Its rare for me to have excellent news, but i have today, as i got the laptop back, but with the setback of without maple...hmm...good enough...i'm satisfied =D.
I just ripped all of maple's music files from the game file itself...so i got 200 mb 6 hour worth of all the music you can ever hear in maple...how nice...
I will continue today with the second chapter of the so called "non-fiction educational novel"...
The Rebellion
Chapter II - Pain Beneath That Smile
Ever wondered why i always seem so calm when i face problems? and i only ventilate my anger out in a quick but powerful yet sustainable blast? its simple...once you get used to so much setbacks...you can easily cope with it and release it...but of course...sometimes its still very hard to comprehend the painful truth behind all these suffering...
During many of those frequent damn problems which i always mention, i do not always try to retort, as sometimes wit and instinct tells me not to retort, otherwise there will be trouble... so sometimes, i do the opposite instead, give a painfl smile and shrug my shoulders to suggest understanding and bow in defeat, as i have lost a battle again, and more of these will cause me to lose the war...
"We may have lost the battle, but not the war, so we shall continue to fight on."
Smiling really helps sometimes, if they are in a good mood they may take it that you understand what they really want to blast into your mind, but if they are in a bad mood...they will probably get worked up even more and start on a new scolding topic, "Smirking at them to think its funny."...really funny...how ridiculously crazy reasons they think up for ventilating THEIR anger on us ... heh... *laughs bitterly*
So that leads us to another topic, " forced to hide you contempt with a smile when they are causing it"..many times, THEY are the ones to unleash their anger from work and stress upon us, BUT we are forced to hide that mere impatience at first, but progressing on as time wears on, anger and rage, with at least an impassive face and sometimes even a smile, reach out a consoling hand, or utter forced words of encouragement ripped from our mouths by force. haiz... *grins in spite of myself*
let me recount an event which happened in the damn "vacation" back to shanghai in june last year, the one which caused me to lose out a place in the school team, even though it was not my fault...
there was this company diner, hmm... i think the 8th one out of 16 in our 3 week stay, we met up with the most people ever to attend a single dinner, i think about 22... and 16 out of 22 are smokers...and in china, they allow smoking in air-con areas, so soon enough only hearty laughs and rumble of boring adult talk could ring through the fogged, semi opque room which resembled a oven with a turkey on fire, we could barely see through all that smoke and i could hardly inhale the aromas of the fine food, (free ones of course, haha) but then i was forced to duck out into the brightly lit marble hallway from our enclosed room and inhale the tasty aromas of the shark's fin which a well dressed waiter was carrying past me at that time...haha...after that, they accused me of leaving a bad impression for the "bosses" as they apparently understood my quick escape for freedom for the air i breathe. i got a scolding for that but still, i was not to argue in front of those "bosses" and merely smile at them instead...dammit...
alright...back to now, smiling can be forced out of me, but sometimes it helps me cool my nerves, smiling can also be a warning of impending rage explosions...so do not be deceived by that what you think is a safe and merry smile which can turn deadly...
haha...so smile, even if you are forced to do it, as it can reduce punishment damage by a slight amount, at least something is better than nothing !
"Good evening, I'm Wei Heng, and a drink with you is all I want."
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