody ever got it right."

"There is an increasing amount of failures in noticing who is truly your friend."

"The end may be a start of something new."