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wassup y'all...i screwed my life up as usual...but there's one good thing...i have got it...how to unscrew my life...but its gonna be painful...



like jiajian suggested...working hard for all the stuff...its the simplest solution and it had always been right in front of my eyes...but i refused to use the plan and act as it is very tedious and painful...but now there's no more choice as all the other plans failed to work at all...so...expect to see a new me next semester...ima get my freedom this year...I'M GOING TO GET IT!

The price will be paid...there shall be no more outings before the EOY (unless permitted) and i shall restrict my com playing to minimal and study to maximal...

that would mean something like quarantine...

ok let's blog abt today...

- Mr Yeo is a funny man...who plays patapon (whatever that is) on his PSP...and that reminds me that i will be getting my beloved psp and xbox back 2 days later...

May they be covered in dust since the lonely isolation from March...but their edges shall melt once more and buttons and thumbsticks pounded with the return of the June Holidays.

- Meng Han teaches fairly well...and i somehow manage to pay more attention to him...and he bears an uncanny resemblance to jiajian ..somehow...

alrite enuff abt mr yeo...now for replies to tags...

To JJ : Yeah i got your point...thanks for the tip

To XW : Your singing is fine la...just don't too much can le...and i AM going to study hard...

To Dionne : Yo hi camp most fun wif u guys ~ thanks for coming =D..and i will link ~

To SW : lols...i young ma...thanks anyways...and lagging is nothing wrong...i do that all the time =D

To Trisha : hihi ~ long time no see le..thanks for dropping by =D

To Nicholette : hi...camp most fun...yeah i will study hard...sure de...and anyways the play is over la...at least we tried ~ thanks for coming here =D

To Ben : Screw your balls ~ they won't come this blog de...and added msn le..


2 days to hols and i am going to announce my big news...for ONCE i am proud to say that i am comparable to you guys ~~....NOW I SHALL ANNOUNCE!

I AM GOING TO US TO WATCH NBA FINALS!

that's definitely something to cheer me up...dad's got free tickets...and free tickets for evrything!..and VIP passes and stuff...

I've waited so long for the day to be better than the rest, and I am proud to say that the day has come at last.

Apologies for the possible offense and sorry if i had hao lian-ed or suanned you in any way...sorries ~

I'm going off on the 29th...i think...and back on the 8th or 9th...ima gonna have some fun there...something which i had not experienced for ages...and this is the FIRST time i'm going to USA....i know its nothing to some of you but i am just happy ~

maybe i can go find jiawen there...surprises expected...

naturally something as happy as this wont happen but since there are free tics why waste them? haha...

rest assured i will bring back souveniers for all... ~

Homework report ~ LA reflections done, left 1 artefact chionging tmr morning...
Wishlist for this week ~ psp game download sites, and where to modify my psp and music to last me for the hols...

ok now for the EMO side...

i'm seriously gonna work hard like shit during 2nd semester...and not get distracted...sorry...

too bad the budding writers thing is not counted...otherwise maybe i still have a little bit more chance...but at least i'm getting paid for that...(if i'm pro enough that is...) :)

i'm going to put some seriously emo poetry here so if you dislike emo please do not continue...if you want to explore the realms of sophisticated emo you are welcome here...

Love is the Currency

My life's going down,
Way down,
Till the extent I can live a day without a frown.
I have lost the coloured happiness crown,
And my life's going down,
All the way down.

I'd sit by the roadside, drenched in sweat,
Running through thoughts within my worn-out brain,
Down by the dump I had sat,
Crying out for help in vain.

So this is all life ever asked from me,
Good grades to put a smile on their face,
Bad grades to twitch their fingers holding knives,
And trigger that tranquility to craze.

So is this what we are living for?
If you're smart, you'll fly,
If you're not, you'll be dripping blood on the floor,
Get tortured, tormented and die...

There ain't no way to change this world,
There ain't no way a bastard like me,
can shine like a box full of gold,
No, not in mine nor yours wildest dreams,
No, that's stupid not bold.

To live, we must all pay the price,
Of a dollar just to get back a cent,
Drinking and smoking are no longer a vice,
If it straightens your happiness's bent.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm moving on,
No, not in that way.
I'm moving on to save myself,
So take care of yourself, okay?

All I'd pack in my tattered mind,
Are memories of the faded past,
But look into me, then you'll find,
Those memories are not meant to last.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm saving myself,
I'll have to give you up and leave you,
Remember this, if I'm not back in twelve,
Go on without me, do what you do.

I'm sorry, girl, I'm forced to do this,
I've gotta live,
Its just one last hug and one last kiss,
And it's time for me to leave.

I'll toss you to the back of my mind,
To pursue the paths that they have laid,
Unless I lose the path and die,
I will come back for you, I've said.

I will pay the price to live,
But I promise you faithfully,
I had never wanted it this way,
But I have no choice or say,
So just take care of yourself okay?

Go find some better life with him,
For in his life, love is not the currency,
Don't turn back to me, no don't turn,
For in my life, it is.


"For many people, sacrifices have to be made to achieve your goal."
"For some people, barely any sacrifices have to be made and they can achieve any goal."

"For me, love is the sacrifice which I made to achieve THEIR goal."