I havent posted for a month...i know that...
This is going to be short...
First thing...happy birthday jieyu...i owe u a drink...
Next...today's CIP sucks...
Finally...THIS ENTIRE DAY SUCKS...CUZ ALL OF YOU HAPPY PEOPLE OUT THERE ARE GIVEN A CHOICE! WHILE I AM NOT...
IT DOES NOT MATTER IF YOU GO OR NOT...AS A SMALL AMOUNT OF PPL CHOSE NOT TO GO...CHOSE MIND YOU ! THEY CAN CHOOSE! DAMMIT!
YOU ALL ARE PROBABLY HAVING FUN THERE AT THE PARK NOW AND I AM STUCK AT PRISON WITH NOTHING TO DO (ACTUALLY 2 HOURS OF GAMING PER DAY IS EXCELLENT FOR ME BUT PROBABLY NOTHING TO YOU DAMMIT FUCK!)
WHAT'S THE POINT EH? THIS POST MAY NOT BE READ ANYTIME SOON CUZ MAYBE YOU HAPPY PPL WOULD HAVE MUCH MORE TO DO AFTER THAT DAMN PARTY WHICH I SO MUCH WANTED TO GO BUT FORCED NOT TO!?!?!?
TO JON - YOU MADE THE CHOICE NOT TO GO..AND THATS YOUR CHOICE...AT LEAST YOU HAD THE CHOICE AND MADE ONE WHICH YOU WANTED AND LIKED! I AM NOT GIVEN THE CHOICE!?!?
WHY AM I ALWAYS SHOUTING AND ARGURING OVER THE PHONE WHILE U PPL DON'T HAVE TO LET EM' KNOW AT ALL!?!?
WHY!?!?
FUCK DAMMIT BASTARD JIBAI LA!
OH KEEP HAVING FUN!?!? YEAH I DON'T MIND
i'M ONLY POSTING THIS TO RELEASE ALL MY ANGER AND NOT TO DISCREDIT YOU OR ANYTHING,..ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL I KNOW THAT...ITS MY GODDAMN LIFE!
FUCK THIS ALL!!!
AND I SHALL END THIS FUCKING UNHAPPY POST WITH A QUOTE -
DESCRIBING SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCOMPLISH OR A FLAT REJECTION TO A REQUEST -
"IF WEI HENG IS GOING, THEN I'M GOING."
OR THE OPPOSITE, WHICH MEANS SOMETHING EASILY DONE AND ALSO A FLAT REJECTION -
"IF WEI HENG IS NOT GOING, THEN I'M NOT GOING."
FUCK THIS DAY...I JUST WANNA FORGET IT AND LET THE POWER SWITCH I'M GOING TO PRESS SOON ELECTROCUTE ME TO DEATH...
Friday, March 14, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
Tennis
Yo...its finally the weekend so i am able to post...
Something interesting happened this friday, i first touched a tennis racket and first walked onto a tennis court...and of course...first played tennis...
Rather fun...and much more difficult than it looks like on tv...the court is a whole lot bigger than you think and it takes much more strength and control to play it...
JJ and me borrowed the rackets and balls from the pe dept. (so convinient), and had some fun for about half an hour...
Ok tennis is cool..and i'm picking up some basics...not that i'm going full into that but it is just an alternative sport and form of exercise other than the conventionals, sometimes too much bball is too much...lols...and soccer can be quite wearing sometimes...so why not try something not conventional at all? something which quite some ppl had never thought of trying?
Of course...we all know tennis is ..erm... more suitably played by the more suitably wealthy..eh...but its free to borrow rackets and balls from the pe room...so whats the big deal? heh...all we need is some time and hopefully a court to ourselves...and of course...time is important and jj and me are rather tight in the schedules...so with everything ...there is a price to pay eh?
Learning the basics is quite simple, there's a good range of tutorial videos on the basic yet important fundamentals on youtube...look for MrKronte in the search area and he has a whole range of instructive and comprehensive training vids on the basic serve, forehand, backhand, shot selection, court positioning, tactics and strategy and various types of shots like topspin and slice very clearly explained in detail but yet simple enough to practice with any similar racket at home in the small space of even my room!... so its useful and highly informative for basics...(like i said, having a bit of skill makes every game much more fun, especially if you do not spend more than half the time going to pick the balls which are rather badly played by your opponent and hopefully but not surely you..lols...) more challenge makes every game more fun...remember that now..
So play it or not its your choice, i'm just opening up another choice of sport for leisure and if you live in a condo or such its simple to book a court, but for me i have to rely on the school...(sometimes i really feel school is more leisurely and more fun than home((prison)))...
Of course, there are many other sports available for choice at the school and for free, basketball, soccer, badminton, volleyball, netball, tennis are just as much as those sports we play and can be offered to us...(with the exception of running) lols!
Tennis is fun, go try it, and from my sources it is likely we would be learning some basic tennis in the upper secondary levels...so it would not hurt to have some basics now and opening up another world of possibilities of an alternative leisure sport...haha...jj and me would be trying to find time to stay back and play if possible...so if you want a simple alternative other than your conventional sport, try tennis, whole new and fun! (look for MrKronte on youtube to find those good vids)
Service Ace
He looked at his opponent with murder in his eyes,
He checked his legs positioned just right,
With a smirk he tossed the ball high up against the sun,
He drove himself at the ball with all his might.
With a snap of his wrist from 7 to 1,
The explosion was just precise,
The ball was doing what it should have done,
Spinning towards the opponent with speed and concise.
The other had expected a flat one, but he was wrong,
The sudden drop of the topspin but him in a daze,
He tried to get it but it was too late,
He had given him a service ace.
"Let's not stick to conventions and you may just find another world."
"Only with basics and fundamentals, then you can proceed with complications."
"With challenge comes fun."
"Pros don't just become pros, they have to start from a noob."
"Don't challenge those who are weaker than you, but those who are stronger."
"If you know you are weak, you will improve, but if you know you are strong, you will improve more."
"The world of sports is open to anyone, any age, any race, any wealth, just as well as anything."
Something interesting happened this friday, i first touched a tennis racket and first walked onto a tennis court...and of course...first played tennis...
Rather fun...and much more difficult than it looks like on tv...the court is a whole lot bigger than you think and it takes much more strength and control to play it...
JJ and me borrowed the rackets and balls from the pe dept. (so convinient), and had some fun for about half an hour...
Ok tennis is cool..and i'm picking up some basics...not that i'm going full into that but it is just an alternative sport and form of exercise other than the conventionals, sometimes too much bball is too much...lols...and soccer can be quite wearing sometimes...so why not try something not conventional at all? something which quite some ppl had never thought of trying?
Of course...we all know tennis is ..erm... more suitably played by the more suitably wealthy..eh...but its free to borrow rackets and balls from the pe room...so whats the big deal? heh...all we need is some time and hopefully a court to ourselves...and of course...time is important and jj and me are rather tight in the schedules...so with everything ...there is a price to pay eh?
Learning the basics is quite simple, there's a good range of tutorial videos on the basic yet important fundamentals on youtube...look for MrKronte in the search area and he has a whole range of instructive and comprehensive training vids on the basic serve, forehand, backhand, shot selection, court positioning, tactics and strategy and various types of shots like topspin and slice very clearly explained in detail but yet simple enough to practice with any similar racket at home in the small space of even my room!... so its useful and highly informative for basics...(like i said, having a bit of skill makes every game much more fun, especially if you do not spend more than half the time going to pick the balls which are rather badly played by your opponent and hopefully but not surely you..lols...) more challenge makes every game more fun...remember that now..
So play it or not its your choice, i'm just opening up another choice of sport for leisure and if you live in a condo or such its simple to book a court, but for me i have to rely on the school...(sometimes i really feel school is more leisurely and more fun than home((prison)))...
Of course, there are many other sports available for choice at the school and for free, basketball, soccer, badminton, volleyball, netball, tennis are just as much as those sports we play and can be offered to us...(with the exception of running) lols!
Tennis is fun, go try it, and from my sources it is likely we would be learning some basic tennis in the upper secondary levels...so it would not hurt to have some basics now and opening up another world of possibilities of an alternative leisure sport...haha...jj and me would be trying to find time to stay back and play if possible...so if you want a simple alternative other than your conventional sport, try tennis, whole new and fun! (look for MrKronte on youtube to find those good vids)
Service Ace
He looked at his opponent with murder in his eyes,
He checked his legs positioned just right,
With a smirk he tossed the ball high up against the sun,
He drove himself at the ball with all his might.
With a snap of his wrist from 7 to 1,
The explosion was just precise,
The ball was doing what it should have done,
Spinning towards the opponent with speed and concise.
The other had expected a flat one, but he was wrong,
The sudden drop of the topspin but him in a daze,
He tried to get it but it was too late,
He had given him a service ace.
"Let's not stick to conventions and you may just find another world."
"Only with basics and fundamentals, then you can proceed with complications."
"With challenge comes fun."
"Pros don't just become pros, they have to start from a noob."
"Don't challenge those who are weaker than you, but those who are stronger."
"If you know you are weak, you will improve, but if you know you are strong, you will improve more."
"The world of sports is open to anyone, any age, any race, any wealth, just as well as anything."
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
New Skin II
Evening, first things first! I know it's kinda late, but happy birthday ant! xiao di bigger than me? lols =.=...even though my "present" was just a drink, i still owe you a real decent treat, that jolly shandy 0.5% alcohol "beer"...haha...i rmb justin nearly got drunk after drinking that on monday ~ nearly went to sleep..lols...
Of course, not many of us are used to stuff like that, not if you had downed half a bottle of 12% alcohol red wine, (like me) and lived to tell the tale! ah excellent brew, i rmb last year...excellent..first time i drank so much and didnt feel a thing!
of course, by now you should have noticed i changed the skin..lols...please tag and comment thanks!
Today i won't be posting long as time restricts, so i am going on to the final points of the post.
Today continued The Island, from 2 weeks ago, excellent movie with a little gore, much violence, and some coarse language...excellent, with f**k, son of a b***h, sh*t and some others...violence include futuristic vehicles being crushed, amazing dumbbell power and crazy luck off a 70 storey building, of course, can't forget some nuditiy scenes(sadly some, not a lot) lols..and jiajian kept getting excited about that and kept saying "make out! make out!!" lols...
There's this angel mortal lame stupid thing...which gets many unhappy, worked up, impatient, violent and apparently, suspense...of getting those they do not want, or awaiting coincidence of getting those they want, of course, to that person you shall present a present(lols)...ah...can't get you one of the teeny items on your wishlist now mortal...i am sorry but i shall try...to get those HOUSE KEYS! and get outta my cell..
Previous mortals - sw, justin sim
Previous angels - kim siang, yan wen
Not bads...but kept re drawing..haiz...time wasters...and sorry yan wen for taking the candy..haha...thanks a lot anyways...=D
Alright...time's up, i'm off...
"Sometimes you have to leave something behind, maybe something important and dear to you, something you may not live without, just to live a few more minutes, as you are forced to."
"Not always that you are given a choice to decide what you want."
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Reunion? 2008
Good evening , and happy CNY...in about 3 hours time..and i just had the reunion dinner...it was a good steamboat...and they invited some pals along too...and an improvement this year...it's really a reunion dinner...my dad's here, my mom's here...yeah...last year and the year before my dad was not present for the "reunion" dinner...but amazingly he made it this year.. ~ even though its not a "full" reunion dinner ... if it is, all of the people in my family would have to come here, from across the world, USA, HK, Taiwan, China, Canada and much more...yeah they are scattered across the world like the people in our class are scattered across singapore.. ~
I do look forward to a good money haul this year...but of course, nobody should get their hopes too high in case it does not fulfill what they desire...that includes you...who is used to plenty of loads of tons of money...but not me ~ the best moment is only when i feel the money between my fingers and the red material...then it is prompty ripped from the hands and stuffed into the bag...ah...such a quick yet beautiful moment.. ~ the feel of sweet cash beneath my fingers.. ~
Its an average of about $150 to $200 per haul i guess?...nothing compared to you of course...and i try not to relieve my memory last year...the unpleasant memory...but i have to share it to show how different CNY is to me than to you..
Exact Date Unknown, Chinese New Year, Day 1, 2007
He woke up in the usual morning, and went through all the usual routines like an automated robot, breakfast, morning clean up, as if following silent orders already planted deep inside his mind. It was Chinese New Year, and it was time to get all those red packets. But unlike other kids, this one was different.
His mother called him into the room after breakfast, and presented to him a red packet. Of course, he was delighted as this could only happen once a year, but he didn't know a nasty surprise lay waiting for him under the red paper, a surprise unlike other kids would ever receive.
He eagerly ripped the cover open, to reveal a single, green, five-dollar note. He froze, he had expected about 10 times that amount, due to a miserable $10 the year before, it could not have gotten worse, but now there was only half that amount.
He looked up at his smiling mother, and forced one himself, and turned to walk away, but before he could exit the room, the question burst out of him before he could control it. But this question is not what you expect.
"Where is Dad's?" he asked.
"Oh, it's already included in that $5." his mother hastily made up.
He nodded in grim disappointment and left the room.
After that, his dad returned home from work, quite unlike others, his dad still had to work regardless of holiday. He mustered all his courage and shot his dad a question.
"Erm, where is my red packet?" he feigned curiosity and innocence.
"Oh, erm..." he stuttered.
At this moment, his mother swiftly stepped into the scene and said, " It's included in the $5 i gave you, didn't you listen?"
"Oh, alright." he nodded.
As he added his pathetic $5 to his miserable collection of a few red packets under his pillow, by tradition, he felt, that he was more different from the others than he had ever thought, but still very same.
Relieved memory on 6th February 2008
Dreaming about this...
I have said it, and there is no more need to explain.
...
On to other topics then...
Generally my lack of goodies and red packets is due to the lack of visitors and visiting, there's barely any people here for us to visit and receive except for some colleagues of them...but still, every cent is treasured like a hundred, but probably not in your case...
...
Alright...enough of all this "damn long and boring posts" WHICH INCLUDE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO SAY BUT NOT APPRECIATED OR EVEN CONSIDERED AT LEAST OR EVEN READ !
...
Shall i seize this chance to present another recent work of mine?
Wander, Wonder
Version I
I wander within the bounderies of my mind,
And yet I wonder if I am in your's.
I wander in and out of your sight,
And wonder when would you ever pick up my call.
I'm here, wandering in your street,
Wondering which of the hundreds of homes you are in.
I wander aimlessly with none to meet,
Wondering if not I was seen.
I wander across the void deck below your block,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering around around the clock,
Wondering when you would come out, day or night.
I wander along your corridor,
Wondering if that's your door,
I wander across the moonlit floor,
Wondering if I should shout and call.
I wander through the shops alone,
Wondering which of the candy you would like,
Wandering amidst expenses that shone,
Wondering which that i could ever buy.
Wandering through the desserted school,
Wondering where to catch a glimpse of you,
Wandering past the silent pool,
Wondering what else i should do.
I wander along your hidden footsteps,
Wondering where you had gone,
Wandering in rounds of many laps,
Wondering when just you would come.
I wander amidst the shadows of night,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering in and out of your sight,
Wondering if you had taken flight.
I wander about in my aimless mind,
Wondering if i am in your's,
I wander forever, day and night,
Wondering,
Wandering,
Wondering,
What more could happen if you just picked up my call.
(C) Copyright JazzTech Co. Ltd. 2007 All Rights Reserved
Also, today i celebrate 2 years into the maple world, level 65, and still going =D
Many may ask or criticise that i am slow, well, two years is not really 2 years...2 years minus 2006 june holidays 1 month, PSLE isolation quarantine period 3 months, dec holidays 1 month, 2007 june holidays 3 weeks, exam isolation period 1 and half month, and the most painful of them all, weekday quarantine and weekends only, so divide the remaining value after subtracting all the months from 2 years, divide it by 7, and multiply it by 3, and thats the amount of days i play, and divide it further by 24, and multiply it by 3, so thats about it...about it la...
Thank you all who have supported me through my maple life.
Finally i would like to wish all a happy chinese new year, with the hope of the removal of ERP gantries to stop excessive rage and anger while driving, the removal of gst and slow down of economic progress to reduce price uprisings to ease everyone as its gong xi fa cai in the new year, and wan shi ru yi...
Wish you all the best in the new year of the rat, with much happiness and wealth and love...
Haha...
Goodnight.. ~
"Let's face the new year with a smile, if possible."
I do look forward to a good money haul this year...but of course, nobody should get their hopes too high in case it does not fulfill what they desire...that includes you...who is used to plenty of loads of tons of money...but not me ~ the best moment is only when i feel the money between my fingers and the red material...then it is prompty ripped from the hands and stuffed into the bag...ah...such a quick yet beautiful moment.. ~ the feel of sweet cash beneath my fingers.. ~
Its an average of about $150 to $200 per haul i guess?...nothing compared to you of course...and i try not to relieve my memory last year...the unpleasant memory...but i have to share it to show how different CNY is to me than to you..
Exact Date Unknown, Chinese New Year, Day 1, 2007
He woke up in the usual morning, and went through all the usual routines like an automated robot, breakfast, morning clean up, as if following silent orders already planted deep inside his mind. It was Chinese New Year, and it was time to get all those red packets. But unlike other kids, this one was different.
His mother called him into the room after breakfast, and presented to him a red packet. Of course, he was delighted as this could only happen once a year, but he didn't know a nasty surprise lay waiting for him under the red paper, a surprise unlike other kids would ever receive.
He eagerly ripped the cover open, to reveal a single, green, five-dollar note. He froze, he had expected about 10 times that amount, due to a miserable $10 the year before, it could not have gotten worse, but now there was only half that amount.
He looked up at his smiling mother, and forced one himself, and turned to walk away, but before he could exit the room, the question burst out of him before he could control it. But this question is not what you expect.
"Where is Dad's?" he asked.
"Oh, it's already included in that $5." his mother hastily made up.
He nodded in grim disappointment and left the room.
After that, his dad returned home from work, quite unlike others, his dad still had to work regardless of holiday. He mustered all his courage and shot his dad a question.
"Erm, where is my red packet?" he feigned curiosity and innocence.
"Oh, erm..." he stuttered.
At this moment, his mother swiftly stepped into the scene and said, " It's included in the $5 i gave you, didn't you listen?"
"Oh, alright." he nodded.
As he added his pathetic $5 to his miserable collection of a few red packets under his pillow, by tradition, he felt, that he was more different from the others than he had ever thought, but still very same.
Relieved memory on 6th February 2008
Dreaming about this...I have said it, and there is no more need to explain.
...
On to other topics then...
Generally my lack of goodies and red packets is due to the lack of visitors and visiting, there's barely any people here for us to visit and receive except for some colleagues of them...but still, every cent is treasured like a hundred, but probably not in your case...
...
Alright...enough of all this "damn long and boring posts" WHICH INCLUDE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO SAY BUT NOT APPRECIATED OR EVEN CONSIDERED AT LEAST OR EVEN READ !
...
Shall i seize this chance to present another recent work of mine?
Wander, Wonder
Version I
I wander within the bounderies of my mind,
And yet I wonder if I am in your's.
I wander in and out of your sight,
And wonder when would you ever pick up my call.
I'm here, wandering in your street,
Wondering which of the hundreds of homes you are in.
I wander aimlessly with none to meet,
Wondering if not I was seen.
I wander across the void deck below your block,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering around around the clock,
Wondering when you would come out, day or night.
I wander along your corridor,
Wondering if that's your door,
I wander across the moonlit floor,
Wondering if I should shout and call.
I wander through the shops alone,
Wondering which of the candy you would like,
Wandering amidst expenses that shone,
Wondering which that i could ever buy.
Wandering through the desserted school,
Wondering where to catch a glimpse of you,
Wandering past the silent pool,
Wondering what else i should do.
I wander along your hidden footsteps,
Wondering where you had gone,
Wandering in rounds of many laps,
Wondering when just you would come.
I wander amidst the shadows of night,
Wondering if this was right,
Wandering in and out of your sight,
Wondering if you had taken flight.
I wander about in my aimless mind,
Wondering if i am in your's,
I wander forever, day and night,
Wondering,
Wandering,
Wondering,
What more could happen if you just picked up my call.
(C) Copyright JazzTech Co. Ltd. 2007 All Rights Reserved
Also, today i celebrate 2 years into the maple world, level 65, and still going =D
Many may ask or criticise that i am slow, well, two years is not really 2 years...2 years minus 2006 june holidays 1 month, PSLE isolation quarantine period 3 months, dec holidays 1 month, 2007 june holidays 3 weeks, exam isolation period 1 and half month, and the most painful of them all, weekday quarantine and weekends only, so divide the remaining value after subtracting all the months from 2 years, divide it by 7, and multiply it by 3, and thats the amount of days i play, and divide it further by 24, and multiply it by 3, so thats about it...about it la...
Thank you all who have supported me through my maple life.
Finally i would like to wish all a happy chinese new year, with the hope of the removal of ERP gantries to stop excessive rage and anger while driving, the removal of gst and slow down of economic progress to reduce price uprisings to ease everyone as its gong xi fa cai in the new year, and wan shi ru yi...
Wish you all the best in the new year of the rat, with much happiness and wealth and love...
Haha...
Goodnight.. ~
"Let's face the new year with a smile, if possible."
Saturday, February 2, 2008
There's something to post about tonight...I
There's Something to Blog About Tonight
What's for dinner tonight? Our wide range of quick simple yet excellent snacks and drinks will fulfill every taste bud...
Round it off with an excellent scenery of outside...
Finally, a night when i can finally post something not involving expelling of inner disgust and frustration, hyperventilation, rebellion propoganda, emo poems and quotes, and much of things which you are too happy to understand and feel.
Tonight, its gonna be different...
Yesterday, a rainy day, we played plenty of sports, soccer and bball and got pe also, like i said, day 5 is the best day on the timetable, and of course, they don't know i end at 1.45, so i have about 2 and a half hours free time to pursue leisure activity of choice, in my case, basketball, and a new find of fun, soccer.
We played soccer during recess and after school for a change, but the familiar sounds of basketballs echoing in the dark gym is still enticing, so i could not resist, played a couple of games with the team.
Soccer was more fun than i thought, even though i am not good at it, missed 6 goal chances..lol..but shing chun complains i am not good at all, but is he ? ah nvms...this is payback for what too much i did to him, so i accept it, i accept it...haha..vengeance is a must in this wretched world...
But the real fun didn't come until after our sports, and when rain became too much to endure, so we took refudge at the corridor where the others are decorating the wall for CNY...we hung out there for quite a while, whiling the time away challenging each other to high jumps to reach the ceiling decos and playing music, after while, at about 3, we returned to class, and i had the excellent excuse of torrential rain and being unable to fight through the gale, so i could stay...and i did, until 4.30...excellent eh?
This excellent idea occured to me, as i slid into the classroom though the double doors, and justinn was playing music through the speakers, with dim lighting and tables and chairs, this idea presented to me a classic bar, with music, entertainment and things included...only thing missing was air-con, which many of you are used to and crave it even if you have it so commonly at home...makes and excellent buisness...
Finally, a post with photos...and with full colour too..not black and white..
The Hydrus Jazz
by JazzTech
Excellent furnishings with selective ambience...
36 seats with maximum privacy enhances vindictive atmosphere.. ~(lol)
Excellent stereo music systems with state of the art
sound quality...
Excellent world acclaimed music players...
Funky dj's and wide range of music choice enhances personal unique experience...
State of the art technology keeps the pub going with smooth functioning...
What's for dinner tonight? Our wide range of quick simple yet excellent snacks and drinks will fulfill every taste bud...
Excellent movies on show every night...from the meanest os cheap pirated movies i watch to the bestest of most expensive only freedom-get-to-watch movies you ppl do, this state of the art movie player gurantees maximum enjoyment...
Not movies? not drinking and talking and music? no problem, take a seat at our chess corner and have a mind boggling experience.
Looking for a different kind of entertainment and pleasure?...heheh...our special services are aroused and excited to serve you? excellent prices for maximum quality. ~
Round it off with an excellent scenery of outside...
Extra cash and fun is always available at the customer's
demmand.
Our entertainers are always there to add a little humour to your vodka.
So visit The Hydrus Jazz @ 53 Mount Sinai Road,276880, Classroom block near field, 2nd floor, 3rd room from staircase exiting study area and toilet near LT2 and 3, if unsure, ask for directions, our door guards will be pleased to help.
Do visit us and call 96382518 for more details or tag at broken-hourglass.blogspot.com or email to see_u_small@hotmail.com
have fun ~
~
Nice eh?lol buisness opportunities are always out there, all you need to do is grab them..
"Chances don't walk to you, you have to walk to them."
"Many people is willing to have a glass of top-shelf vodka with you, but that's not what you want. What you want is someone who sill have a glass of plain water with you when you run out of vodka."
*Edited from last year's handbook.
"Buisness is cruel, merchants are evil, salesman are deadly, but thats the world."
"Buisness is the intricate art of turning a dollar into a hundred."
"Buisness is the process of taking one's money to make more."
"Buisness was never risk-free and fail-safe."
"Money is the very thing which gets in the way of everything."
Alright enough of the quotes...now let's snap back to life.
Continue...
Yesterday, after we left school in a light drizzle, we struggled on, that is me and jj as the other happy people are too slow and would not be scolded and tortured for being so, but me and jj will be, so we hurried, but that was a wrong move...hastiness caused ant's soccer ball to roll down the slope to the canal entrance at the MRT station leh...WA SEH...A SHEER DROP AND STEEP SLOPE...AND ITS JJ'S FAULT...HE DIDNT STOP THE BALL FROM ROLLING DOWN EVEN THOUGH HE WAS JUST A STEP AWAY FROM IT!?!?!? LOL...
justinn the brave man and jj the accused staggered down the slope to retrieve it, drawing much attention of passer-bys and unfortunately a damn teacher...who reprimanded us...lol...dammit...
The full video of the rescue mission if with anthony , and to be viewed when liked, ask him for it.
IF, the ball had not miraculously stopped at a small ledge and had bounced down into the rapid current canal as it was raining, the $60 ball could be gone and jj's gotta pay for it, but who cares? he got a damn billiard table in his 3 story semi-d ! but still i won't mind it there as long as i can have a few rounds on it haha...8-ball ~
Yesterday was also my sis's b'day, and she's 6 le...excellent...got cake ~ wo0ts ~ and a meal at a RESTAURANT leh ! shuang rite?
On to today...today went out for lunch and i managed to get a book!.. HALO:Contact Harvest...it's been more than a year since i brought my last book, not counting harry potter VII ...but finally the time has come ! the book is nice lor..devised from the game itself...excellent...$25 leh...painful...painful... ~but it is a long and excellent read...so its kinda worth it..but of course...its still money... T.T
Of course, for everything there is a price to pay...and today its about books...
I prefer science fiction books and nice violent stories...but i am not lucky enough to get out and lay my hands on your books like those whatever fantasy stories and teen stories...i like those stories about violence, war, fighting and stuff...but i am not yet exposed to the wide range of genres unlike you fortunate ppl...so my range is very limited...
My parents want to force me to read non-fiction books...and CHINESE books...i can still except chinese fantasies and some nice historical stories like the romance of the three kingdoms and the shui hu zhuan or something like that...and comics in chinese are also preffered...but they want me to read chinese novels...and non fiction ones about how the successful people of our time got so successful...and in their sense is that they make a whole load of cash...and that is the only thing my parents and grandparents are concerned about...and don't care about what i think and how i feel...so dammit...dammit...its the direct opposite of what i like to read...
"People do not like being forced to do what they don't like."
"But people means all of us, so why must I be the exception?"
I told my parents the above sentences but they said nothing in reply or acknowldgement...just told me to proceed as planned...life stories of successful people...secrets to success...inspire in life success...all dammit de lah...sian...must read that kind...walao eh...
so...all you happy people out there...appreciate that Artemis Fowl book and other above $10 dollar book you have ..and even added those below that amount...as you still paid for it...ah...you don't even blink an eye when you just let go of 20 dollars for that book...haiz...happiness..but that $25 for the halo book was once half a year...so its acceptable...but not for you...its far too little...
haiz...why must the original happy exciting picture post become emo at the end????? WHY???
Sometimes I wish I'd rather not know you, my friends, as your happiness bring me down for some reason.
I'm sorry.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Daunted?...you wish...
Hey yo...just finish kena scolding by mom...for forgetting my pe shirt left in the class to dry...dammit...how can she find out even the smallest fines details of my faults?...fuck...
There won't be no censored words now...cuz i wish to express the true anger behind those simple words...words alone can't say much now..
Oh yeah...keep suppressing me...keeping me away from the others all right...and don't give me a chance to speak up for myself...no fighting chance...daunted you think i am?...you wish you damn bastards...
Watch it...the clock is ticking...my nerve is failing...slowly but surely...something will be done about this damn thing...
"You may walk that leisurely pace and not feel a thing as you walk into your cell, but I can't stroll like that, I would die."
"There's one damn thing about you assholes, you do not care about us, the assholes to you."
"One wrong move, one life lost."
"A few minutes could make all the difference between a happy day and what may possibly be the day of your suicide."
"If you exaggerate, expect the same in return."
"Sometimes it's not your fault if you don't get what you want."
"Being neglected, misunderstood, misintepreted, wrongly accused and many other setbacks are just a part of life, though nevertheless the darker part."
"Having just one friend, may it be anyone, to listen to you and share your troubles, it's better than having many "friends", who go about their own happiness and leave you in the dark."
"Many occasions, occasions are not really occasions, be it your fault or others."
"Materialism do not represent love, gratitude, or any other feeling."
"The sweetest things are not when others share your happiness, but when others share your bitterness."
"Physical pain is nothing compared to mental pain, as brandishing a cane is nothing compared to a shouting match of powerful words."
"They say love is free, but not for all."
"Love is like a pet bird, if you let it out, it will return its gratitude, but if you don't, it would die within the bars of restriction."
"Too much of a good thing is never a good thing."
"There are too many generalizations in this damn world, for example, if you say sleeping at 11 pm is very common and nobody would not be assailed for it, thats for you, and/or many other happier and luckier ones, but not for me, no."
"Many fail to see how much different their closest friends are to them, but they merely assume they are of the same "kind".
"Sometimes what you see of a person is not really him, but merely external influences upon his true person."
"Life changes a person, but a person is not his life, nor vice versa."
"What one thinks can never be changed, but what one does is easily modified by his life experiences."
"The definition of "friend" cannot be truly explained, and varies from person to person, but nobody ever got it right."
"There is an increasing amount of failures in noticing who is truly your friend."
"The end may be a start of something new."
There won't be no censored words now...cuz i wish to express the true anger behind those simple words...words alone can't say much now..
Oh yeah...keep suppressing me...keeping me away from the others all right...and don't give me a chance to speak up for myself...no fighting chance...daunted you think i am?...you wish you damn bastards...
Watch it...the clock is ticking...my nerve is failing...slowly but surely...something will be done about this damn thing...
"You may walk that leisurely pace and not feel a thing as you walk into your cell, but I can't stroll like that, I would die."
"There's one damn thing about you assholes, you do not care about us, the assholes to you."
"One wrong move, one life lost."
"A few minutes could make all the difference between a happy day and what may possibly be the day of your suicide."
"If you exaggerate, expect the same in return."
"Sometimes it's not your fault if you don't get what you want."
"Being neglected, misunderstood, misintepreted, wrongly accused and many other setbacks are just a part of life, though nevertheless the darker part."
"Having just one friend, may it be anyone, to listen to you and share your troubles, it's better than having many "friends", who go about their own happiness and leave you in the dark."
"Many occasions, occasions are not really occasions, be it your fault or others."
"Materialism do not represent love, gratitude, or any other feeling."
"The sweetest things are not when others share your happiness, but when others share your bitterness."
"Physical pain is nothing compared to mental pain, as brandishing a cane is nothing compared to a shouting match of powerful words."
"They say love is free, but not for all."
"Love is like a pet bird, if you let it out, it will return its gratitude, but if you don't, it would die within the bars of restriction."
"Too much of a good thing is never a good thing."
"There are too many generalizations in this damn world, for example, if you say sleeping at 11 pm is very common and nobody would not be assailed for it, thats for you, and/or many other happier and luckier ones, but not for me, no."
"Many fail to see how much different their closest friends are to them, but they merely assume they are of the same "kind".
"Sometimes what you see of a person is not really him, but merely external influences upon his true person."
"Life changes a person, but a person is not his life, nor vice versa."
"What one thinks can never be changed, but what one does is easily modified by his life experiences."
"The definition of "friend" cannot be truly explained, and varies from person to person, but nobody ever got it right."
"There is an increasing amount of failures in noticing who is truly your friend."
"The end may be a start of something new."
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Happiness insaneness...
Evening...i am progressing excellently in my recent breakthrough of managing the feat of convincing them i can use the com in weekdays...for research and projects(that's what they think) HAHA! but of course...i must not let my guard down...so my fingers is quivering over alt and f4 ...
Today was excellent...finished LA presentation...nothing compared to the rest but it's not graded...so who cares?!?!?!...
FPS rule like nothing does...watched part of The Island...some futuristic movie about clones and stuff with blood and gore, violence, and coarse language...suitable for NC 16...but we are watching it...EXCELLENT!
Free movies at school and theatre like settings...all free...wow...better than home...
Even after much good news...the bad must come somehow...
Wrong Intepretation
My dad is being overly friendly with me...offering to "fetch" me back to "home"...
Correct Intepretation
My prison guard is overly "friendly" with me...forcing me to be crushed back into prison...
aha...correct your own mistakes accordingly hor... ~
With already limited time to spend with you ppl...it has become more limited...ah...everything comes at a price...a blast of outings once a month which was so excellent in term 3 last year...and now..the bill for that has come...
Metaphors Lesson
Payment for fun - I managed to have a lot of fun one a month last year term 3, outings with you ppl...compared to once half a year.
Metaphor
Credit Card Bill - Credit card = What i used to convince my parents to let me out...Bill = Payment for my fun...now...trapped in quarantine...
Excellent usage of poetic devices eh?...lols...not kuaing myself don't get me wrong...
oh no..time's up...game over...
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Style...
Hey...its been quite a period since i had posted...so i will seize this once in a lifetime chance...as i told them that there would be multiple projects...and the com would be a vital part to it...so...hmm...*rubs chin thoughtfully*...*explodes*...
HAHAHA...YEEEAAAHHHH! WOOTS! TWO MONTHS OF COM ON EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK ! NOT ONLY WEEKENDS LEH... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Alright alright...control...control....
*smiles widely like in chinese class*
Ok on to important matters...even though i might have gained one of the most craved and dreamed freedom of com usagae of all...they might still barge into my tiny room and crane their necks at the com screen...so...eh...all the best for myself at alt+tabbing and swift unnoticable mouse movement...
More...more...
Yesterday...we went to "visit" many CCA's...including track...to see john's shorts...choir to see sw and elaine...EDS dance...wushu...softball...lol...i managed this inpossible feat thanks to the weather...which is rain... ~woots !~
Today not much...just usual lessons and stuff...and what's with the enthusiastic welcome back to class after school and amazing applause for the chinese presentation?...i know i am extremely famous ^^ but there's no need to keep pressing it in eh?...lol ^^...oh yeah and i remember i smiled too widely for chinese...lol...its a way to cope with nerves and terror with the ... eh...you know what...right in fronta me...so...yeah you know what i mean ... =D
I have many long and "boring" posts to make...but apparently many do not like the way i present it...so...eh...i have chosen many alternatives...to be listed below...
I - Writings
The conventional writings with no extra interesting points...just like now.
II - Poem
Of course...one of my favourites...conducts enjoyable writing and reading.
III - Prose
Not so oftenly used...but still effective and simple.
IV - Quotes
Quotes of people or by myself...eg. "What you want might not always be what you will get."
V - Pictures
Doubt there will be much...but i shall try...
VI - Music
I believe i will be updating the music player soon...so stay tuned!
Well i guess there couldnt be more...so i shall try a combination of several types...for interest and simple reading and observing...a dynamic step in making you understand this f*****g world...
I will list some poem ideas down so i will not forget it as time progesses...
Grab a Gun
Hey bro, wake up, grab a gun,
The rebellion has started, so let's have fun,
Quickly, pick anything,
AK-47, M4,
Get out and do some killing,
That's what guns are for.
Gentleman's Duel (Gunfight)
They stood back to back, two fine young men,
Loaded their guns, ready to kill, not cry,
Twelve steps they swiftly took,
But one of the two is fated to die.
Casino
Red carpets cover the marble paved floors,
Intricate silver line the doors,
Mosaics and painting line the walls,
That's just the starting of casino's calls.
9.30
I sleep early,
At nine-thirty,
Unlike you happy people,
Freedom,
Midnight sleeper.
Dogfight
A piece of flying metal in your command,
Ready to chase or to run,
In the distance, enemy's squadron closes in,
Clutch your controls tightly, it won't be clean,
One is on your trial and in your sight,
The two start to swerve in circles...
One of them is not going home tonight.
Mix
In your eye, I may be,
Just another annoying guy,
But I shall make you see,
I am more than what you see tonight.
These are only the first verses of the poems...more are yet to come...so stay tuned...
Good night...
HAHAHA...YEEEAAAHHHH! WOOTS! TWO MONTHS OF COM ON EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK ! NOT ONLY WEEKENDS LEH... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Alright alright...control...control....
*smiles widely like in chinese class*
Ok on to important matters...even though i might have gained one of the most craved and dreamed freedom of com usagae of all...they might still barge into my tiny room and crane their necks at the com screen...so...eh...all the best for myself at alt+tabbing and swift unnoticable mouse movement...
More...more...
Yesterday...we went to "visit" many CCA's...including track...to see john's shorts...choir to see sw and elaine...EDS dance...wushu...softball...lol...i managed this inpossible feat thanks to the weather...which is rain... ~woots !~
Today not much...just usual lessons and stuff...and what's with the enthusiastic welcome back to class after school and amazing applause for the chinese presentation?...i know i am extremely famous ^^ but there's no need to keep pressing it in eh?...lol ^^...oh yeah and i remember i smiled too widely for chinese...lol...its a way to cope with nerves and terror with the ... eh...you know what...right in fronta me...so...yeah you know what i mean ... =D
I have many long and "boring" posts to make...but apparently many do not like the way i present it...so...eh...i have chosen many alternatives...to be listed below...
I - Writings
The conventional writings with no extra interesting points...just like now.
II - Poem
Of course...one of my favourites...conducts enjoyable writing and reading.
III - Prose
Not so oftenly used...but still effective and simple.
IV - Quotes
Quotes of people or by myself...eg. "What you want might not always be what you will get."
V - Pictures
Doubt there will be much...but i shall try...
VI - Music
I believe i will be updating the music player soon...so stay tuned!
Well i guess there couldnt be more...so i shall try a combination of several types...for interest and simple reading and observing...a dynamic step in making you understand this f*****g world...
I will list some poem ideas down so i will not forget it as time progesses...
Grab a Gun
Hey bro, wake up, grab a gun,
The rebellion has started, so let's have fun,
Quickly, pick anything,
AK-47, M4,
Get out and do some killing,
That's what guns are for.
Gentleman's Duel (Gunfight)
They stood back to back, two fine young men,
Loaded their guns, ready to kill, not cry,
Twelve steps they swiftly took,
But one of the two is fated to die.
Casino
Red carpets cover the marble paved floors,
Intricate silver line the doors,
Mosaics and painting line the walls,
That's just the starting of casino's calls.
9.30
I sleep early,
At nine-thirty,
Unlike you happy people,
Freedom,
Midnight sleeper.
Dogfight
A piece of flying metal in your command,
Ready to chase or to run,
In the distance, enemy's squadron closes in,
Clutch your controls tightly, it won't be clean,
One is on your trial and in your sight,
The two start to swerve in circles...
One of them is not going home tonight.
Mix
In your eye, I may be,
Just another annoying guy,
But I shall make you see,
I am more than what you see tonight.
These are only the first verses of the poems...more are yet to come...so stay tuned...
Good night...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I did not wish to know...
Good evening once again and welcome back, tonight, i am blessed with an unusual amount of luck, they are out to a chain dinners with a couple of property buyers from china and you know chinese tradition, they like to treat others to meals and treat the treater back and again and so on and so forth...
SO...excellent...
There's many things for me to deliver in this post...hmm...congrats on shiu wen getting into choir...happy b'day elaine...told'yer not to buy a drink...- -"...and grats on ant's CAP kena...
The Rebellion
Chapter III - I Did Not Wish To Know
Come to think of it now, sometimes, i'd rather not know how much you people can enjoy in your life...through much weary thinking, i was rather happy in the past than i am now...the past is from the age i can think for myself...about 4 to 10...after a decade into this damn world, i am forced to conclude life sucks...and mine sucks quite a lot...if yours sucks, well...i am pretty sure mine sucks more than yours...but nevertheless, both our lives all suck...
Let's list some examples...
When i was in p2...i asked for a ps2...and my dad promised to have it ready for me in p4...and of course... i did not get it...that time i thought that ... "I did not get it." but now i shouldn't even think of it to get my hopes up...i did not mind during those happy blissful years but now i surely do mind...it had been more than 3 years after the appointed year for me to get it...ah...*smiles in dissapointment*
How often do you do not get the things they promise you? well...most probably do not get it...or rather...some...(do not take this as an offence as i do not really know how you are treated at home and i'd rather not know...to prevent further frustration and violence..)
In p3...due to my lack of english knowledge in daily life, i did not understand what was commiting suicide, or rather i was too blissful ignoring to know then...but now i am forced to conclude sometimes people simply had to resort to the last resort...to end all of the damn thing...ending it all quickly...hmm...sounds tempting...but it requires immense bravery...courage which i would never have...for i am a coward...
The irony of it...
This is only the first part of the chapter...this chapter will be long and some suggestions told me to decrease the length of my posts so...there you are...
Good Night...
*The 9.30 forced sleeper among the midnight happy stay-ups..."
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
What the heck...pamperedness
Good evening once again, and welcome back to broken hourglass...
Today we won't be discussing my matters, as expressed in the online casual writings, The Rebellion, we could be discussing your matters, heh...you might not know what it means but you will soon enough...
First things first, the bball match was excellent, the B 'div' won by a mere 4 points and the game was rather exciting ~ but excellently, we skipped lessons and what would be my death in the chinese presentation ~ i was supposed to be first today i think...but then narrowly avoided it...heh...(i do hope no teacher is reading this...)
On with the main point of the subject today..your matters...
As you might have noticed, politics had even integrated into the younger generation of now, our school...and that is not really a good thing, (as seen from the second verse of my poem, This World) and long arduous campaigns and rallys are making the candidates tired and sore, only to cater to our needs, or rather, your needs...
As seen and heard, apparently some people in our school demmands cable tv ~ LAN gaming facility ~ student lounge ~ chartered buses ~ and much more priveledges far from being affordable, do-able, or even thinkable...(as discussed with my prison guards due to the fact of severe boredom)...
If all the above (including macdonald's) are to be true, the school won't be much of a school anymore..more like a half hearted education funtime facility, straining to impose both rules of fun and education(more like prison)...
Ah all the sweet $$ spent...on creating things that many of you people want to be PAMPERED with...you just can't be satisfied...heh...you wouldnt last in my life if you demmanded that much...
Another cut in point, the school made us pay sweet money $5 for a stack of papers...lol...what a waste man...aha...i feel the rebellion stirring in you already...as justin sim rightly feels, about some other rebellion on some other problem...hmm...probably a black problem ~
Ah rebellion should be undertaken in circumstances in such that we cannot take much more of such suffering and unfairness anymore.So what are you waiting for? start now...
But of course, if all that glorious pamperness should come true, I AM NOT COMPLAINING OF COURSE, **** DAMMIT, WHO WOULD NOT WANT SUCH EXCELLENT GIFTS FOR FREE? BUT FIRST, WOULD IT COME TRUE IN THE FIRST PLACE? I PLACE ALL HOPES IN OUR EXCELLENT CANDIDATES FOR THE SENIOR HIGH SC...ALL THE LUCK IN THE ELECTIONS ~
IMAGINE YOUR SCHOOL BEING SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOUR OWN HOME...IT'S JUST TOO GOOD, WITH FRIENDS AND SUCH PRIVELEDGES...AH...I CAN ALMOST TASTE IT NOW!
Of course, it must come true...otherwise be prepared to suffer a setback and things not going your way and you might just break down and curse and complain in futileness with bleatings of threats and excuses...haiyos...pamperedness...
But i wouldn't say no to a integrated casino bar in our lounge of course ~ heh...
The Beer Merchant
Tiger
Carlsberg
Heineken
Tsingtao
Guinness
ABC
Budweiser
Baron's
Sapporo
Asashi
Kirin Ichiban
Stella Artois
~ And still counting..pics to be posted in future posts...as time do not favour me tonight...
Today we won't be discussing my matters, as expressed in the online casual writings, The Rebellion, we could be discussing your matters, heh...you might not know what it means but you will soon enough...
First things first, the bball match was excellent, the B 'div' won by a mere 4 points and the game was rather exciting ~ but excellently, we skipped lessons and what would be my death in the chinese presentation ~ i was supposed to be first today i think...but then narrowly avoided it...heh...(i do hope no teacher is reading this...)
On with the main point of the subject today..your matters...
As you might have noticed, politics had even integrated into the younger generation of now, our school...and that is not really a good thing, (as seen from the second verse of my poem, This World) and long arduous campaigns and rallys are making the candidates tired and sore, only to cater to our needs, or rather, your needs...
As seen and heard, apparently some people in our school demmands cable tv ~ LAN gaming facility ~ student lounge ~ chartered buses ~ and much more priveledges far from being affordable, do-able, or even thinkable...(as discussed with my prison guards due to the fact of severe boredom)...
If all the above (including macdonald's) are to be true, the school won't be much of a school anymore..more like a half hearted education funtime facility, straining to impose both rules of fun and education(more like prison)...
Ah all the sweet $$ spent...on creating things that many of you people want to be PAMPERED with...you just can't be satisfied...heh...you wouldnt last in my life if you demmanded that much...
Another cut in point, the school made us pay sweet money $5 for a stack of papers...lol...what a waste man...aha...i feel the rebellion stirring in you already...as justin sim rightly feels, about some other rebellion on some other problem...hmm...probably a black problem ~
Ah rebellion should be undertaken in circumstances in such that we cannot take much more of such suffering and unfairness anymore.So what are you waiting for? start now...
But of course, if all that glorious pamperness should come true, I AM NOT COMPLAINING OF COURSE, **** DAMMIT, WHO WOULD NOT WANT SUCH EXCELLENT GIFTS FOR FREE? BUT FIRST, WOULD IT COME TRUE IN THE FIRST PLACE? I PLACE ALL HOPES IN OUR EXCELLENT CANDIDATES FOR THE SENIOR HIGH SC...ALL THE LUCK IN THE ELECTIONS ~
IMAGINE YOUR SCHOOL BEING SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOUR OWN HOME...IT'S JUST TOO GOOD, WITH FRIENDS AND SUCH PRIVELEDGES...AH...I CAN ALMOST TASTE IT NOW!
Of course, it must come true...otherwise be prepared to suffer a setback and things not going your way and you might just break down and curse and complain in futileness with bleatings of threats and excuses...haiyos...pamperedness...
But i wouldn't say no to a integrated casino bar in our lounge of course ~ heh...
The Beer Merchant
Tiger
Carlsberg
Heineken
Tsingtao
Guinness
ABC
Budweiser
Baron's
Sapporo
Asashi
Kirin Ichiban
Stella Artois
~ And still counting..pics to be posted in future posts...as time do not favour me tonight...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Chapter II - Pain Behind That Smile
Its rare for me to have excellent news, but i have today, as i got the laptop back, but with the setback of without maple...hmm...good enough...i'm satisfied =D.
I just ripped all of maple's music files from the game file itself...so i got 200 mb 6 hour worth of all the music you can ever hear in maple...how nice...
I will continue today with the second chapter of the so called "non-fiction educational novel"...
The Rebellion
Chapter II - Pain Beneath That Smile
Ever wondered why i always seem so calm when i face problems? and i only ventilate my anger out in a quick but powerful yet sustainable blast? its simple...once you get used to so much setbacks...you can easily cope with it and release it...but of course...sometimes its still very hard to comprehend the painful truth behind all these suffering...
During many of those frequent damn problems which i always mention, i do not always try to retort, as sometimes wit and instinct tells me not to retort, otherwise there will be trouble... so sometimes, i do the opposite instead, give a painfl smile and shrug my shoulders to suggest understanding and bow in defeat, as i have lost a battle again, and more of these will cause me to lose the war...
"We may have lost the battle, but not the war, so we shall continue to fight on."
Smiling really helps sometimes, if they are in a good mood they may take it that you understand what they really want to blast into your mind, but if they are in a bad mood...they will probably get worked up even more and start on a new scolding topic, "Smirking at them to think its funny."...really funny...how ridiculously crazy reasons they think up for ventilating THEIR anger on us ... heh... *laughs bitterly*
So that leads us to another topic, " forced to hide you contempt with a smile when they are causing it"..many times, THEY are the ones to unleash their anger from work and stress upon us, BUT we are forced to hide that mere impatience at first, but progressing on as time wears on, anger and rage, with at least an impassive face and sometimes even a smile, reach out a consoling hand, or utter forced words of encouragement ripped from our mouths by force. haiz... *grins in spite of myself*
let me recount an event which happened in the damn "vacation" back to shanghai in june last year, the one which caused me to lose out a place in the school team, even though it was not my fault...
there was this company diner, hmm... i think the 8th one out of 16 in our 3 week stay, we met up with the most people ever to attend a single dinner, i think about 22... and 16 out of 22 are smokers...and in china, they allow smoking in air-con areas, so soon enough only hearty laughs and rumble of boring adult talk could ring through the fogged, semi opque room which resembled a oven with a turkey on fire, we could barely see through all that smoke and i could hardly inhale the aromas of the fine food, (free ones of course, haha) but then i was forced to duck out into the brightly lit marble hallway from our enclosed room and inhale the tasty aromas of the shark's fin which a well dressed waiter was carrying past me at that time...haha...after that, they accused me of leaving a bad impression for the "bosses" as they apparently understood my quick escape for freedom for the air i breathe. i got a scolding for that but still, i was not to argue in front of those "bosses" and merely smile at them instead...dammit...
alright...back to now, smiling can be forced out of me, but sometimes it helps me cool my nerves, smiling can also be a warning of impending rage explosions...so do not be deceived by that what you think is a safe and merry smile which can turn deadly...
haha...so smile, even if you are forced to do it, as it can reduce punishment damage by a slight amount, at least something is better than nothing !
"Good evening, I'm Wei Heng, and a drink with you is all I want."
Monday, January 14, 2008
Condemn this thing...
Good evening ladies, erm, and gentlemen, and shing chun as he/she is not included in either ladies nor gentlemen...
A pretty lame note to start this post eh? as i have no other better one to begin this, as my blogging skills had apparently rusted after 2 full weeks of a sudden decline in my com using rates, as compared to the holidays...again, this is an excellent chance to post, and i do hope no more intrusions come to disturb me in my expressions, just as my dad had done in my previous 5 attempts at posting when he is both at home and lurking around the corner of the door, and when i thought he would be returning about 10 at night, but i hear the click of the lock at 9, which sends me scurrying to the main power switch.
The Rebellion, Chapter 1
Good Evening, Welcome to my Life
Dammit, why must i be living this kind of life when you can enjoy the exact opposite? I know there are worse sufferings than me, but we rarely stop to ask ourselves this question, why can't it be better like the others? Anything can be improved, as nothing is perfect, so since my life DEFINITELY isn't perfect, why can't it be improved?
This is the start of the new age, when i finally realise that there is a chance that i could improve my life, when i discovered that sorry glint in my parent's eyes when i spoke to them in a dejected tone many months ago, about the period in term 3, when they thought i was "losing my mind" as there was a definite increase in my demmands to get out of the house perhaps every couple of weeks, far frequent than my usual every couple of months. Since my parents know that i have been enduring this damn restrictions and is liable to commit things which they would never had imagined i would do, they made everything sound nicer than usual. (considering once i had this mad urge to hit myself over the head with my dictionary, and i couldn't bring myself to do it due to the hard edge of the book, and it hung suspended over my head for 5 minutes before i finally changed to a lighter textbook and made my head ache for at least 2 hours.)
They made "turning crazy" sound nicer by changing it into "a bit of inappropriate thinking", meaning that the urge to go out with you guys is merely a bit of a distraction from my studies, but deep inside them i know they think that i was crazy and losing my mind, and even my grandparents started calling YOU, MY FRIENDS, "DANGEROUS AND MISLEADING"!
How amusing they can transform a simple hangout with friends for a movie and lunch into "DANGEROUS AND MISLEADING AND NOT APPROPRIATE FOR ACADEMIC RESULTS AND MENTAL HEALTH", and i am not exxagerating, they really said that, (in my dialect, of course, as they do not have an ounce of english language in their minds.)
Amusing, it really is, and they started applying "guiding measures" to "guide me back to the correct and straight path." I must admit, they truly are amazing, managing to turn ugly words like "crime and punishment" into "guildlines to guide me back to the correct route". *laughs bitterly*
Term 3 last year was probably the roughest time for me, but yet the best times ever, as i had never gone out so many times with you guys before, but everything came at a price. 2 strokes over my leg, two strokes over each of my palm, two strokes over my right arm, and 5 strokes on the head. aha, the "stroke" i am using is not the stroke you apply to your beloved pet many of you are fortunate enough to own, it is the "stroke" used in law, painful, hard beatings instead of a gentle, soothing rub. *smiles bitterly and shakes head*
I decided to post a long post today as this is a rare chance, as my parents had gone out to hand over the keys of a property they just sold, and are not in a hurry to come back, which brings out another topic in my discussion today,
"Why do my parents insist that others are not as happy as me?"
Amazing it may seem, but they did say it, and i am going to explain the plain stupidity of the damn sentence and how moronic they make it sound.
During one of our frequent arguments, i mentioned why can others do it, and why i can't?
Their reason is simpkle, they blame it on YOUR parents, for not "taking care of you", "not being at home", "not spending time to nurture you", and the "you" means YOU, who is reading this right now.
They often use this excuse, "Most of them, they face an empty home when they go back, so parents provide them with money to contend them and let them run wild outside."
Hmmm...do many of you really face a cold and dark home when you get back? I don't think so, as many complain that your mothers nag too much, so i guess they are at home, and not a silent one either, but you still get decent grades and manage to go out often? Why is that so?
However, if i maintain that what they say is true, ppl facing an empty home when they get home can have the priveledge to go out and spend time having fun before returning home to warmth and comfort.
BUT,
I ALSO FACE AN EMPTY AND COLD AND DARK HOME WHEN I GET BACK, SO WHY AM I NOT "PRIVELEDGED"? I HAD PAID THE PRICE OF FEELING LONELY AND COLD, SO WHY AM I NOT COMPENSATED LIKE THE OTHERS WHICH THEY HAD MENTIONED IN THEIR EXCUSE?
Interesting, this leads to greater discoveries and other problems.I have not discussed this with them as i am afraid of the consequences of proving them wrong, which includes nasty memories, such as when i proved my dad wrong that i had not infected the com with virus through maple, and it was actually he who had clicked on the link of spam email and downloaded free and fake software, he did not go all quiet and subject meekly, instead, he still insisted he was right although all evidence was against him, and i got a scolding for telling him that...sianz...
Of course, there are more memories like that, and i am in a hurry to forgive and forget, but i am finding it hard at the moment...
I do not have much time more, and this is only the 1st part of my long testimony to death, as seen carved onto my table by its previous occupant, and there's much more to it than merely those words above, so stay tuned to broken-hourglass.blogspot.com, where there's more than just words alone.
Good evening, I am Wei Heng, and I use violence to solve problems.
Monday, December 31, 2007
happy new year...
Happy new year...about 5 and a half hours in advance...as i had just received distressing news that i won't be participating in the countdown this year...as i am forced to sleep at 10 pm tonight...as a routine to regulate my sleeping pattern...from 11 during the holidays to 10 during the school term...not that i think that an hour's regulation is neccesary....but of course...why should my opinions be shared with my parents...hah...this world's cruelty...
a mere 36 hours later...we are probably waiting for the school buses to bring us back to that place...hah! ... probably looking forward to a good position in the class admin selection? or dreading the return of...you-know-what...hah...or simply awaiting the Xplore thingy or the sandcastle building on da beach...(hope it rains...hah!)
hmm...topic for today...at young times...do parents always ask you to be readily helping others?...aha...i tried to today...but what i received was not a thanks...but a hell lotta scolding...
I went to parkway to have lunch today....simply as it was close to my dad's company...and after that my dad was busy (as usual) so we hadta take taxi home...(not that we are used to high class transport), so there was this long queue, so i was commanded to wait there in the sun while my mom and grandmother and sis take refuge in the air conditioned comfort...then this woman in front of me asked if she could borrow my phone as her's is outta battery, so i agreed...then my mom came rushing out and commanded me to take back the phone...and the woman was kinda shocked and stuff...lols...then she pushed her trolley laden with stuff away...lawls...then i was scolded for lending my phone to a stranger who had just bought alota things and not ready to grab my sexy N81 and run! lawls...
I am used to being scolded in public and losing my face...but none like this with a long queue of taxi takers peering over their partner's shoulder to see the commotion...dammit...i was trying to help someone and was scolded for that...what for?
Dammit...we are still young...we live in the blissful world of not of that world...if you could refer to poem 8 of my CAP, This World...
Ah how ironic...scolded for doing something they had wanted us to do...
Come have a taste of my life...scolded for helping another, forced to sleep at 10 on new year's eve, forced to listen to parents and grandmothers arguing as i lie on my bed at 1 in the morning with 8 o clock training next...forced to listen to those meetings on phones and translate documents...forced to solve their problems when they created it themselves...
Dammit...
Dammit...
Dammit...
a mere 36 hours later...we are probably waiting for the school buses to bring us back to that place...hah! ... probably looking forward to a good position in the class admin selection? or dreading the return of...you-know-what...hah...or simply awaiting the Xplore thingy or the sandcastle building on da beach...(hope it rains...hah!)
hmm...topic for today...at young times...do parents always ask you to be readily helping others?...aha...i tried to today...but what i received was not a thanks...but a hell lotta scolding...
I went to parkway to have lunch today....simply as it was close to my dad's company...and after that my dad was busy (as usual) so we hadta take taxi home...(not that we are used to high class transport), so there was this long queue, so i was commanded to wait there in the sun while my mom and grandmother and sis take refuge in the air conditioned comfort...then this woman in front of me asked if she could borrow my phone as her's is outta battery, so i agreed...then my mom came rushing out and commanded me to take back the phone...and the woman was kinda shocked and stuff...lols...then she pushed her trolley laden with stuff away...lawls...then i was scolded for lending my phone to a stranger who had just bought alota things and not ready to grab my sexy N81 and run! lawls...
I am used to being scolded in public and losing my face...but none like this with a long queue of taxi takers peering over their partner's shoulder to see the commotion...dammit...i was trying to help someone and was scolded for that...what for?
Dammit...we are still young...we live in the blissful world of not of that world...if you could refer to poem 8 of my CAP, This World...
Ah how ironic...scolded for doing something they had wanted us to do...
Come have a taste of my life...scolded for helping another, forced to sleep at 10 on new year's eve, forced to listen to parents and grandmothers arguing as i lie on my bed at 1 in the morning with 8 o clock training next...forced to listen to those meetings on phones and translate documents...forced to solve their problems when they created it themselves...
Dammit...
Dammit...
Dammit...
Saturday, December 29, 2007
ezlink rebellion
Hmm...perhaps you have't heard...but there will be a variety of seemingly "fun" events going to take place in our orientation next year, for a full list of details, proceed to asknlearn website, where you will be able to download the condemned form and letter, with your own printer and ink i suppose, if you are not jiawen and goes to grace with a chauffeur* and print it out, of course, she dosen't mind, she rides in a mercedes**! hah.
The first event include reporting to school in the first day on 2nd jan for our class admin and briefing. i do hope i get to retain my treasurer position as pretending to be the tax collector has never been so fun with a bag of coins jingling merrily in my pocket. of course, it would not be possible if A.A. takes over the form teacher post, so keep your fingers crossed! (and of course, if we have to vote again, ((definitely)) , do remember to vote for me, hah, not that i am trying to take attention or whatever as i'm not that kinda person, its just i really like my post and do hope you can help me keep it, its alright if you do not wish to vote for me, but i understand if you are in two minds as if you do, you may have betrayed who you really wanted to be treasurer, but if you don't, you are plunging yourself into grave danger.hah)
The next event include the Xplore sh!t, which will take place around singapore like amazing race, (i guess) as they asked us to top up our ezlink cards...hmm...why can't the damn thing provide us with a lil transport out of their overflowing wallets? a swipe of a card or a ruffle of fresh banknotes?
This is rebellion, we are forced to pay our own money for something we are forced to do? aha...i've caught you there in your futile bleatings of excuses...
this is a government aided school, so where does all the money from the damn ERP and road taxes go? not to mention a 2% increase in GST? it should go to the less priveledged and to aid education in schools like us, not like independent schools...(300$ a month for rich asses) so we should be priveledged...i'm not writing this as we can't take the trouble and pain of travelling to many places in public transport and be squashed in the crowd (of course excluding some who are too rich and pampered to survive, so a flick of a button on their N95 8GB and their private helicopter comes to call...)
hmm...if you noticed, there are more ERP gantries and of course, longer operation times...not to mention rising amounts of tax and other things which affect daily lives of the average...ah the government...heh...we must live with this...
aha...i'm writing this so we can be more priveledged...our lives are good already...for you that is...but why not make it better when we can?
So i suggest we take action...
Next, on sandcastle madness...i do not have sandcastle building experience as it is classified as "a carefree and fun activity, for ones with freedom and plenty of family time"...which i do not have hah! and its gonna last for 8 hours...hmm...a good 8 hours of my life wasted ...i could have been working for 8 hours for my money!
Dammit...how narrow-minded the school is...not considering manpower of a class like 1L...or rather 2L...or the disexperience of ppl like me who do not enjoy such activities and fun on the beach (which i had not went for more than 2 years)...
Dammit...why can't it be better?
On a slightly happier note, i downloaded photoshop trial...which lasts for 30 days...and i'm making some random but nice pics...which i will show below...
finally i would like to wish u ppl a happy new year early as i don't think i will have time to post on the actual midnight stroke...so happy new year...hah...
Photoshop Edited Pictures
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Christmas...
Let's hope for a better christmas next year...
Merry Christmas a day late...cuz i gotta do homework whole day yesterday...of course ain't got no Christmas dinner...so spent whole day chionging and completing CAP...i thought that 2007's Christmas would be just like any other day...until the night. In order to encourage some China merchants my dad knew to buy more property in Singapore, so he could draw commision, my dad and his property advisor brought the two merchants on a property shopping spree to the Night Safari, and it just happened some of the companions of the two merchants had something on and did not turn up, so there are three spare tickets, so my sis, my grandma and me decided to go...excellent...first time i ever went to night safari, but at the expense of a dinner, as the property buying gang had dinner already, so i starved for the night, but got to go to the night safari for the first time, hmm...do you think its a good deal?
It was ok la...and the animals are really close...and some other tourist's camera nearly got confiscated as he turn on flash...lawls...should be i go confiscate mah...then got free cam...then we were supposed to keep quiet and not scare the animals away...but then my grandma...who don't understand a word of english, and seriously not even more than 1 word..she only knows how to say "hello"...lawls...and she kept blabbering about in the tram...until the tour guide had to remind her several times to keep quiet...lawls...but after that my dad and the other property advisor decided to treat em" rich dudes to supper...hokkien mee, satay, otah and durian for dessert...hmm excellent...all that for free...not bad...but at the expense of christmas presents...so i'm not sure which deal was better...no christmas presents but a trip to a night safari and a delicious and cheap supper? or christmas presents but no first time to night safari and singapore local food delights? hmm not sure which christmas presents i would get...so i am unsure...but there is only one route for me to take...the supper route...so even if i chose not to go...there won't be any christmas presents...so i expect the trip to the night safari and the supper would do...
Merry christmas 1 day late...congrats to whoever got a good haul for this year's christmas presents...well...for those who have nothing under the christmas tree...well...you are welcome aboard ss. sadness...my boat...haha...excellent no-screw lifeboat with less than half a tonne which can make about 1 knot...of course you have to row...as i am not rich enough to own a double screw triple decker private schooner...lawls...
Homework report: CAP done, Maths done, Chinese book nearly done, chen yu dun care, lawls...thats about all of it...har...
Oh yeah regarding the outing...it was sad many couldn't make it on the appointed date...so we hafta wait summore...hmm...maybe thats a good chance lost...maybe it won't change even if it is postponed...so i'm not sure...
I'm seizing this opportunity to post as much as possible as it may not be possible for me to post in any time soon...as school is startin and i would be banned from com in weekdays(most probably, unless some miracle happens...which i doubt)...hmm...my parents think sec 2 is exceptionally important as they dun wanna me to end up in 3A...hmm...so that means much less chance of going out wif all yer merry folks next year...and my grandmother listened to some fortune teller which said that if i don't work hard for the start of the year next year...i would suffer in the examinations...and she is telling me that at least 5 times a day...as for me...i don't really believe in fortune telling...i believe in solid materialism and hard work...wah sian...but that is the reality...so we can't do anything...
Another thing about homework...for CAP..."love poem" reflections are very hard to write...as that kinda thing is personal(i don't mean anything) and...lol...its difficult to write reflections for such poems...so if anybody got any tips for that...feel free to talk in the tagboard...
Merry Christmas once again...and see you next year...oh yeah i nearly 4got...happy birthday jj...or rather...merry birthday...
Merry Christmas ...
CAP Contents
I - Welcome
Welcome poem for the mystical contents of the CAP.
II - Silhouette
Edited and better version of previous Black and White series poem.
III - Black and White
Main poem for the series Black and White, depicting best Black and White works combined.
IV - Watch Your Back
Edited and deeper version of previous poem, Watch Your Back, depicting revenge for all the suffering.
V - I am Here, You are There
New work. Depicting sadness of seperation. "Love Poem".
VI - Smile
I haven't smiled in my photos for 3 years, but i am trying to change that. Depicting real life experience emo poem.
VII - Jazz
Inspired from jazz music, my favourite genre of music.
VIII - This World
Rebellion poem. I feel that i could change the world with this poem.
IX - Night in the City
My-style poem. Night in the City similar to poem analysis poem in the LA EOY exam.
X - Time Tellers
Inspired from Broken Hourglass and Sundial in the Storm.
XI - Secret
Emo - subject poem. Revolves around something simple yet special, secret.
XII - Midnight
Been wanting to write this for a long time. Specially chose poem 12 for midnight.
XIII - Guns
Also been wanting to write something like this for a long time. Inspired from Watch your Back.
XIV - Ace of Spades
Slightly edited version of the all-time favourite Ace of Spades. Features special word and letter formation.
XV - Airport Boulevard
Inspiration poem while driving along Airport Boulevard, the main route to the airport.
XVI - No One Else
Longest poem in the CAP, and probably also the emo-est and "lovesickest". This reflection gave me the most trouble.
XVII - The Unfinished
The ending note on the CAP, depicting emo-ness of the end and starting, like the stuff you see in movies, drama and book series.
Merry Christmas a day late...cuz i gotta do homework whole day yesterday...of course ain't got no Christmas dinner...so spent whole day chionging and completing CAP...i thought that 2007's Christmas would be just like any other day...until the night. In order to encourage some China merchants my dad knew to buy more property in Singapore, so he could draw commision, my dad and his property advisor brought the two merchants on a property shopping spree to the Night Safari, and it just happened some of the companions of the two merchants had something on and did not turn up, so there are three spare tickets, so my sis, my grandma and me decided to go...excellent...first time i ever went to night safari, but at the expense of a dinner, as the property buying gang had dinner already, so i starved for the night, but got to go to the night safari for the first time, hmm...do you think its a good deal?
It was ok la...and the animals are really close...and some other tourist's camera nearly got confiscated as he turn on flash...lawls...should be i go confiscate mah...then got free cam...then we were supposed to keep quiet and not scare the animals away...but then my grandma...who don't understand a word of english, and seriously not even more than 1 word..she only knows how to say "hello"...lawls...and she kept blabbering about in the tram...until the tour guide had to remind her several times to keep quiet...lawls...but after that my dad and the other property advisor decided to treat em" rich dudes to supper...hokkien mee, satay, otah and durian for dessert...hmm excellent...all that for free...not bad...but at the expense of christmas presents...so i'm not sure which deal was better...no christmas presents but a trip to a night safari and a delicious and cheap supper? or christmas presents but no first time to night safari and singapore local food delights? hmm not sure which christmas presents i would get...so i am unsure...but there is only one route for me to take...the supper route...so even if i chose not to go...there won't be any christmas presents...so i expect the trip to the night safari and the supper would do...
Merry christmas 1 day late...congrats to whoever got a good haul for this year's christmas presents...well...for those who have nothing under the christmas tree...well...you are welcome aboard ss. sadness...my boat...haha...excellent no-screw lifeboat with less than half a tonne which can make about 1 knot...of course you have to row...as i am not rich enough to own a double screw triple decker private schooner...lawls...
Homework report: CAP done, Maths done, Chinese book nearly done, chen yu dun care, lawls...thats about all of it...har...
Oh yeah regarding the outing...it was sad many couldn't make it on the appointed date...so we hafta wait summore...hmm...maybe thats a good chance lost...maybe it won't change even if it is postponed...so i'm not sure...
I'm seizing this opportunity to post as much as possible as it may not be possible for me to post in any time soon...as school is startin and i would be banned from com in weekdays(most probably, unless some miracle happens...which i doubt)...hmm...my parents think sec 2 is exceptionally important as they dun wanna me to end up in 3A...hmm...so that means much less chance of going out wif all yer merry folks next year...and my grandmother listened to some fortune teller which said that if i don't work hard for the start of the year next year...i would suffer in the examinations...and she is telling me that at least 5 times a day...as for me...i don't really believe in fortune telling...i believe in solid materialism and hard work...wah sian...but that is the reality...so we can't do anything...
Another thing about homework...for CAP..."love poem" reflections are very hard to write...as that kinda thing is personal(i don't mean anything) and...lol...its difficult to write reflections for such poems...so if anybody got any tips for that...feel free to talk in the tagboard...
Merry Christmas once again...and see you next year...oh yeah i nearly 4got...happy birthday jj...or rather...merry birthday...
Merry Christmas ...
CAP Contents
I - Welcome
Welcome poem for the mystical contents of the CAP.
II - Silhouette
Edited and better version of previous Black and White series poem.
III - Black and White
Main poem for the series Black and White, depicting best Black and White works combined.
IV - Watch Your Back
Edited and deeper version of previous poem, Watch Your Back, depicting revenge for all the suffering.
V - I am Here, You are There
New work. Depicting sadness of seperation. "Love Poem".
VI - Smile
I haven't smiled in my photos for 3 years, but i am trying to change that. Depicting real life experience emo poem.
VII - Jazz
Inspired from jazz music, my favourite genre of music.
VIII - This World
Rebellion poem. I feel that i could change the world with this poem.
IX - Night in the City
My-style poem. Night in the City similar to poem analysis poem in the LA EOY exam.
X - Time Tellers
Inspired from Broken Hourglass and Sundial in the Storm.
XI - Secret
Emo - subject poem. Revolves around something simple yet special, secret.
XII - Midnight
Been wanting to write this for a long time. Specially chose poem 12 for midnight.
XIII - Guns
Also been wanting to write something like this for a long time. Inspired from Watch your Back.
XIV - Ace of Spades
Slightly edited version of the all-time favourite Ace of Spades. Features special word and letter formation.
XV - Airport Boulevard
Inspiration poem while driving along Airport Boulevard, the main route to the airport.
XVI - No One Else
Longest poem in the CAP, and probably also the emo-est and "lovesickest". This reflection gave me the most trouble.
XVII - The Unfinished
The ending note on the CAP, depicting emo-ness of the end and starting, like the stuff you see in movies, drama and book series.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
finally...
Good Evening, finally can post le...excellent...com still havent fixed but mighta guess i would take a risk...so nvms...hmm...mother's been overseas for 1 week...and promised to be back yesterday...but then delayed by 5 more days by some more matters to take care of...hmm...i had always knew adults could have never kept promises...and my outing is in grave danger...hmm...i had expected this quite some time ago...homework halfway through...maths done and CAP almost...left chinese...wa sianz...CAP is ok la...but ran out of ideas after poem 12...i planned my titles first...then worked from there...now left 3 poems...i hope i can make it to da outing...but it depends on luck...so until then...i've gotta wait...thanks for the birthday well-wishes...i doubt there will be more posts until my com is fixed...i do not wish to take any more risks...so...Merry Christmas...
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Forced to hide that contempt with a smile...
Hmm...what if your grandmother decided to visit from overseas during your holiday...for...2 weeks? that may be good for you oh i don't know...gifts? fun? freedom? oh i don't know...but in my case...well...you don't wanna know...but i'm tellin ya...
Buisness partner came along...inventor of the highway signboards and stuff which light up in the dark...and those glow in the dark stuff which you paste on the walls...innovative..creative and ambitious...but utterly bitter for me...
Yep rich ppl who count money in millions and stocks and property...and everything must go along with ...so i am forced to give up my favourite seat in the world so far...the left front seat of my dad's car...and be squeezed in the back row in the middle between my grandmother on my right and my mother and sister on my left..yep...i have long legs and wide shoulders and a generally tall build...so i'm stuck there...but lucky me i am pretty thin...so its one good thing...but it is drowned by more problems...
Yep...good dinner...but hardly anything to satisfy my gi-normous appetite which is contrary to the inventor's amazingly tiny vegetarian stomach...so its a problem...went home with stomach aching with hunger...yep...but another good thing is that i got a new pair of converse shoes...black and gold...very nice...but it does not fit me well...they misread the male 10 US size as the female 11.5 US size...which means they think i am female or they are not english literate...so i gotta wear them as many times as possible before my foot outgrows the shoe...which is going to be pretty soon...considering my usual size of 11...
Erm...me and my grandmother don't get along very well...i mean...not as well as a obedient grandson to a fussy but caring grandmother...i'm rebellious...which is contrary to what she likes...and what she likes is obedience and going by her ways...which is contrary to her character...if you can get through all that mind-tounge tying o get what it means...
Well...there are lots more to say...whatever they talk about is not what i like exactly...if you think i am the treasurer and therefore likes exploring the world of finance and money...in short...the world of adults...then you are wrong...the world of adults is a dangerous yet boring territory which shouldnt be accesible to us younger people...enjoying the full fun of life in our teenage years but unfortunately their world has invaded much into ours and changed it greatly...thus greatly influencing us and my life can be a simple example...but i am not so easily perturbed...fron those long and ardous talks i understand about their world and how to stop it...but unfortunately i wont be able to do it in time before we too reach the years which is time for us to be consumed into their world too...
I believe i can change the world to the way in which it will be more fun and carefree without the woes of the slight 1 mm decline on the stock market chart and the jolt of excitement resulting in heart attack when hearing the news of rapidly growing property markets...i believe i can change the world...but i need help and support...so are you in?
unfortunately i can't elaborate more as now i am forced to hide my contempt with a smile which reveals my ugly teeth...and i still wonder why they complain i don't smile enough in photographs when they know very well they are the problem...and my fate and destiny adds to it...for a long long time...my face remains blank and expressionless in my photo album...but i hope that will change..
"I'm trying to stop what is happening to others now...but not in time to stop it from happening to us..."
Buisness partner came along...inventor of the highway signboards and stuff which light up in the dark...and those glow in the dark stuff which you paste on the walls...innovative..creative and ambitious...but utterly bitter for me...
Yep rich ppl who count money in millions and stocks and property...and everything must go along with ...so i am forced to give up my favourite seat in the world so far...the left front seat of my dad's car...and be squeezed in the back row in the middle between my grandmother on my right and my mother and sister on my left..yep...i have long legs and wide shoulders and a generally tall build...so i'm stuck there...but lucky me i am pretty thin...so its one good thing...but it is drowned by more problems...
Yep...good dinner...but hardly anything to satisfy my gi-normous appetite which is contrary to the inventor's amazingly tiny vegetarian stomach...so its a problem...went home with stomach aching with hunger...yep...but another good thing is that i got a new pair of converse shoes...black and gold...very nice...but it does not fit me well...they misread the male 10 US size as the female 11.5 US size...which means they think i am female or they are not english literate...so i gotta wear them as many times as possible before my foot outgrows the shoe...which is going to be pretty soon...considering my usual size of 11...
Erm...me and my grandmother don't get along very well...i mean...not as well as a obedient grandson to a fussy but caring grandmother...i'm rebellious...which is contrary to what she likes...and what she likes is obedience and going by her ways...which is contrary to her character...if you can get through all that mind-tounge tying o get what it means...
Well...there are lots more to say...whatever they talk about is not what i like exactly...if you think i am the treasurer and therefore likes exploring the world of finance and money...in short...the world of adults...then you are wrong...the world of adults is a dangerous yet boring territory which shouldnt be accesible to us younger people...enjoying the full fun of life in our teenage years but unfortunately their world has invaded much into ours and changed it greatly...thus greatly influencing us and my life can be a simple example...but i am not so easily perturbed...fron those long and ardous talks i understand about their world and how to stop it...but unfortunately i wont be able to do it in time before we too reach the years which is time for us to be consumed into their world too...
I believe i can change the world to the way in which it will be more fun and carefree without the woes of the slight 1 mm decline on the stock market chart and the jolt of excitement resulting in heart attack when hearing the news of rapidly growing property markets...i believe i can change the world...but i need help and support...so are you in?
unfortunately i can't elaborate more as now i am forced to hide my contempt with a smile which reveals my ugly teeth...and i still wonder why they complain i don't smile enough in photographs when they know very well they are the problem...and my fate and destiny adds to it...for a long long time...my face remains blank and expressionless in my photo album...but i hope that will change..
"I'm trying to stop what is happening to others now...but not in time to stop it from happening to us..."
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Best Times
I got my new phone...N81...damn nice and got alot entertainment stuff..still havent got used to nokia phone yet...so need some time...all this is gettin better and better...got new phone...got slightly more freedom...but i still havent done holiday homework...and they are quite pissed...wahh sian...dun feel like starting...but CAP should be quite easy for me...and i havent visited asknlearn for more than a month lol...i'll be posting more next time...now very sian...
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
The Next Outing
Hey yos...quite some time bo post le rite eh? lols...i'm posting in the mornin as both parents got work at the tv station going on...so yeah...no intently peering eyes at the computer screen and sudden rushes into the room to see what i'm doing...so its good :D. Eh anyways whens the next outing? my parents are softening up recently for some particular reason...i dunno which...and they start asking me how come i'm not asking them for permission for more outings...well...thats what they said ..."嗨，为什么最近没来烦我？为什么不出去和你那些一天到晚出去玩的朋友玩呢？是不是考试不好呢？lol...thats kinda what they said...cuz they ask me for the exam results for nearly everyone i know...which is nearly everyine in the class...and they compare me with them - -"...and also...it appear i did not seem as lousy as they expected....compared to the others hehe...yeah...not in the bottom of the class at least? hehe...they say the others all whole day go out play play also exam not so good lol...actually very good le...in my opinion...then i tried to rebel and stuff...but then they say don't care what others do and think..."just do what we tell you to do"...but then when they go for those boring buisness dinners and meetings and stuff they seem to mind "quite some" about what others think of them...like my dad saying his buisness is blooming and he wants a new car...apparently a better good looking luxury sedan to have a show for his fellow buisness partners...and my mom saying i must wear collared shirts and long pants when his buisness partners heartily invite the whole family to expensive dinners...and also they want to return the favour by treating them too...to great good expensive dinners..."to my advantage too...hehe...good food yeah"...
So anyway...whens the next outing? since they are softening up i better seize the chance eh? or i got something to write about for chinese compo if next year give us same topic...
The Next Outing ,Version I
I'm here,withering in my house,
Stuffed with boredom and wrapped in restlessness,
In a bucket of fun i tried to douse
myself,
But the bucket had a leak,curses!
Finally i recieved news of the next outing,
I've seized the chance and i'm already preparing,
Finally an end will come to this boredom and pain,
And i smile at the thought that i will see you again.
So anyway...whens the next outing? since they are softening up i better seize the chance eh? or i got something to write about for chinese compo if next year give us same topic...
The Next Outing ,Version I
I'm here,withering in my house,
Stuffed with boredom and wrapped in restlessness,
In a bucket of fun i tried to douse
myself,
But the bucket had a leak,curses!
Finally i recieved news of the next outing,
I've seized the chance and i'm already preparing,
Finally an end will come to this boredom and pain,
And i smile at the thought that i will see you again.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
we met today...a rare chance...
We Met Today (15th November AD 2007)
One month from my birthday 2007,
I met the one who made my world truly vibrant,
Even though we met in the dark and dim,
That meeting meant much more than it seems.
It was on a Thursday,my frequent routine,
Of practice and training,endless it seems,
I've always faced it with fear and dread,
But today it will change,i will revive from the dead.
I've always taken it at a walk,
Walking in silence without noise and talk,
But then in the distance i saw you there,
I will jerk out of my silence today,I don't care.
We neared each other at the other side,
Thinking quickly,i will decide,
To do this or to do that,i don't know,
But i will try a different image to show.
I decided on a simple talk of hello,
And hoped it would be sweet and mellow,
But then you did not reply nor respond,
I was afraid i had done something wrong.
I hung my head and walked on,
A heavy coat of disappointment i had donned,
But then miraculously everything turned 180,(one eighty)
You looked up in surprise,enthusiastic and friendly.
You said hello,i said hi,
My spirits were lifted up high,
I could've sworn i saw you smile,
That scene i'll remember for quite a while.
Mingled awkwardness,happiness and surprise,
They formed a bridge between us,forever it will rise,
You had changed my ordinary,boring day,
To something i shall remember forever,i could say.
As you walked away,too did i,
That brief 3 seconds i will not forget till i die,
Smiling as i walked into the drizzling rain,
I hoped in secret it will happen again.
One month from my birthday 2007,
I met the one who made my world truly vibrant,
Even though we met in the dark and dim,
That meeting meant much more than it seems.
It was on a Thursday,my frequent routine,
Of practice and training,endless it seems,
I've always faced it with fear and dread,
But today it will change,i will revive from the dead.
I've always taken it at a walk,
Walking in silence without noise and talk,
But then in the distance i saw you there,
I will jerk out of my silence today,I don't care.
We neared each other at the other side,
Thinking quickly,i will decide,
To do this or to do that,i don't know,
But i will try a different image to show.
I decided on a simple talk of hello,
And hoped it would be sweet and mellow,
But then you did not reply nor respond,
I was afraid i had done something wrong.
I hung my head and walked on,
A heavy coat of disappointment i had donned,
But then miraculously everything turned 180,(one eighty)
You looked up in surprise,enthusiastic and friendly.
You said hello,i said hi,
My spirits were lifted up high,
I could've sworn i saw you smile,
That scene i'll remember for quite a while.
Mingled awkwardness,happiness and surprise,
They formed a bridge between us,forever it will rise,
You had changed my ordinary,boring day,
To something i shall remember forever,i could say.
As you walked away,too did i,
That brief 3 seconds i will not forget till i die,
Smiling as i walked into the drizzling rain,
I hoped in secret it will happen again.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
other nice poem
I feel your eyes upon me,
and force myself not to look your way.
This endless game we play gets harder
each cold night and empty day.
Its always been written in the pages,
its always been between the lines.
Those invisible clues
we leave for each other to find.
How long will our game last?
How long till you are just a ghost in my past?
I sense you pass behind me in a crowded room,
back to back we stand
and I feel your fingertips brush mine.
Yet that is as close to holding hands as we shall get,
without leaving clues others may find.
How long till you next come to me?
How long till we may steal a moment
a touch out of range of prying eyes to see?
You know I cannot tell her.
You know I do not know how.
Yet we both know it is impossible,
theres nothing we can do now.
So we’ll meet in secret,
Every mark hidden,
Never to be known,
For our love is forbidden.
this nice poem is done by someone else other than me...found it while surfing online...its kinda nice...i hope i will be as pro as that guy one day...
also...if there is any more outings tell me early early...otherwise my chances are very low...haiz sianz...holidays = sianz...not posting longer cuz they are coming back from buisness dinner soon...sianz...gotta post in secret...
and force myself not to look your way.
This endless game we play gets harder
each cold night and empty day.
Its always been written in the pages,
its always been between the lines.
Those invisible clues
we leave for each other to find.
How long will our game last?
How long till you are just a ghost in my past?
I sense you pass behind me in a crowded room,
back to back we stand
and I feel your fingertips brush mine.
Yet that is as close to holding hands as we shall get,
without leaving clues others may find.
How long till you next come to me?
How long till we may steal a moment
a touch out of range of prying eyes to see?
You know I cannot tell her.
You know I do not know how.
Yet we both know it is impossible,
theres nothing we can do now.
So we’ll meet in secret,
Every mark hidden,
Never to be known,
For our love is forbidden.
this nice poem is done by someone else other than me...found it while surfing online...its kinda nice...i hope i will be as pro as that guy one day...
also...if there is any more outings tell me early early...otherwise my chances are very low...haiz sianz...holidays = sianz...not posting longer cuz they are coming back from buisness dinner soon...sianz...gotta post in secret...
Friday, November 9, 2007
Night isn't a limit...for me...
Yos...i'm posting again as now very sian nobody online maple and mom go out...so seize the chance to post lo...heheh...erms...about the monday watching anthony dance through the HD camera thing...i am quite certain i can go!its certainly a miracle coming true! Yeah!...lols...dunno why la...now stuff getting better lo...but it still comes with a price though...hafta answer a massive payload of questions and stuff...and much doubts from my answers and mistrust etched in their faces...but they have no proof i've been to the arcade and been shopping...so yeah its fine...and i just got selected for the SF yeah...its gonna be fun haha...go play play with the next year the year 1s hehe...others are Elaine,Jia Ling,Wee Qin,both justin'n's and HongYi...yeah...
I'm beggining to feel night isn't a limit for me...its 6.30 pm...way past the time my parents usually allow me out alone...dunno for what reason haha...shing chun should very well know...lol...well...but its until 8.30pm and they have hardly any objections...so its getting better and better...it used to be once in 3 or 4 months but now i can go out like once in a week...better than what i expected once in 2 weeks...YEAH!
I've decided to reveal the first 2 verses of my 7th poem in the CAP,"The 7th Poem"...
I'm sitting here,writing this,
Hoping it will not go amiss,
This is the 7th poem of my CAP,
Which you are dearly welcomed to read.
Why am I writing this,i don't know,
But it's simply for marks i've been told,
Marks,grades,certificates,all,
Is all this world only cared for.
Whatdayya think? good enough to inpress who would be most likely our LA teacher, A.A.?
I'm trying not to accept the fact...but if it really is...then i have no choice but to face it...
Thats the problem with some of you...you don't choose to accept the facts even though its true reality...this leads to over thinking and usage of brain and avoiding the painful,cruel reality.Thats the problem...
But some however,can think it through in a very sensible and open way...and not get more problems with the harsh reality...I admire those who can...i really do...but its amazing how you could do it...thats what i call 想得开。。。
More revelations...
I am here,you are there,
There's many things we can compare,
And differences we need to share,
And i hope that you would care.
Yeah well...its kinda difficult to convey those messages...most of you wouldnt understand...~
I still remember those words...
夸张。。。
Its ok 的啦！
Terming me as "he"...lols...how we always tried to avoid looking at each other ~
Even so we got a glance or two lols...
I'll see you on mon...yeah...
I'm beggining to feel night isn't a limit for me...its 6.30 pm...way past the time my parents usually allow me out alone...dunno for what reason haha...shing chun should very well know...lol...well...but its until 8.30pm and they have hardly any objections...so its getting better and better...it used to be once in 3 or 4 months but now i can go out like once in a week...better than what i expected once in 2 weeks...YEAH!
I've decided to reveal the first 2 verses of my 7th poem in the CAP,"The 7th Poem"...
I'm sitting here,writing this,
Hoping it will not go amiss,
This is the 7th poem of my CAP,
Which you are dearly welcomed to read.
Why am I writing this,i don't know,
But it's simply for marks i've been told,
Marks,grades,certificates,all,
Is all this world only cared for.
Whatdayya think? good enough to inpress who would be most likely our LA teacher, A.A.?
I'm trying not to accept the fact...but if it really is...then i have no choice but to face it...
Thats the problem with some of you...you don't choose to accept the facts even though its true reality...this leads to over thinking and usage of brain and avoiding the painful,cruel reality.Thats the problem...
But some however,can think it through in a very sensible and open way...and not get more problems with the harsh reality...I admire those who can...i really do...but its amazing how you could do it...thats what i call 想得开。。。
More revelations...
I am here,you are there,
There's many things we can compare,
And differences we need to share,
And i hope that you would care.
Yeah well...its kinda difficult to convey those messages...most of you wouldnt understand...~
I still remember those words...
夸张。。。
Its ok 的啦！
Terming me as "he"...lols...how we always tried to avoid looking at each other ~
Even so we got a glance or two lols...
I'll see you on mon...yeah...
Thursday, November 8, 2007
100% to 1%..........
Hey all...i can't wait for tomorrow...its gonna be fun yeah...but i'm missing out the front...kinda nice part though...shopping...
Ah shopping...the simple act of exchanging hard earned cash for simple life's needs and wants...erm...mostly wants in your case ...haha...
Sorry for this ultra short post...mom's eyeing me from the sofa...simple to see my screen...eh...ah...sad...see you all tomorrow...even though i am missing out on some...i am contended with little...100% against 1%...
Yos...wanna save posts so i'm stating todays post from yesterdays...
Today quite fun la...play 1 round of daytona and watch the bee movie...lol...justinn's idea...nearly fell asleep halfway through...and i've just discovered...ant can dance! thats amazing...street jazz huh?...not bad eh?...haha...ima come attack you with High Definition Camera...i still can't imagine ant trying to dance...but ima go to samsung for help...as its not that hard to imagine...lol...
Dude you are making me excited about monday...ima get 2.0 megapixels definition of anthony's true dance talent...haha...all quite free eh? can go dance lessons de...me no freedom nor time nor fun...so sad lors lols~...
I've nearly finished my CAP lo...so now sianz....but i'm always open and eager for outings...if conditions permits...yeah...most of you are quite fine and free with stuff but i am not...yeah...so its not my fault if i can't join you in your fun eh?...but today was lucky though...they were in a good mood yesterday i guess...so yeah...
Quotes and stuff...
"How would you feel,if your privacy is heavily penetrated and invaded?In incidents such as,having your handphone and email message inbox "ripped through" by your dad?They belong to you and is yours to peruse when desired,not for others..."
"How would you feel,if others are enjoying at a minor level of labour,but you are hardly getting anything from a result of heavy labour and stress?"
"How would you feel,if you can't join your friends in their moments of fun,but instead forced to be confined at home,or rather,prison,to do stuff which are not of enjoyment and fun,but merely more stress,strife,and pain?"
"How would you feel,if all the above statements are not your fault and you did nothing to deserve them,but yet still receive them while others are being treated the opposite or much less of it?Which is to mean,they are enjoying while you are not,but its not your fault..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel curious...how did they manage to get so much freedom and fun?And i will try to pursue it..."
"I tell you how i feel,i will feel a ripple of inspiration for rebellion for my own rights..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel like simply crashing down 11 floors through numerous bamboo poles to my death..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel the cruel intent which preceded murder,to fight for myself and not go down that easy..."
"Heheh...you can keep doing this to me...but you better be aware of what you would get if this continues..."
"Years from now...rebellion will stir among me...and possibly...us..."
"You better watch out..."
Ah shopping...the simple act of exchanging hard earned cash for simple life's needs and wants...erm...mostly wants in your case ...haha...
Sorry for this ultra short post...mom's eyeing me from the sofa...simple to see my screen...eh...ah...sad...see you all tomorrow...even though i am missing out on some...i am contended with little...100% against 1%...
Yos...wanna save posts so i'm stating todays post from yesterdays...
Today quite fun la...play 1 round of daytona and watch the bee movie...lol...justinn's idea...nearly fell asleep halfway through...and i've just discovered...ant can dance! thats amazing...street jazz huh?...not bad eh?...haha...ima come attack you with High Definition Camera...i still can't imagine ant trying to dance...but ima go to samsung for help...as its not that hard to imagine...lol...
Dude you are making me excited about monday...ima get 2.0 megapixels definition of anthony's true dance talent...haha...all quite free eh? can go dance lessons de...me no freedom nor time nor fun...so sad lors lols~...
I've nearly finished my CAP lo...so now sianz....but i'm always open and eager for outings...if conditions permits...yeah...most of you are quite fine and free with stuff but i am not...yeah...so its not my fault if i can't join you in your fun eh?...but today was lucky though...they were in a good mood yesterday i guess...so yeah...
Quotes and stuff...
"How would you feel,if your privacy is heavily penetrated and invaded?In incidents such as,having your handphone and email message inbox "ripped through" by your dad?They belong to you and is yours to peruse when desired,not for others..."
"How would you feel,if others are enjoying at a minor level of labour,but you are hardly getting anything from a result of heavy labour and stress?"
"How would you feel,if you can't join your friends in their moments of fun,but instead forced to be confined at home,or rather,prison,to do stuff which are not of enjoyment and fun,but merely more stress,strife,and pain?"
"How would you feel,if all the above statements are not your fault and you did nothing to deserve them,but yet still receive them while others are being treated the opposite or much less of it?Which is to mean,they are enjoying while you are not,but its not your fault..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel curious...how did they manage to get so much freedom and fun?And i will try to pursue it..."
"I tell you how i feel,i will feel a ripple of inspiration for rebellion for my own rights..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel like simply crashing down 11 floors through numerous bamboo poles to my death..."
"I tell you how i would feel,i would feel the cruel intent which preceded murder,to fight for myself and not go down that easy..."
"Heheh...you can keep doing this to me...but you better be aware of what you would get if this continues..."
"Years from now...rebellion will stir among me...and possibly...us..."
"You better watch out..."
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