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Late Afternoon Melancholy

4.00 pm to 6.00 pm

On the MRT train or bus, staring outside. Sometimes at home staring at the slightly dark cloudy sky. Mid-tempo Jay Chou's emo. Songs about heartbreak and loss. Guitar strums and moody lyrics.

My heart aches for you to be with me.




Mid Evening Melancholy

8.00 pm to 9.00 pm

At home alone by the desk beside the window. Sky is inky black. Piano notes trickle through the speakers. Slow tempo emphasising loneliness and solitude.

I've never felt more alone before. Ever since you left.

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Meaning: "Beloved"

Alternate meaning: "Be loved"


You can be loved, but that does not mean you will love in return.

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What's the difference between

"Do you love me?"

and

"Do you still love me?"


Well I never had any love to begin with.

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400th post! thanks for coming to this blog yall, ima try to get more pics and stuff up here so to keep things interesting and colourful. also, please tag more in the tagbox on the right side, because its kinda dead. so do help me out haha. shouts go out to wenning and hweepin for trying to keep it alive. anyways, you can also tell me some stuff you wanna see on this blog, like what stuff you wanna see more of and what stuff you wanna see less. can make this blog more interesting yaknow? so, keep coming here, go tell your friends, and get me more blog views :D thank you all

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If the world wants to keep me from you, I guess I gotta take on the world. If fate and destiny conspire to stand between us, I guess I have to shoot them dead. If you want to keep me from you, there's nothing I can do.

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昏下的琴键太寂寞

来来去去只剩很拙的双手陪着固执的我

不停弹奏不停的犯错想起他为你唱歌时的温柔我会笑着难过

他能给你保护　

代替我的照顾这是我最后的祝福

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

记忆留在最初

谢谢你曾让我　幸福

不停唱着越来越清楚

想起你看他眼神中的满足我学会了服输

他能给你保护　

代替我的照顾我只能偷偷的　

为你祝福

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

记忆留在最初

谢谢你曾经让我　幸福

想着手心的感触想着脸颊的温度

谢谢你那些年　

为我付出

谢谢你的结束　

冷却后的残酷

谢谢你的知足　

告诉我别再付出

谢谢你的温度　

记忆留在最初

谢谢你曾让我们　幸福

This song kinda describes things now. And I apologise for being a bastard and not thanking you for anything. I think its far too late but I still want to thank you. Because you gave me the memories that kept me alive until now.

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Looks like a tumblr item. hahaha. but honestly, this mami~*$^*#$ is something we experience quite often everyday. oh wait, not both desire, just one.

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This is ... ah.

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Smiles Planted By Another Man
By Me :)


"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

Yeah I think I'm happy.
I think.

So what if he's the one making you smile?
You're happy, and that's what matters most.
So what if he's the one making you laugh?
You're happy, and that's what I care about most.

As much as you like to be near him.
To look into his eyes with that stare that goes into the heart.
He is the one who can make you happier.
While I'm the one who can't do any part.

Your smiles are the product of another man's work.
Your sacred happiness is something I can't help to make.
You look so happy talking with him.
So I should shrug and smile instead

of being such a fucked up loser.
Trying so hard but only to fail.
I should be happy because you're happy too.
And that's what matters the most.

So I sit here alone behind the table.
Looking at your moments of euphoria.
With a hand on the side of my face, I guess
I can't really do a smile right?

So I just stare and take all of it in.
Accepting the consequences of my defeat.
Some other man can be responsible your your happiness.
While I can do nothing but be a piece of shit.

But still, I smile and I'll be happy.
Because you smile and you're happy.
There's nothing more I can wish myself to do.
But to feel happy for you too.

But you know the way it tears at my heart.
To see you putting emotions in him.
It's not like I want to cuff you up.
But nice guys finish last you see?

But its your choice to be smiling with him.
I guess I'm incompetent I can't do a thing.
So I'll sit quietly here and watch
you make a million more flings.

I'll smile, but doing that, I'm lying to myself.
Because I can't do what others can.
I want to be the reason for your smile.
But your smiles are just planted by another man.

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There are 3 kinds of guys in the world.

The guys that have a picture of HER as their wallpaper.

The guys that have a picture of HER with THEM as their wallpaper.

And the guys that don't have the picture of HER as their wallpaper. (contributed by Yanqi, the original one only had the first 2 kinds of guys haha)

Pardon my boredom during History lesson

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Girls need to realise this .
We guys don’t care if you talk to other guys .
We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys .
But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off .
It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there .
We don’t care if a guy calls OR TEXTS you .
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned .
Nothing is that important at 2am .

Also, when we tell you you’re pretty / beautiful/ gorgeous / cute / stunning, we freaking mean it .
Don’t tell us we’re wrong .
We’ll stop trying to convince you .
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence .
Yeah, you can quote me .
Don’t be mad when we hold the door open .
Take Advantage of the mood im in .
Let us pay for you!
don’t ‘feel bad’
We enjoy doing it .
It’s expected .
Smile and say ‘thank you’ .
Kiss us when no one’s watching .
If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed .
You don’t have to get dressed up for us .
If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need towear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own .
We like you for who you are and not what you are .
Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s .
or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up .
Don’t take everything we say seriously .
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it .
Don’t get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don’t talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us .
It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that .
Whatever happened to the word ‘handsome’/’beautiful’
i’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with ‘Hey handsome!’ instead of ‘Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy’ or whatever else you can think of .
On the other hand im not sayin’ i woulndnt like it either ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren’t being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population & find someone who will treat you with utter respect .
Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest .
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes .
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel .
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes ….and say ‘i love you’ ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it’s cute.
Every Guy who isn’t a jerk will agree with this,so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
<3


this is the stuff you can get on tumblrs haha

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"Yaknow, just now i tried drinking my blood cause apparently it seems very appetizing and ya know what?!?! it taste like water ._. Disappointing lah!"

- Wenning, sunnysideuppp.xanga


"HAHAHA, it doesnt. For mine I drank it too cause there's a cut on my knee and it looks nice to drink. Somemore im thirsty."
- Wenning, quoted from Jiajian's convo


I AM DISTURBED D:

I WILL HAVE NIGHTMARES TONIGHT

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"Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing, but my time would be wasted, they got nothin' on you, baby. Nothin' on you, baby. They might say hi, and I might say hey, but you shouldn't worry about what they say, 'cause they got nothin' on you, baby. Nothin' on you."


They can't compare.

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New inspiration from today (not related to the game we play haha)

"Inside Outside"


On a side note, today quite fun. finally got to bowl after so long. other stuff also quite ok. so, happy day :) .

"Teachers call it disruptions, we call it a day when we can actually live."

Holidays ftw

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When the best thing to do is just to accept that you're a failure, smile and say that life is screwed, just the way its supposed to be, and just walk like a gentleman towards ending it all. If you gotta fail, fail spectacularly. If you have to get owned by somebody else, accept defeat in style by shaking his hand. If you have to be the most lowest and trodden-on being on this planet, do it with a smile. Because you know how to end it all.

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Hmm, I'm wondering, how the fuck did I get through the day without talking to you?

Oh wait, I realised, just by looking at you, I feel that I have a reason to live again.

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How To Talk To Someone In A Million Easy Steps
By Me :)




Hello, so you wanna learn how to talk.

To be smooth with your words and put style in your walk.

You wanna always say the things they wanna hear.

And put nothing but solid gold in their ears.

You want them to love you for the stuff you say.

And make their hearts become the games you play.

You wanna be the coolest person in school?

Well, here is what you gotta do.


First, you gotta look and be sure what you wanna say.

Then you have to find the lucky person of the day.

Then you think, think what would make her smile?

Something that could keep you in her mind for a while.

The words almost slip out when you come face to face.

Now, now, now, its a bad mistake, you big disgrace!

Never, never say what you really want to mean.

Because she will never take it like what it seems.

Because only YOU think thats what she wants to hear.

No matter what you do, you can't make sure.

Never does anybody know what everybody wants.

We try to make them happy but we simply can't.

Because when we're trying to talk, we're always playing this game.

We reach level 100 but things remain the same.

The first words that come out of our mouths are what we really meant.

Those that come after that are way below 100 percent.

But hey! That's not the point. You are here to learn.

To be that ladies man, that smooth talking person.

So quickly now, let's get along with our lesson.

Only a million steps, that's what you gotta learn.

It's simple to remember them because they're all the same.

But once you learn to get those right, you will earn your fame.

It's just a simple thought process repeated over again.

Please don't worry, soon enough, you will get used to the pain.

Now before those words roll off your toungue, let this in your head.

Think, think, think again. Before the things you say.

Now, think, think, think again, what if I said this?

Will she be surprised? Unhappy? Or downright screwed up pissed?

Now think, think, think again, what if I said that?

Is that what she wants to hear? Or will that make her sad?

Now think, think, think again. Repeat this a million times.

Craft your sentence and polish your mouth and your words must be refined.

Think through a million possibilities, of what could happen if,

You said a wrong thing, or looked the wrong way, trust me it makes a diff.

Maybe she won't talk to you anymore. Or they'll shun you away.

Your whole life can be destroyed just because of one thing that you said.

So caps lock, subliminal messaging, haha, LOL, smiley face.

But then you realise that your most pressed button is actually "backspace".

So stutter, look away, "erms" and "ahs", juggle your words again.

You must always remember to be careful what you say.

So one moment she's typing, the next she's not, and the same goes for him.

There's no such thing as a perfect conversation, it just exists in dreams.

Learn to speak carefully, my friend. She may not take it as you think.

Something small you said might ruin your life, and make her see you like a fiend.

So before you say something to try to make her smile the smile of your dreams.

Think, think, think again. Never say what you really mean.

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FUCK

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Well it must be pretty fun for the world to look at one guy fail miserably in the most important task of his life.

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"Voici mon secret. Il est très simple: on ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux."

- Le Petit Prince


"Here is my secret. It is very simple: It is only with the heart that one can see clearly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

- The Little Prince

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Hello guys, I'm sorry for not being able to post much recently because of a lot of holiday hw to chiong. I will try to post as much as I can though. in the meantime, jiayous with your own holiday hw. hope to see you soon.

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One mind on a hundred thousand things.

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Facade Of Intimacy
By Me :)

"Never judge a book by its cover." - Unknown


"Nah, that's just what it looks like.
Not what it really is."

Please convince me that it isn't real.
Now turn around and tell me that it is.
I'm sorry sir, can you repeat that again?
I need your help to put my heart at ease.

They look like they've got everything.
Everything, really. Everything.
What more could we ask of them?
There isn't anything missing.

Now that's where you're wrong, man.
It just looks like that.
There's definitely something missing.
You're just fooled by them.

But why do you say so? That ain't right.
They're everything everybody wants to be.
What more could you ask for than
some true-to-heart L-O-V-E?

Haha, we've got a lovesick man here right now.
Somebody call the ambulance.
OPEN YOUR EYES, my foolish friend.
Don't get caught up in the moment.

My eyes are open, pardon me.
But I've seen them at it before.
I've seen things I'm not supposed to see
behind the classroom door.

Look at the way they work the world.
To draw a thousand pairs of eyes.
They set their thoughts in motion.
And how could you say its a lie?

Well, trust me. People ain't really as they seem
to be, they are not really what they let you see.
You only see what they choose to show you.
So for that, my friend, please don't be fooled.

No way, that couldn't possibly happen.
I've got a million ways to prove the truth.
While you've got none to go your way.
I don't think you've got anymore to say.

Haha, I guess you've got me now.
But you need to know this verse.
"Intimacy may be appealing to you,
But facade comes in first."

Look beyond that crap you see.
And think why could it happen.
Why? Why do they do that?
Such perfection never happens.

Learn to know that good things never,
never, never, ever happens.
If you think you see it does,
It's just a lie, because it never happens.

You think they may have gripped your thoughts.
Your heart and your desires.
So think, think, think again.
You'll discover that the whole world, not just them.
Are a bunch of fucking liars.

Wait a few months and you will see.
Their so called "love" fall apart.
By then, you will know that broken hearts
are really what facades are.

They never stand strong, they never last long.
They shatter because they are made of shattered hearts.
What you see isn't what you get.
So there's no point wishing on the shooting stars.

Because they're just airplanes, falling down from the sky.
Like lovers once they're over their high.
And they will crash, crash and burn.
And burn until there's nothing left.

So what you see now is just for now.
They're merely trying to shake your heart.
Trust me, pull your eyes away.
And stop thinking about it like a retard.

They're in it just for a moment of high.
When the whole world turns to look at them.
Look, look, what's the point of that?
If you don't know how to look inside.

Sit with me, my friend, and watch the show.
When they crumble and fall after a few moments.
Love and happiness never had long lives.
So there's no point, no point trying at all.

They look like they've got everything.
In fact, there's nothing. Really nothing.
Because nothing lasts forever, you see.
Nothing lasts forever.

Man, that's a lot to say for just one thing.
I think you are right.
So all we're doing is watching a show.
With scenes that are just well acted.

Alright, let's leave them at it.
We can do better things with this time.
They may look like they've got everything.
But that's just what it looks like.

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Anyone know where to get some sleeping pills? I really need those.

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"I dont mind having *** with him and then give birth to his kids. After that, DITCH HIM ^^"
HAHAHAHA"

- Wenning, sunnysideuppp.xanga.com

holy shit, people nowadays sure are evil =.=